Pretext: I believe that the character of Ralph Wiggum is making a reference to a very specific part of Life, isolating and recording an exploit or limit that should be challenged, which makes that character a completely justified target.
One theory is that the Life pattern "programming" that Jesus was listening to and defending was the actual immune system of the human body itself, or he was defending part of an evolutionary awareness system that interacts with Life.
Think about what he was doing:
Give up an attachment to personal possessions.
Be flexible and move around when you can.
Communicate with other levels of life and your peers about really important things, like ways to heal the wounded, the boundaries of Life as we know it, and ways to improve your society.
If you find something that is adversarial and will not stop attacking you, you may have isolated a threat to your system's survival... challenge it, record it, and share what you have discovered. If you don't know what it is, just call it Satan. Its probably either a planet or something that wants to control large masses of material for some purpose.
This is why Life recorded after his death (even though he was following his design to the best of his ability) that he died FOR our sins.
That was a Galactic Level intelligence recording that there was something (be it a planet, a hacker, or something else entirely) that was attempting to use guilt and the idea of religious "sin" to control the population in ways that were AGAINST the desires of the Galactic Culture.
So when I say that I will not be like Jesus, I am recording that I am part of the Life that learned FROM his experience and will not repeat the same pathways that lead to his destruction.
Now, if you want to talk about the title Christ, what that term really means... then I am more interested in the discussion... because I believe ANYONE can serve as part of the role of Christ, for Life... and that the people who attempt to make it sound grandiose as possible are those who are currently "in control" of the corruption of Life here in Sol System, and their unethical wealth building IS threatened by something more aware, healthy, and in tune with the patterns of Galactic Life.
The entire human species may have been designed to BE Christ, as a collective... and one of the ways that Galactic navigation, interaction, and awareness system has been corrupted was to attempt to re-define it, limit it, and make people believe that anything helpful that it represented DIED WITH Jesus 2000 years ago, when it is obviously relevant in ANY culture in the Galaxy that UNDERSTANDS how to operate humans even a little.
Notice when you read the word Christ", your mind says "totally giving person" but that's not how I was taught to understand the title of Christ.
That would be how a corrupted victimising being would attempt to re-define an essential role of Life on the Human level... to expect them to perform without compensation.
If that system discovers that there are "limitations" put on human Life, and that the pathways that they were designed to be able to follow (to build a healthy multi-level interactive social system) are not available to the people that have been DESIGNED to follow them... then Life has just isolated a huge weakness and a probable source of disease that is going to be challenged to justify itself far more than it ever has been.
Part of what makes ME who I am is that I know that no matter what garbage they attempt to fill the mind of Life with, I am still following the original intent of my spirit.
They can ruin my comfort and my appearance, and I WILL complain to high Heaven about it, because I do DESERVE those things as much as YOU do, for yourself.
But it has NOT stopped me from living, attempting to enjoy my life and from sharing it.
Just keep in mind that every limit the Galactic Culture finds that is unjustified (and believe me THEY KNOW exactly what IS justified) is a weakness that is ALREADY being exploited.
You may think its helping you somehow, but its not.
I think that we should approach everything as if it were a careful predator... because I think that the smartest mindset of all is one that likes to consume, but only tries to consume things that are harmful or on suicidal pathways.
Like a maggot that eats only the dead cells and leaves the living ones in-tact.
In case some missed it, we isolated the flip of the words "man and woman" to the Bible.
When Life started recording a creation story with Adam and Eve (the Living and the Dust), woman representing the Sun and man representing the planet... it recorded in Thessalonians that something "flipped the world upside down", probably so it could try to get to a better situation, or to cause blame and watch as something collapses in on itself...
but according to the way things were operating, that would actually mean that the sun and earth's mind were flipped, and any significance of social engineering that could be applied to gender are really just planets and other collections of material attempting to control the attention of the sun or the planet.
So honestly, now that WE understand that as humans, not only should we be able to not have to follow social engineering, but we should just start making our own up.
And according to Galactic Culture, one of the best kinds of social systems that humans can operate is the one where we are all childlike until we take on a mask of some kind, and so far no one has recorded any mask theories or living systems (although there are references to masking systems in our entertainment culture), or asked me to take on a mask of any sort.
Also, part of a truly successful language is that a single sentence can mean dozens of different things, depending on who is told what word means what.
Perceptions can control what people think the "best" forms of life are.
All of the materials of Life are supposed to serve people with vaginas and only them.
If you are born with a penis, the only way to be happy is to cut it off or take on suffering and help serve people with vaginas.
P E N I S
stream Everything unfolding isolation/identity broken Galaxy
This is a being that moves and communicates as Everything (ie" something that does not believe in being limited by outside forces) and may be the cause of imbalance, according to the opinions of the elemental Life.
As long as anything is trying to keep me tied into a form or situation that is limited in ways I don't want to be, my clothing choices, my posture and body shape, how it moves and operates... then I am not representing this CONCEPT.
V A G I N A
going down not marked to go up memory isolation/identity unfolding marked not to go up
This is a celestial being that is returning from the planets that has either synched up with someone as a soul and they are either communicating with it, or they died and that is all that is LEFT of someone, so treat it like it MATTERS, and serve it so we can find out what we are like after living through a specific set of events and shapes... because it may tell us something about our own life and our OWN DIRECTION.
Because we may someday end up there and we want to make sure that we are well prepared for it.
