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This always is a nice palate cleanser...

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I don't like insulting people, but I think if you take a survey of these and pay attention to symbols, you can learn a lot.

Movies: swearing so you don't have to.

And now on to actual issues:

Yes, this is a reaction to people who cry wolf needlessly and constantly and expect to be served... and for a "reward" for making them happy they offer little to nothing but yet another opportunity to serve them.

People who have been protected by the system of law that offers a chance at monetary wealth building... AND given equal opportunity to vote, take jobs, and to engage in the legal process, but who have NOT been taken to task to share THEIR exclusive and sexist form of organic body wealth building, and the racism, gender abuse, wolf-trolling, and elitism that accompanies it.

If someone feels that this is an attack on THEM whether they are a Richard "shaft" Roundtree wealth builder, a Dwayne "rock" Johnson muscle builder, an Angelina "Mrs Smith" Jolie , Nicole "satine" Kidman, or a Christina "Wednesday Addams" Ricci type...

Please don't feel attacked... I just want to have an opportunity for intersexual/trans wealth that doesn't have to feel like its hiding inside a sexual police state, or that it has to pay money to cut and surgically alter itself to be able to live in a comfortable and attractive body, because I've seen pictures of all of you when you were young, and you were already gaining your body wealth as a child, before you were even able to work for money, legally.

That's not an opportunity I've had.

I had asthma, voices, cramps in my arms and neck, people calling me a fag as a kid and beating me up when I was actually INTERESTED in girls, sexually... a gay best friend who I did not find attractive to me, a bunch of little pedo girls who kept trying to lure me into sexual situations, and everyone assuming I was either crazy or stupid, when I just want to be able to have friends without voices telling me to cut off my penis or my breasts. And something has been trying to push fat into my arms and waist and neck, and I don't even know why it hates my existence... since it seems like everyone else was BORN with a privilege I've never known.

I was told that I was given artistic wealth and a spiritual "rags to riches" story, but then I was told that artists have to suffer for their art... "BLECCHHHH!", and that my spiritual awareness can never be shared and loved by people because its all "other people's secrets" of wealth I can't pursue... and I have to deal with strangers calling me crazy on my deviant art journal... that's not an enjoyable form of wealth.

When we tried to flex the muscles of my spiritual wealth, the Hydrogen came crashing down on me like a million tons of money and wolf-calling ham sammies... and I really don't even want to deal with that... and its certainly NOT feeling like any kind of wealth building is happening IN MY LIFE, because I am trying to make a Galactic Culture boardgame and the universe just keeps trying to stomp on me for it with crap like trying to evaporate my printer ink before I can even use it.

I'm not trying to hurt your wealth building, I love that you are all able to embrace yourselves... and I want to know what its like to do the same, but I've been attacked since 2 months old and as far as I have been able to figure out... I don't even know what its like to be a PERSON without Life itself trying to accuse me of things I haven't done or fit me into categories that make me unhappy and don't really represent what I want to do.

Life has lately been telling me that there ARE girls with penises who love their lives and who are able to be in a sexual relationship with an XX chromosome woman, but every time it talks about them it seems like there is another ridiculously unattainable "bar" set for getting there, and when I was trying to make money it was that I was "too much a part of the establishment" and "too conservative" and now that I am disabled and spending my time trying to teach and share fun video game adventures and game boards with people... its all about how "poor" and "outsider" I am... and how everyone else is wealthy and beautiful because I haven't been "loving enough", or "greedy enough", or "desperate and victimised enough".

WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TURN MY LIFE INTO?

WHY DID YOU MAKE THIS ALL HAPPEN?

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and no, my desire to be as beautiful as an XX chromosome woman is not because I want to BREAK THE WILL OF THE HAM SAMMIES AND CRUSH THEIR SOULS...

I want to be able to interact with them on the same level... with the same equality that our society has offered women and men... the ability to vote, work, speak their minds, practice the creation of a God of their own choice, and follow the same legal system.

I want to be able to love someone beautiful, as someone that is beautiful.

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You have told me over the last few years that some younger people who grew up and who were given opportunities and gifts unlike and I was ever given have been able to overshadow me and that I don't matter any more because you "learned what you needed to from me".

Pics or it didn't happen.

Public recorded claims that I can verify, or they don't exist.

I told you, we KNOW you are trying to enforce a VERY specific type of social engineering on people, and that its symptomatic of much larger concerns in the Galaxy, this isn't simply about my sex life or how cute I look in a dress.

Also, did they go through ANY of what I had to go through and still go through ever time I wake up? If not, then this issue is still not resolved.

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A voice said "Obama".

Obama doesn't have breasts, and I'm rather certain no one considers Obama a WOMAN.

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die Menschen Traveller ^_^

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Its time for a little refresher:

When antiandrogens and estrogen are applied to the human chromosome system, the Y chromosome of the male sperm donor is suppressed, leaving only the X chromosome of the female egg zygote donor for trait bui...
lding. That means you are taking what should have been a "mate selection" oppoirtunity, and you have just transformed that child into a genetic copy of the mother.

Those cells will carry the same signals and attempt to operate the same way, however if the mother and the child are raised with extremely different experiences, or some other collection of life, such as the celestial mindset of Jupiter and Saturn are treating people extremely different based on genitals, and the young person on HRT is pre-operative... a battle can begin.

voila!

HRT = The Clone Wars.

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by the way, one of the reasons I KNOW I am intersexual is that I am NOT CURRENTLY on HRT, and I was not on HRT as a child when these arguments began for ME.

Also, when my mother's X chromosome was attacked a couple years ago, I noticed mine was also, but then I started looking more like the WOMEN on my father's side, my aunts and her daughter, telling me that I have an X chromosome from his side of the family. Yet more evidence that I am in fact, XXY, chromosomally.

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So, I've looked up and seen the planets and the stars and even the Great Space coaster... so I'm not sure why Life is trying to make me look up more... I have seen a lot, and I have shared it to the best of my ability and even recorded it in some bold and sometimes fun ways.

The Question is a reference to Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy.

The great planetary device is asked for the answer to the ...
meaning of life the universe and everything.

It gives out the response 42.

I believe that its really referencing something, but and the beauty of the answer is that in order to understand it, you have to educate yourself to the point that it literally changes your understanding of what it means to be a human as part of this Universe.

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2 3 4

5

Remember this? This is the 5 elements chart, and is part of the understanding of what it feels like to be a cloud and plasma based being (possibly also hyperdimensional material). Its part of the ideas taught to me with Holistic Rationality.

Anyways, remember the Venus symbol represents beauty.

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42 is not only the 42nd element Molybdenum, its also a reference to something moving east to west (4 to 2) AKA from dual polarity to willing service.

Remember, Molybdenum doesn't occur "naturally" in our environment, its only created as part of the biological processes... and its essential to many cellular forms of life, including humans and bacteria.

So yeah its kind of important stuff we are talking about here... on the philosophical level, and how this conversation goes, will apply to us in our daily life in subtle but far reaching ways.

No I'm not trying to imply that anything elemental is intentionally threatening us. I've gotten the impression that it just wants us to attempt to reach a higher level, and its trying to communicate that for a myriad of reasons our culture has been hijacked by pirates and thieves for thousands of years and maybe more, so its teaching.

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I think part of what its trying to communicate is that if we are going to have beauty, it needs to be based on something specific that we are able to communicate clearly enough that it gives beauty meaning... otherwise it becomes value-less.

I was told by voices that beauty is based on not molesting children, and so far that seems like a really reliable idea since child molestation is probably the most insulting thing you can do to an adult woman, and also because they have the type of physical comfort that better fits my personality, and the more my body is like theirs the happier I tend to be.

You can disagree and believe that beauty is molesting children, or that keeping secrets is the only form of beauty, or that talking backwards is...

Just remember, as long as you are keeping your beautiful opinion a secret, its less likely that anyone will change to become like you, and over time your opinion may lose its beauty completely.