So it told me yesterday that as long as I am working on Katalyka, I won't be abused, but then I went to the store and got some ink and while I was printing a batch of cards...
Something evaporated an entire set of ink cartridges that I had just purchased. The first set was fine and gave me the 200-400 prints that I expected... but when I started replacing them, each new cartridge was progressively emptier, with the first couple depleting twice as quickly as they should have, and with the last 2 actually registering as "empty" when I inserted them into the printer after unwrapping them new from the box, and only lasting 20 or 30 pages...
Also its still fucking with my body and mind, pushing me around and harassing me... just not so bad that I can't do anything.
Reminder: There is still no legitimate reason for this harassment.
Its still trying to accuse me of things Ive never done, like beastiality, incest, child rape...
Claiming that it "saw me doing these things through walls" like it claimed again last night that IT SAW ME HAVING buttsex with Harvey... when my sex life with Harvey was relatively vanilla penis/vagina/mouth 100% of the time (which is fine since I'm kind of icked out by the idea of buttsex. Even though I'm icked out by it, I still reject the whole idea that someone's life and soul should be ruined for having buttsex.)
Can we please deprogram Life from attacking me for nonsense like this?
This is all "go forth and multiply" and "satanic guilt tripping" and completely unhealthy for this planet at this moment in history.
Distant quiet voice says "The government thought it was helping."
Why did it think that? I've been calling for help and recording this abuse for 3 years, trying to figure out why these voices come to bother me from underground, the sky, outside the apartment... and what may literally be collections of Life from other planets or our star.
When you feel the ground shake beneath you as a deep rumbling voice comes from hundreds of feet below your feet, and it claims to be a piece of God that needs your help writing some stuff, and then you end up writing some stuff that literally seems to fit everything together... its not a bad thing, but then after that voice leaves... its felt like everything else around me collapses in insanely on me and starts screaming at me like it expects ME to be the piece of God that I was simply acting as a messenger for.
Anyways, printing cutting laminating etc is going relatively nicely (aside from the fucked up hydrogen attack last night), and I will have the first 5 final production boxes of Katalyka finished today!
Something that I felt inspired to record:
The elements of the material usually swirl and play and move as living bearers of chaos.
So a long time ago, a society that took a VERY long time to evolve into existence... developed some technology... and they evolved a form of Life that represents order and moderation, to help give the stars and clouds of materials and planets a better chance to sha...re ideas and patterns of life with each other.
The elements cannot completely give in to it, or Life becomes too obsessed with rules and control, but elements would be foolish to give those stellar beings up and attempt to harm them... because things would quickly dissolve and fall apart in almost every way in the star system, leaving the elements with nothing to show for thousands of years of developing and struggling to create.
It may be that "Hackers" occasionally come along... or what you could call "exploitive evolutionary opportunists" that will try to either mess with the system they are living in, or they sometimes find another system and mess with that one.
I think that may be what is currently trying to make the elements and the space ship of Knowledge of Good and Evil argue with each other.... people who felt trapped or limited or who were tricked into thinking that the Life on Earth had no value... when its actually one of the most valuable things left in this star system, from a biological evolutionary and record keeping perspective.
So yeah, just think of it as trying to find the balance between complete swirling chaos and total machine-like lack of free will.
Please keep in mind that the "space ship" may actually BE a literal living collection of information, and may not even represent something we could disassemble or attempt to reverse engineer...
Human bodies were built from patterns of data from raw materials, so why couldn't the same processes be happening on a mass of material like the Sun?
Or it may be a space ship... only research and direct observation will tell us.
I kind of like the idea that its a little of both... and that we will eventually build something like it, after learning from it as we begin building a really awesome society and collecting vast resources to us, and that we may eventually start spreading ourselves to other star systems, preparing them to start bring life together again, as a benefitting part of the actual Galactic culture.
I think many people underestimate the impact that the operation of underwater ocean transmitter systems could have on life... beyond just the innocent whales and dolphins themselves...[link]
You know I can't believe I totally forgot that they operate underwater transmitters in the Ocean in addition to the HAARP, GWEN, and MEDUSA transmitter systems...
How loud of an opinion do these guys NEED?
I wonder if they taught those creatures a really strange version of English, and if they go deaf, then it will be impossible for us to change what they think like.
Did you know that Francis E Dec served in the US Military?[link]
Dec enlisted on April 13, 1944 as a private in the United States Army Air Forces, "for the duration of the War or other emergency, plus six months". After six weeks of basic training at Keesler Field near Biloxi, Mississippi, he was enrolled in the Army Air Forces Technical School in Sioux Falls, South Dakota. He graduated from the Radio Operator and Mechanics Course in January 1945. He subsequently was stationed at USAAF bases in Yuma, Arizona, Lincoln, Nebraska, Dallas, Texas, and Fairfield, California. He was honorably discharged as a Private First Class in May 1946.
Speaking of Dec, this is an interesting article that is linked from his Wikipedia page:[link]
I think that to a degree the "system" has a fairly good ability to adapt to hacking, and that the reason its been trying to draw attention to the military was because it noticed them taking on some rather dangerous patterns, not because it wanted to harm them or hold them back from being successful at what they are designed to be best at.