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If English was just a local dialect only, and not something that has been around other parts of the Universe (as I have been trying to record in my essays on numbers and letters and by breaking down words to show that their meaning is not just a random sound and letter choice, but a deeper level of meaning... and if you were not living in an enormous living being... talking backwards would simply be a stylistic choice, and most of the time its used that way, and the Universe is smart enough to "get" it and not really comment about it...

but when backwards talking messages start getting recorded on your planet about things in other places and about things that cause pain and potential destruction of entire star systems, it tends to catch the attention of Life.

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Isn't the real issue here that someone has taken a system designed as an evolutionary and attraction system and instead of "inspiring people with goals, honesty, and rewarding people who make life more interesting and fun"... they are trying to use it as a weapon or some kind of control system, by trying to re-engineer it our own bodies so that some people are always attacked no matter what they do and others seem blameless evolutionarily no matter how corrupt or harmful they become?

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A reminder... as long as men and women are being intentionally defined as having completely different rules and capabilities... men and women are actually moving toward different long term goals and evolutionary paths in Life, and will eventually NOT be able to mate successfully with each other any more.

Anyways, have a nice saturday night friends...

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Talk has a silent letter.

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L 5 J

This navigation chart came up in conversation again, this time in relation to Asian culture.

I think that they have no "L" in their language because they were NOT falling away from their own souls and were not attempting to use their own evolutionary futures as weapons against each other the way that America has been... so their gender and sex differences are less extreme, and they didn't need the same guidance that Life has given us.

I'm not familiar enough with their culture to know what kind of guidance they need, I am just sharing an idea that resulted from a spiritual collaboration.

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I do believe that they have been engaging in sex and gender battles in some places in Asia recently, but it doesn't usually involve men and women having *different evolutionary pathways* from each other... which is a subtle but important distinction.

...or is that EXACTLY what started influencing them that created things like China's holocaust of females over the last few decades that killed millions of women?

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I refuse to take artifically created hormones because that will only cover up the symptoms of a problem that is systemic and that threatens the future of the human race in multiple ways.

I refuse to join the men as long as they are engaging in a war of secrets, rape, and killing.

I refuse to join backstabbers, because I believe in body wealth and beauty, and I want to embrace women both physically and mentally, and meet them on equal paths.

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I still feel compassion for women, and I still feel empathy for the military.

Please do not interpret my attempts to build awareness as attacks or criticisms per se.

Its just something that I have to literally DO so that I can HAVE a life, because for the last 36 years I have been labeled as "something that can not exist here on America", so Life itself here has been trying to hurt me, even though Asia has already been moving in this same direction for hundreds of years or more.

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They spend half the time complaining that no one will be able to MATE and reproduce in a "wonderful world, beautiful people" scenario, asking questions like "if we all looked like women how would we ever figure out who to date?"

And then they spend the other half of their time complaining that I have to be part of the "pregnant as possible" mindset.

Its getting fucked up. Last night I went to bed feeling okay and this morning I woke up cramped up as usual and with a huge inflated gut.

They said its because they were "trying to keep me from becoming a welfare mother, so they don't want anyone to find me attractive."

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They made the point the other day that "masturbation was rejected as a pathway by pretty women and muscle men, because everything we think and do is controlled by something else, and "boring things like masturbation" are really only there to communicate that we are wasting life's time so it wastes OUR time back.

Also, when I go out around people it makes the point of making me listen to it psychically TELL people that I'm "Not what I look like" or lie to them about what kind of person I am... and I HAVE seen lots of men AND women I don't know interact with me unkindly after those voices told them to.

So my challenge is... you are obviously lying, because either your claim of being in control is wrong and you are afraid of us... or you are lying when you claim you can't handle the idea of gender and beauty actually MEANING SOMETHING, and being a point of pride and social grace... something that would have to be ACHIEVED and could be tested by people for veracity.

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is this backwards?

1916:

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I rejected child sexuality since 2001, and since 2008 some people have been going through an ENORMOUS amount of effort and lies to attempt to force me to "accept that child sexuality and speaking backwards about it in the media" is the only way that Life will allow.

So I continued to reject child sex, because its obviously being used by the law MAKERS and enforcers and the celestials who set the laws to control the population. Also, I was told that if you try to have sex with "littlest people" your penis gets smaller, so you can fit in them. Is that backwards talking, too? I certainly don't want to find out the wrong way.