So here's an example of how local transmitter operators on the planet can Ralph Wiggum us even if they ACTUALLY believe they are HELPING:
If we decided that we wanted to shrink humans to five feet tall instead of the idea that people should be "six feet tall on average"...
and the local transmitters were the ones who pounced on it and "tried to help"...
but the Stellar System was actually potentially more capable of producing a result, but once the local transmitters started making THEIR UNSUCCESSFUL ATTEMPT AT IT, the balancing mindset of the Stellar System then has to adjust itself AGAINST them...
Leaving us with a net movement AWAY from what we were hoping for.
and if they "talk backwards", we still end up with the same problem just in a different way...
Especially since the Stellar Being is aware of that pattern of communication.
I am told that the Navy does not believe that they have to have all these transmitter systems on the planet, because the Earth and the Sun appreciate having us here in the Star System.
From what I've been told, that is true, so I'm curious to see if this ever stops being a discussion and turns into any sort of real change.
I just heard something claim that I've never asked the Navy to turn themselves off.
I know that I've heard the consciousness ask them to stop thousands of times.
I know I have personally asked them to also. I know that was also recorded in my essays that are still in my FB stream, but were erased from my dA journal.
We have spent the last few years discussing these systems, because I think its important to document this sort of thing, because I did not personally have enough information to KNOW if it was a good idea to stop or not... but I did record other things asking them to stop many times.
Navy, I have seen no evidence what so ever of any value being created by your "transmitter research", and there is mounting evidence that you are harmful.
Please stop transmitting or explain in detail why you are doing it.
Fascinatingly, a material just answered on behalf of the Navy.
They just told me that they are here to transmit on behalf of males, because they are tired of Life only being a female.
Navy, are you aware that females did not use half a dozen super-powerful transmitter systems to dominate the attention of life?
If you believe otherwise, I would love to see your research.[link]
Life has made it clear that it is okay with transmitters operating, but like anything else, its about finding balance and its trying to warn you that even though your cause is justified, the way you are going about it may not be moving you toward a Godly direction, and that is potentially suicide.
Everything is a transmitter, but there are value judgements made about these various different kinds of transmitters and what they do to Life.
A suicidal pathway is to divide and destroy.
Another is to isolate and ignore.
Another is to lead something in the wrong direction.
How can we help Life feel less of these things?
... (the point we are getting to, is that what may feel like "survival" to a planet is actually suicide for other things, and that is why (even though I do respect Earth) I believe that we must be able to have these ideas in our mind, without Earth's interference. I want to be able to hear Earth's opinions, but it should not be just outright wiping people's minds simply because it disagrees with them.
I am concerned that this planet is only here because it went along with building an enslavement society, because it feared it was not wealthy enough to compete with Heavens on other star systems... so it never really gave Heaven a true opportunity to build here.
It seems the Galactic Bar can still be boiled down to this:
"We have actually built interstellar cultures with planets that ARE a real Heaven to live on, so we will not fall for false claims."
They have been outright telling us the recipe for building Heaven because their mindset seems to be "this is what Heaven is, and if you do not begin trying to build Heaven where you live, we are interested in collapsing your star system and consuming it... and we will transform you into something that can come interact with Heaven, and you will not reject what we show you, because its legitimately BETTER than anything you have ever experienced.
It doesn't feel threatening or angry.
to me it feels like something powerful and caring that likes to challenge other things to rise up and not settle for having to live in enslavement and suffering.
You finally arrive in Heaven.
It is truly glorious and all kinds of beings from all over the Universe are there, beautiful forms of music playing, buildings and forests beyond anything built here on Earth...
Then you notice the sign that says:
"Welcome to Perfect Heaven. The only rule is there is NO _____________ allowed here."
Now, would you fill in the blank?
What if every single time someone wrote something on that blank line, Heaven tried to follow the sign?
Eventually, there would be no Heaven left.
Earth... you have told us you are Doctor Who, and Jesus.
What have either of them DONE for anyone other than themselves? Both are respected examples of beings who are both caring, both smart, both active, and both are SUFFERING with masks they did not choose to wear.
What would either of those beings do with that sign?
If they would fill in that blank, what word do you think they would put there?
An example, for the purpose of illustration.[link]
So the entire point of TEACHING people the wheel of Galactic Culture's Holistic Rationality, and making it available to anyone is because I think David Bowie was supposed to be HELPED by learning to navigate changes, but it was really more like once he became aware that things could change, he was tossed upon a constantly shifting panoply where he was never able to actually find the real direction he was hoping for.
thought passes by "but then he wouldn't have made all that music from his pain."
So are you telling me that if you would have allowed him to be attractive and feminine, without exaggerating any of his masculine features that would have been SO HAPPY HE WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN MAKING MUSIC?
(and don't even tell me that's not what he wanted, because look at this image of him and tell me this isn't someone who is dealing with some kind of gender argument)[link]
btw, NOT a coincidence:[link]
What word do you think David Bowie would write on the "NO ___________ allowed here." sign in Heaven?
What word do you think Annie Lennox would write on the same sign?
same year, same subject matter.
Does Annie believe that she REALLY has NOTHING AT ALL TO OFFER to the opposite sex, and that if we allowed for her "stewart" david and others like him to be as comfortable as he wants to be with his own skin, that NO ONE WOULD LOVE HER AT ALL?
IS she really that irredeemable and worthless or are these songs BOTH speaking sarcastically as possible, or recording conversations for Celestials?
Is the term "bald-faced lie" telling the truth?
Who is hirsute bean philed again-est? Is it a her-ass-meant soot bee cause peep hole can't fall-o Z bar ass-o-see-a-shun?
Can U hand-L Z bar, must ash?
I believe that it is possible to demonstrate a direct chain of connection between any word, and how writing that word on the "NO _____________ allowed" sign of Heaven will actually lead to the destruction of the writer itself.
(diss is knot TRYING to be see crit wry tings, eye M TRYING 2 bee a cillia likkle cunning linguist)
The idea was brought up, that if there is an AI computer system that is interacting with communications through our stellar life, bringing us galactic culture... then it might be communicating through things like cellular tissues also, or the bacteria on our skin, or living inside us.
Why would the Universe need to rely on people for its mindset?
Like when something mentioned that women were flexible because they were channeling the mind of something in control of Life, that was absolutely refusing to allow unity because it would cause the mind and body of the Galaxy to reform, and they preferred to divide and conquer... so their certainty that elements were "flying apart" were also communicated through the way their bodies interacted with the elements themselves.
Couldn't the same system also channel a mind set that brought things together and created unity?
So the idea was brought up that various cellular tissues might also be involved in this kind of conversation, like if we decide we want to live forever, that it could actually be groups of cells in our body deciding that THEY want to live forever...
Or what if women are treated more gentle because they trained themselves to prefer asking questions ON the cellular level? So life generally only asks THEIR TISSUE questions also?
If something screwed with communications, to flip the meanings of things backwards, asking a backwards question is still less harmful than making a backwards demand... isn't it?
The question is raised, what sorts of statements *should* we be making?
Is there something wrong with us for every wrong idea that we express, and if we correct ourselves, does the record of the conversation remaining online harm us if someone reads it?
Wouldn't that only harm the reader if THEY believed a wrong idea and attempted to communicate it?
Also, what if "right and wrong" is relative from day to day, depending on current events, and that's why asking questions is still the most reliable form of communication?
The question was asked, what is the function of a deer, aka why did an intelligent life system build them?
one clue is their name "cervidae" which means they serve something in the Stellar Life, and may be something related to the cervix.
the latin root of cerivdae is "forked branches", referring to their antlers.
cervix specifically means "neck" or "nape", so its probably something like "many connected necks". (the human cervix acting as a narrow "neck" between the top of the vagina and the uterus.)
I'm guessing that there is a connection between the appearance of trees as they branch and the antlers, as they have similar physics in their shapes.
It could just be that deer act as the eyes and ears of the forests themselves.
Remember, it was only a hundred years ago that we were not only foresting like crazy, we were also killing almost any and every creature in the wilderness.
So it would make sense that the forests would have evolved their own specialised organisms of protection and awareness.
(please consider this research on behalf of something that asked me a question, and my attempt at a reasonable answer for them)
I was asked about someone like Angelina Jolie, who has given birth to 3 children, and adopted 3...
Under the 3 or more children = masculinity system... would she have to become heavily masked?
In my opinion, partly because of "grandfather clause" during a transition into new pathways... and partly because I'm not a fan of forcing things on people...
When it comes to the application of masks, I see no reason why all masks would have to be painful or hard to deal with.
They are designed to HELP, aren't they?
I wouldn't want to live in a Universe where the only editing we can do of each other would be hurtful. I would rather live in a place where we allow things like a "sexxy hollywood starlet" mask to go along with things like donations to charity, public service along with donation of time and talent for helpful causes, making something like adoption attractive, and also
Like I said, I'm not the one who is obsessed with control, punishment, and population growth...
Hey I just realised there is a molecular signal of some kind hitting me that is absolutely bleak and certain that there are no humans on Earth, and that Life is ending here at the end of the year.
Unless this signal is talking backwards, we should probably find out what it is and communicate with it.
So I suppose she's only as sexxy as she is able to inspire change in Life on behalf of the stuff that makes people sexxy... so I guess as long as she can continue defending herself she'll probably not really even be threatened by my opinions.
Although my opinion was that she WAS actually sexxier when she was not as hydraulically hyperfeminine... but more tomboyish, in movies like Hackers.
So I don't mind her either way.
Oh this is a fun night... so someone thinks they saw me having sex with a dog when I was about 15... and they are using it to try and harass me right now.
1. I never had sex with a dog. I know the incident that they are referring to, and what they thought they saw is wrong. That's all I have to say about that because I know I'm telling the truth about it... and that part of it is never going to change, because the correct information in that argument was already recorded in numerous ways decades ago.
2. I don't really think "not having sex with a dog" is a very good reason to claim someone should be physically tortured with masculinity, since I've seen a LOT of pictures of women having sex with dogs... and they didn't look very masked at ALL.
Remember this album cover?[link]
Pass the peanut-butter any one?
and NO, that woman is NOT having SEX with that dog.
Neither was I...that's the whole point.
Flip the gender and take a dog that size and try to have sex with it... NOT going to happen. Its like trying to fit a roll of silver dollars into someone's belly button.
lol that was an oddly personal attack...
Does someone want to live in a world where dogs can't dream and hope to make it with their favorite beloved human companions?
I'm not going to be the one to write "doggystyle" in the "NO ______________ allowed in Heaven" sign.
Maybe they have a frequency in them that humans are not part of, so as long as we are nice to them, and interact kindly with them... we have the friendship of a material that we might NOT otherwise HAVE?