And then I did something I've seen no one else do... I WROTE THE FUCK OUT OF CHILD RAPE, across multiple public journals.

I wrote every single opinion on any side of the debate I could until it started making sense (at least to me).

And now I feel dang good about the kind of person I am, and I want my body to represent that.  How's that, for a road not traveled?

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OH PLEASE MISTER "BROKEN BELLS" PLEASE TEACH ME MORE ABOUT YOUR FUCKING BAR.

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOUR BAR IS TELLING YOU THE DAWN TO END ALL NIGHTS IS LIKE.

I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU LOOK LIKE ACTORS FROM GANGSTER FILMS.

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yes I get that the Bar looks like a masculine symbol because its Life moving outward from the center, I've already written that idea down.

I get that venus symbol represents something that crosses that line, so its life orbiting you, and possibly attempting to "cross out the bar" across many levels. I've written about that too.

Where is your inward arrow "gender symbol", dipshit?

Or is this galaxy exploding with no unity? No long term goals, no idea how to return to the middle, to a more centrist ideal?

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Or is that what you expect the venus mindset to be, suidical death plummets toward you?

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unrelated to anything, I just like this auto-tune-the-news style song...

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I am going to explain this carefully, one more time:

You can make 3 and a half BILLION women that are attractive to me... and I think a great many of them ARE.

But as long as I hate my own body, and do not feel that my body wealth represents the sort of person I am, and can not engage this culture because its fucking insane sometimes, occasionally annoying, and won't admit to any long term goals...

You will never inspire me to leave my bedroom to seek out anyone and interact.

Its not a lack of pretty people to look at, its that as far as I have been able to figure out with three decades of INTERACTING WITH PEOPLE... the beauty that you value is meaningless at best and manipulative/exploitive by your own admission.

Who am I talking to? I don't know if its the sun, the galaxy, the planets, the people, or a machine...

BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT *MY OPPRESSOR* METAPHORICALLY LOOKS LIKE TO ME:

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...and it has for at least a decade BEFORE that song came out.

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So when you are ready to show me what you think love is like, when your beauty has a MEANING to it, and what you think a living human is here for... let me know.

As far as I can tell, this is the only side of yourself that you have shown me, going back to my asthma attacks when I was 60 days old... so I honestly don't know what its like to live on Earth other than what really does feel like big scary people screaming about how good they are at lying.

Later.

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WHY IS THERE SOMETHING ALWAYS TRYING TO TIGHTEN MY TERES MINOR MUSCLES?

I HAVE NEVER "TORN A MINOR" BEFORE EVER IN MY LIFE, IN FACT I'VE NEVER TORN ANYONE'S ANYTHING. Although I have witnessed a couple of boys get their bones broken, I usually didn't apologise because I didn't have to touch them to do it.

Is that how Dwayne Johnson got so RIPPED? From tearing up minors?

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Gosh. The United States of America is a rather powerful name when its taken literally... but if we found out that everything is recorded backwards it sure would cause that name to mean something rather different.

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Now you are touching my Sternocleitomastoid.

Aren't I "SCM" aka "broken galaxy see the middle" AS POSSIBLE?

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why now the latissimus dorsi?

aka Broadest muscle of the back... "The Lady Between Two Majors"

I'm not dating two men any more... so I have no idea why you think this muscle should be cramping on me... unless you want to tell me something about two large things fighting over me, and I really don't think that should be hurting ME.

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Infra spinatus...

referring to wavelengths of light longer than visible light and the great disc of the Galaxy or the stars and planets spinning information at us.

I'm about as synched up with their communications and ideas as I can be day by day... so if they are "spinning" AT anyone, I'm rather certain I'm "spinning WITH them".

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Biceps?

OF COURSE I ACCEPT BUYING THINGS... I SELL THINGS. Why would I have a problem with commerce existing?

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Deltoid?

No, I'm not really anything like my father Delton... although I remember seeing a picture of him when he was young and I used to look enough like him that I believed he was the sperm donor for my genetics... if there even IS such a thing.