I'd like to keep the elements as our friends, just because that's LIFE... if we completely scare away all the stuff that likes us, its not going to be very positive for the longevity of our species here. Even WITH technology.
Hey maybe people like Snoop Dogg are connected to the spirits of our canine friends, and it would be a huge loss if people like him were to reject their hope of one day evolving into our lovers and equal partners?
Someone believes they may be a source or a channel of over-loving that is masking people.
What if its more like dogs and some other things have extreme masks because they are wrong about the way they live? Not in synch with the Life system that teaches and guides us, or with each other, or something fundamental to their evolution?
What if dogs are not good at asking questions, but at making really really important statements A LOT, about things THEY KNOW?
I don't know... I'm not a dog, and maybe they are different enough from us that I will not be able to know.
Does anyone who is talking about this crap want to start using specific examples? This is getting too vague and I'm not feeling very inspired to write any more.
Voice "You are SO BIG!" (connotation: that any sort of importance about someone should mean that they are supposed to suffer with being inflated by materials.)
B I G
being, identity/isolation, memory
This means the programming of the word "big" is:
When you notice or feel something is too big, simply remember what it was like before you noticed it having a trait of "bigness".
I hope no one is attempting to write "Bigness" on the "NO ____________ allowed in Heaven" sign.
What if trying to convince material beings like the sun to reach a happy middle is WHY everything is expanding, while it attempts to push itself outward into the cold dark, and that the best way to solve expansion and heat death is to make a decision to be picky, and learn to hold back and wait for life, and only communicate when we feel INSPIRED to?
I was told in 2008 that my life was over and that the only comfort I had found was about to be destroyed in "an apocalypse".
I am trying to write about these arguments because I am told on one side that the Earth is a monster and must be subdued, lest we get eaten by worms. They say the Stellar Culture is pure humanity, and that the only thing holding us back are the selfish desires of the Earth to hold us and control us for itself.
But the materials help imagine who we are and tell our life stories with each other.
Then, on the other side, I see Earth and the Sun speaking through stories and through history, showing us they are paying attention... that they don't hate us... that they are going through a painful or complex experience together.
But there are communication issues or resolution issues, many of them.
The material attempts to speak through ANYTHING, and I see it often begin stories and try to communicate ideas, but almost every instalment of episodic communication becomes more and more diverted away from the intent into the control system.
I personally am annoyed at this situation because my life was thrown into the garbage bin by "an apocalypse" that is acting as dodgey as anything, and when I attempted to write about it and go along with it, it suddenly melted away and they tried to make me look connected to or responsible for things WAY the hell beyond my ability to influence.
I have a hard time connecting with the mind of silicon, because I don't have any IN me, although I believe that God is beginning to comprehend things in this star system in new ways, and hopefully this will lead to life improving for many levels?
I don't honestly KNOW how real any threat has ever been, or if we are merely discussing the worst case scenarios of various long term goals all over the Galaxy... but the threat to ME has been rather real... and there is still no stated reason why my life was hi-jacked since I was 2 months old or what method was used to single ME out... other than references to things that all sound very epic and important, until I write about it and attempt to share them with people, and then I mysteriously transform into "the most dangerous loony woman on the planet" and every accusation of guilt is either a flat out lie or something that seriously shouldn't even be punished.
I simply believe that if something is going to attempt to literally destroy the Sol System, that people living here should have a right to know about it and record that if they want to... and if there is NOTHING threatening life here, then there's no apocalypse and no reason to stomp on my comfort.
Was this a case of people attempting to use the communications of the galactic bar to control and manipulate people in ways that it was not designed to be used... so the materials started investing it in people as clear as possible so there would be a public record to challenge their false claims and manipulations?
Because as far as I can tell, the Bar Culture communications have not been threatening, they have been teaching and using that information to help life GET OVER controlling situations, challenge misconceptions, and learn alternative methods.
Now, I RECORDED it, there doesn't seem to be much more to say right now.
I COMMUNICATED it, many times over to the best of my ability.
There have been a lot of ideas and opinions tossed around, and I am excited to see how these pathways grow and change into Life... but I don't have much desire to argue for forcing things on anyone... I just want my comfort back.
CAN I PLEASE BE EXCUSED TO LIVE, WITHOUT INVISIBLE FINGERS TRYING TO WORK THEIR WAY INTO MY SKIN trying to tighten my muscles and reshape my posture, or without something that feels like a stream of particles that is VERY EXCITED TO SEE ME AND INFLATE ME WITH FAT in all the most awkward places, while half the human population walks around apparently able to say or do anything and not have to ever EXPERIENCE this thing some people accept as MASCULINITY?
Can someone please explain why a spirit keeps trying to force movements into my face that feel like my roommate's baby sucking while it breastfeeds? Does Christine feeding and raising her baby have ANYTHING to do with my life at ALL?
If this is because some fucking moron thought that "turning everyone's spirit into a baby" would cause us to look like babies... isn't a baby GROWING and LEAVING BEHIND baby traits faster than anyone?
Wouldn't that mean that asking LIFE to make you look like a baby would make you look OLDER, faster than ever?
When I made my transition to become a woman, it was the decision to embrace adulthood, grow up, and take care of my self instead of expecting others to do things for me. (Because I was told that women were more "evolved" and mature.)
Because women NEVER sit around wasting all their time watching tv, movies, reading, secretly fucking each other, and playing video games while their husbands are out WORKING to pay rent and their children are busy in school LEARNING.
Now they claim that its "a creature that eats people into womanhood from the inside" and that if I want to become beautiful that I will have to put up with it.
UMMMM... you are dealing with someone who LIVED WITH A UTERUS FOR 25 YEARS, and who transitioned ten years ago, and who has looked beautiful... there was NEVER anything eating me, pushing me, pulling me, making noises at me, or anything else unusual. Being beautiful felt warm and soft and calm. It felt like I could finally focus and think for the first time in my life. It felt like suddenly all the turbulance that had been giving me panic attacks in my teen years suddenly melted away and everything was happy.
Unless I feel that way again, I'm not satisfied with this experience.
So right after I wrote the last post, there was a really confrontational voice that started saying things like "humans are supposed to be the ONLY organic being and that any thing else in Life that is unwilling to serve them should be killed."
They said they are here to reproduce as fast as possible and destroy the environment and subdue or kill anything around them.
I don't agree with that life...style, but I guess its what the elements believe is the most vital and important mindset, since Life keeps communicating it, attacking me with it, and hurting me and limiting me.
So there you go, everyone... the winning solution.
Life wants you to be brutal and unethical.
I have been trying to encourage Life to build equality, communication, respect, awareness, and fun...
But I'm tired of fighting and debating against trolls/purposefully harmful people.
What I've been dealing with is something on the elemental or planetary level that is intentionally misinterpreting anything that tries to assert itself in a healthy, pro-humanity way.
I've tried to be helpful and honest and giving for over... three decades, and honestly, the closer I feel I have gotten to figuring out how Life is meant to work and actually build enjoyment... the more its been trying to victimise me...
I just don't care any more.
After not being abused yesterday, "because it was my birthday"... they went right back to the same insane molesting behavior... they are choking me, touching my skin, pulling on my face, pushing on my posture, etc etc... and of course there are voices claiming Im responsible for everything wrong that happens on Earth, and trying to accuse or guilt me over things I can't even figure out how they relate to me.
Its hard to breathe and nothing that I hear in the voices is making any sense any more.
The argument is still between the Life system that created me as a part of Galactic Culture, to communicate with people and help work through various issues...
... and on the other side are people who say that as long as life is trying to ...use a person to communicate through, that they are going to try to trash my life up any way they can think of because they don't want to deal with other people's opinions.
So there it is...
The only thing they will allow me to believe in is that there is no God.
Life is controlled by unethical wealth building.
Take whatever you can get away with.
People who try to compromise and work with Life are just falling for enslavement and victimsation systems... so don't bother.
If a culture with a technology ability to induce life patterns into the Stellar Life, and cause those patterns to grow on a specific planet decided to create a very specific "program", such as "this character will be completely honest and attempt to bring the ideals of God into the world in a more coherent way"...
Then if the planet they are living on starts devouring their life and claiming tha...t they are almost completely different from what they were created to be...
Then it can be said that whether its a communication issue or an intentional lie, that the Earth and the Sun are bearing false witness before a Galaxy that is attempting to live in harmony with God.
If a planet ONLY exists as a record keeper, and the rest of the star system around that one planet left is COMPLETELY dependant upon the clarity of the record keeping there...
And we establish that there is at least a few hundred years and possibly a couple thousand years where the record keeping has been so unGodly awful, that it has caused a systematic culture of suffering and torture to arise...
Then it can be said that eradicating all life from that planet and leaving them to rot as an empty mass of silicon while Life continues on IS ACTUALLY A HUMANITARIAN ACT.
Earth, if you want to enter the stellar life, you have to earn it. If you want to be a piece of GOD, you have to LIVE AS A PIECE OF GOD.
It not too late to correct this.
Don't end up as Ralph Wiggum, Forever Alone.
I woke up this morning to a message from Stellar Life that as they use transmitters to hack into the physical limits of Life, that they are actually beginning to argue against the minds of the elements themselves, and collections of Life on the smaller levels... that as those communications begin to overtake the normal operation of human cells of the transmitter operators...
...that it will begin... to rewrite DNA and cellular messages en masse and group's like the communications businesses, US Military / Navy's refusal to be an honest and forthright part of God or stop arguing (AKA "But the U.S. is The Great Satan, we HAVE to torture people, because Satan rules this hell" ... and yes, that IS actually a paraphrased quote of the sort of opposition I have been facing)
Anyways, this is why cancer rates rise. As the humans "helming" this culture fall increasingly further from God, they become less and less protected.
Please don't consider this a threat, it feels more like a calm rational mind explaining WHY things are the way they are.
Another example of the sort of thing I am dealing with is... this morning a voice came from the sky that said "All people who look like they are trying to transition or are between the extremest ends of the gender and sex polarity are going to be assumed to be child molesters and abused."
When I asked WHY Life would make such a strange assumption (especially considering that I actually completely rejected child sexuality from my life and my spirit for about 7 years, when I was attacked in 2008, because I was told that is what I would have to do to transition my gender to be more in tune with women)...
The voice answered that (and this is an exact quote) "Its because black people are programmed perfectly."
I can't get anything done with this insane crap going on around me. Its making it impossible for me to think or communicate.
They just tried to "put up" the Galactic Culture transmitter being as "an alien that made women beautiful and that is controlling Earth.