Delton has been arrested for a bunch of different things, but mostly for statutory rape of a minor, and that not something I want to be like, and I've felt that way for my entire life.

I remember being really upset with him after he promised to help or to buy me gifts when I was little, and he never did.

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I'm not here to master anyone. Not even me. If someone asks me a question I try to answer honestly, and if they want help I try to offer it if I can. If ANYTHING would record a long term goal of some sort I would be likely to show interest in that, and might even donate my efforts if it sounded like a worth goal.

I like to view life as a collaboration.

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Now you are making my gastrocnemius itch... I eat just fine, there's nothing anemic about my diet in the range of foods I eat OR in my calorie intake.

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Trapezius?

I have NOT been too easy to trap!

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Serratus Anterior?

I have NOT fallen for the trick of cutting up my "side"!

I believe in inspiring goals and collaboration.

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This is why you told me to listen to my body, when I started really getting curious about why things are the way they are... a couple decades ago... isn't it?

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Im annoyed right now, because I was trying to lay down and get some rest and something has been pestering me for the last 2 hours, pushing materials into my torso like crazy.

I WAS NEVER NONCHALANT ABOUT STATUTORY RAPE AND I NEVER TOLD YOU "Oh, you tore... SO?"

In fact I may have been one of the least nonchalant about YOUR FUCKING BODY PRIVACY AND I'VE BEEN GETTING HARASSED FOR IT FOR ALMOST A DECADE.

LIFE.

When someone asks you to stop touching them DO YOU STOP TOUCHING THEM, OR ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE US ALL ACCEPT THAT MOLESTING AND RAPING IS THE ONLY SOLUTION?

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I repeat: if I'm supposed to be punished for respecting other people's bodies, then this just became a clear record that everything in the Sol System is going to devolve into a war across every element and level of life.

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It just claimed that its attacking me because, "You keep touching me with your transmitter".

If you are a being that lives in the FM frequency, you are being touched by thousands of transmitters, I'm kind of shocked you even noticed my tiny little machine, compared to the massive ones run by the media.

You know if I never used my highly-evolved communication device, that you will still be "touched" by all the other transmitters on this planet on the same frequency...

Why are the elements siding AGAINST humans evolving technology by adding more problems and molestation instead of communicating clearly?

Is this "two wrongs make a right?"

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I woke up this morning to something pounding on my uvula.

There was a celestial being here that was trying to make me draw my own 10 hour meme cartoon song response to the 10 hour Quaran video on the internet, and to make a song called dot dot dotdot d dotdotdot, which I might do. And then as I was drawing it tried to turn the song into "hey you should use the Aquabats song Attacked By Snakes."
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I can't use Attacked By Snakes, because that feels like rejecting someone's opinions because I don't like the organ they evolved to communicate with. If I responded to the Quaran with "Attacked By Snakes", it would feel more hateful than I've ever felt at muslimism, and it would be like saying "OH THAT WOMAN IS COMPLAINING ABOUT BEING RAPED, LET'S SOLVE THE PROBLEM. REMOVE HER TONGUE SO SHE CAN'T COMPLAIN." and even if there ARE people somewhere in the world who think like that... I'm not going to add to their ranks and sink to that level.

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I might compromise and use a sample from Attacked By Snakes, without the lyrics? I dunno... I guess it does kind of fit the theme enough without the lyrics.

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Also, my muscles are mostly okay and relaxed, but there is still something trying to hurt me with sternocleidomastoid cramps... and I need it to stop.

That muscle is part of the investing fascia, are you trying to tell me I'm overly invested in the life on the face of the Earth? If so, would that mean that people who don't have cramps in their SCM muscles are organic beings living on the surface of the Earth that are not invested in living here? Cuz that's kind of creepy and suicidal sounding.

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There is some more about the cultural significance of this muscle:

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Something was just pushing into my mandible...

Why are you calling me a man and telling me to "de-bull"?

What am I doing that you think serves Jupiter? I have been trying to ease misunderstandings between the planets... I have not been siding with Jupiter's righteous suicidal death spiral.