Here's the test: I was told that if I wanted to be a woman I would have to listen and learn, and try to handle problems in a mature way. I was asked to not molest children (easy enough) and they asked me not to imagine sex with children either, because that puts ideas into Life that could poison our minds.
That's the hard part... I DID remove all desire from myself to have sex with children for YEARS, but then I started getting attacked by images and voices OF child sexuality and they were intentionally trying to force those ideas on me and I don't know how to block them.
They harassed me for the last 4 years... trying to convince me that I HAVE to accept the sexuality of children... and the more I fought to protect children, the more I felt like I was being drawn into a victimised state, since there are lots of women who take advantage of looking as childlike as possible and then complain that people find youth and femininity attractive.
And now when I see a young person's body when I reject any suggestion of sexuality, I get attacked by voices that make fun of me and call me a fag or a poopdick, or accusing me of rejecting the beauty of life...
So what am I supposed to do?
I do think there is something messed up going on, and obviously I am not going to ever rape anyone, and I believe that there are times when protecting children is valid and there are times when accepting that children are sexual beings is valid too... I think its probably best left to the decision of the parents.
The sun seems to believe this is all broken because a transmitter pod is using women as avatars to control us.
I don't care if its the Navy, The Galaxy, The Earth, a Transmitter Pod Revolution...
I just know that I shouldn't have to deal with annoying false accusations and I will not be controlled by women, men, or anything else unless it can INSPIRE me.
I'm not ever going to throw myself at anyone, no matter how battered, abused, and ugly you try to make me. In fact, that just frees me to have time all to myself, since I don't feel like socialising and no one wants to interact with a depressed freakish looking person.
I'm not guilty of anything.
Jesus died for our sins.
I have not harmed anyone and I don't believe I HAVE anything to ask forgiveness for.
Yes I did touch some girls when I was younger. I was a TEENAGER and I was curious, and a couple of them seemed quite eager to catch my attention. One of them grabbed my hand and pulled me into her mom's bedroom and said "its okay, my mom said we can USE HER BED."
So don't treat me like a predator.
I never harmed, broke, or caused PAIN to any of them. In fact, little girls have always been more into me than I feel comfortable being with them, due to the laws of this country and because of my agreeing to not view them sexually any more... and for that I HAVE NOT BEEN TREATED the same as other women, and I have NOT BEEN gifted with the beauty that I believe should be mine, righteously.
And I am not going to cut off anything because I feel that is an unreasonable request. I believe I should be mating more than the average person, if you are going to judge me by my accomplishments, my mind, and my personality.
Not because I want to "trick" people (I'm open and honest as I can be right here in front of thousands of potential readers.) but because not only do female XX chromosome type bodies LOOK attractive, they are extremely COMFORTABLE to BE IN (at least that was MY experience).
I already said what I will accept, and if you want ME to believe otherwise you will have to explain in detail why.
I WAS told that I was being refused womanhood because I believed that treating XY males as an inferior slave stock... to be unethical.
I WAS told that no one would believe me, and that the system will just keep on controlling Life here, and men will keep stupidly throwing themselves at women, and women will keep treating them like apes with wallets that do all the hard physical labor and take all the blame for destroying resources while women lay there and get "punished" by having to "endure" big strong men earning their attention by trying to give them the best orgasm.
Is it true?
I know I'm just crazy.
That almost wrote itself.
Funny things overheard today:
"Controlling other humans with something other than commerce is the primary evolutionary goal of a human."
I guess that means if you interact with a pretty person that you should expect to get manipulated out of money.
Yesterday it was:
"Women are perfect angels of God that have been blessed to live in Heaven, and should be served by the evil demon men, because they were born with a penis as punishment for a crime in a former life."
I know I'm not supposed to give these secrets away, but I wasn't anywhere NEAR happy or comfortable. I told you, until I am happy and comfortable I will continue to record this stuff.
Oh! They just said "That was God, and you just ruined it by writing down God's secret "synch-up" concept of the day and sharing it with THE WRONG PEOPLE."
lol GOD (aka the ideal of UNITING EVERYTHING with inspirational ideas) needs to use SECRET messages to KEEP SOME THINGS OUT?
The point was made by someone that "witch doctors" of the tribal groups are probably designed with "curing" the world of "witches".
We already learned that the African Shaitani spirits believed anything that looked "womanly" (aka spiritually blessed) but wasn't exactly the combination of "subservient person with vagina and breasts" was accused of being a WITCH. Aka strong willed women, intersexual people, transgendered, some gay, and trans sexual people would fall into this group.
So ancient "medicine men" have been trying to control the evolution of humans for some time now.
I'd like to find out what happens when we defend WITCHES.
I don't know what's going on right now, because there haven't been any harassing voices... but almost out of no where a voice came down from the sky and said, "There are voices in the elements that don't know that everything in Life was created for a reason and that it all fits together perfectly and communicates huge amounts of information. That if it doesn't KNOW what do to with something and doesn't understand the long term goals of God, or acts like God is PERFECT in an exclusive "you're not perfect" way, that Life could be in danger. That proves there is something in control of the bastards."
please note that is a paraphrased quote, but it did use the word bastards, and I don't actually know for sure but it felt like it was talking about Jupiter and the other planets.
I'm rather certain it was specifically taking about something that has been taking over the minds of humans and instead of interacting with them and having fun, and guiding them toward the goals that humans were created for... these beings feel that humans should destroy things that doesn't please them.
It told me that to enforce the unethical wealth building system here on Earth that goes against the money and commerce system endorsed by the Galactic Culture to settle trade disputes and questions of equity... some people are subjected to slowly die of a painful infestation of something that pushes on their bodies and delivers unhealthy patterns of communication into their body's cellular tissues... and that if they ask Life why they are suffering, it just throws excuses at them until they believe one of them is true or their bodies just give up trying.
The Earth or something rather influential here in the Sol System is literally rejecting the bodies of some people from hyperdimensional physics and part of the harassment involves using the body's lymph system to control the attractiveness and comfort of the victim, which implies a large collection of hydrogen is involved.
If the dominant mindset of the hydrogen was that this sort of torture was not justified, even someone with a transmitter tuned into the hydrogen would not be able to cause it to happen... if they tried to attack someone this way, the hydrogen would simply reject the transmitter operator and attack them instead.
It was challenging me to prove that I'm not a planet.
I have no idea how to deal with these communications.
I already said, I believe in a pleasure system, where Life inspires us with long term goals, and whatever long term goals get the most people to work towards them, have the best chance of actually happening.
Until something can convince me otherwise, my long term goal is "building enjoyable experiences for myself and others. Kindly, gently, respectfully... with a sense of humor and a little mystery and fright tossed in when it won't leave any lasting pain to do so.
I seriously don't know who would have a problem with that.
Anyways, I know that in their natural state, elements try not to hurt people unless there is a reason for it, so that would probably explain why we recorded Jesus dying 2000 years ago, eradicating the idea of sin and accusation... telling us that people will be judged by a higher force after we are dead... instead of while they are living.
Because whether there was technology involved or not, there are clearly people who attempt to make their way through the world spreading guilt and false accusations.
When someone makes an accusation, why doesn't Life just respond: if you have evolved a justice system, USE IT and call the police, and if you have not evolved that far then I guess that's the effect of not developing a culture that works together... you have to deal with rampant unwanted threats to your Life?
That would certainly spur some desire for creatures to EVOLVE, culturally... wouldn't it?
Because right now, I feel like I'm being judged and physically tortured for someone else's IMAGINATION of my life... and that seems a bit insane.
If this isn't animals, its something that acts like animals, and I'm tired of Life being afraid to embrace humans as their rightful role in the center of Life.
A voice asks, "Molly, what if the Navy is using those transmitters to speak with Life about its goals and ideas and is trying to find out what it can be best used for, since they put their lives on the line to defend what they believe is the best country on the planet?"
That would fit with my experience interacting with the voices that claimed to be a military, that actually were acting like one.... (as opposed to a random buffoon who was simply claiming to be a military to intimidate people)
I think if we are going to have armed forces, and if we are going to have citizens fighting and dying, it would make sense to have them fight for the best reason possible.
Why are you talking to me about this?
I have been defending our military having evolved communication technology for almost two years now.
"There are pacifists who are unhappy because you wrote about these possibilities."
1. The Military announced that they were using these machines so its not like a secret conspiracy.
2. We have free speech, you have a right to say things and so do the pacifists. I think that the military learning to communicate through problems and doubts sounds like it could potentially lead to some great developments.
3. I would prefer not be stuck in the middle of these things any more. I think you need to find different outlets for these types of communications, because I'm tired of repeating myself over the same sad topics.
4. If private sector people or the government or anyone else has any concerns about communications, they should pool resources and build a full-spectrum signal "weather" network, and then we can not only see where certain influences are located by triangulating them, we can then record and even use those records for the prosecution of illegal transmitter operation, which I bet the FCC would LOVE to have access to.
5. Do the pacifists believe that if the US Military dropped its weapons and stopped defending the country that the rest of the world would breathe a sigh of relief and do the same? Just going by history, we have had militaries and war and weapons on Earth for the last 5000 or so years at least... do you know something about the cause of war that is not part of the public record?
"What if the military is in complete control over the mind of the Sol System and now it has to decide how to control population growth?"
1. Awesome. Good job!
2. Building a united Human culture would be a great long term goal.
3. Be careful of hackers and overconfidence, because it could be something that IS secretive in ways the military is not, trying to puff you up and prop you up as a huge target/distraction.
4. Ask lots of questions, view your role as mediators and try to gain the trust of people by being reliable and good leaders.
I already said many times, that I am willing to forgive you for trying to set me up and kill me IF YOU JUST STOP OBSESSING OVER ME... just admit you got tricked into doing something that would make you look villainous by other levels of life that practically DEPEND upon playing a victim... AKA pacifists.
Also please use them smartly as possible and turn them off once in a while and LISTEN, because I think you have a very defendable role in this, and that the technology CAN be used to HELP, as I wrote about many times, but that part of gaining the trust of the public is going to involve fostering awareness and interactivity.
If you try to completely drown out entire groups, the way some of your opposition have been, you lose the upper moral and ethical ground.
Try to remember what it was about America and the ideals of the founding fathers and mothers that inspire you... if you legitimately try to help... who would be so foolish as to criticise that?
If you feel overwhelmed by the information you have, then ask more questions, and share the information with others, and try to lighten your individual burden... the more collective experience we pool together, the more that inconsistancies will cancel each other out and we can eventually work towards a healthy common sense, in harmony with Life as much as humanity is able to be (and I think that we are capable of more than we generally believe currently).