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As for my Uvula... why are you telling me that I am viewing lost angels?

I haven't even talked to anyone yet this morning! You enflamed it while I was sleeping, SO WHEN YOU COMMUNICATED that I was viewing lost angels... I wasn't VIEWING ANYTHING.

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I woke up this morning to something pounding on my uvula.

There was a celestial being here that was trying to make me draw my own 10 hour meme cartoon song response to the 10 hour Quaran video on the internet, and to make a song called dot dot dotdot d dotdotdot, which I might do. And then as I was drawing it tried to turn the song into "hey you should use the Aquabats song Attacked By Snakes."
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I can't use Attacked By Snakes, because that feels like rejecting someone's opinions because I don't like the organ they evolved to communicate with. If I responded to the Quaran with "Attacked By Snakes", it would feel more hateful than I've ever felt at muslimism, and it would be like saying "OH THAT WOMAN IS COMPLAINING ABOUT BEING RAPED, LET'S SOLVE THE PROBLEM. REMOVE HER TONGUE SO SHE CAN'T COMPLAIN." and even if there ARE people somewhere in the world who think like that... I'm not going to add to their ranks and sink to that level.

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Also, my muscles are mostly okay and relaxed, but there is still something trying to hurt me with sternocleidomastoid cramps... and I need it to stop.

That muscle is part of the investing fascia, are you trying to tell me I'm overly invested in the life on the face of the Earth? If so, would that mean that people who don't have cramps in their SCM muscles are organic beings living on the surface of the Earth that are not invested in living here? Cuz that's kind of creepy and suicidal sounding.

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There is some more about the cultural significance of this muscle:

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Something was just pushing into my mandible...

Why are you calling me a man and telling me to "de-bull"?

What am I doing that you think serves Jupiter? I have been trying to ease misunderstandings between the planets... I have not been siding with Jupiter's righteous suicidal death spiral.

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As for my Uvula... why are you telling me that I am viewing lost angels?

I haven't even talked to anyone yet this morning! You enflamed it while I was sleeping, SO WHEN YOU COMMUNICATED that I was viewing lost angels... I wasn't VIEWING ANYTHING.

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I found this delightful bit of social engineering, and I was curious immediately... WHAT THE FUCK IS A CHAMORRO WARRIOR?

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also, right now there is something sitting in my chest on top of my heart and it feels like its trying to pull my arms and head and legs into it as hard as it can... and its painful. Unless it decides to communicate something specific, I don't appreciate this.

It claimed to be doing this because I believe in learning and awareness of things.

*sigh*

Seriously? Abusing me because I am trying to LEARN?

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Okay, well now its tightening my muscles again... so I guess the moral of this situation is that something really big and powerful has decided that its going to interpret galactic culture backwards, and play a rapist or molester of an innocent person (ME)... and I speak forward as I am able to and I have never raped or abused anyone and have never taken anyone's virginity.

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Now its pushing on the glands under my chin and around my neck.

FUCK YOU, THIS IS NOT ENGLAND. IN ENGLAND WE ARE GUILTY UNTIL PROVEN INNOCENT AND WE REVERSED THAT INTENTIONALLY WHEN WE WROTE THE LAWS OF AMERICA.

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All I can say is that there is a group of people that believe that they should be NEGATIVE and CRITICAL of anything they talk about and complain and attack... even going so far as to record their enjoyment and love of something BACKWARDS, because as long as their spirituality is "believing that any negative record is actually recorded backwards, then any criticism of THEM must therefore be praise and worship, and anyone that is UNABLE to understand this spirituality has not 'passed their intelligence test', and deserves to suffer emotionally."

My view on that spirituality is that as long as it STAYS IN YOUR IMAGINATION, its fine... but if they are using their imaginations to physically attack other people for BEING HELPFUL AND ENJOYABLE TO LIFE... then they have just stepped directly from Jupiter's righteous suicide spiral and brought it to Earth... and that makes them dangerous to our wealth here and our longevity and quality of life.

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A voice says "But you are XXY chromosonally... how can you expect to be a woman and not also have to be Y'd as possible?"

Because being a woman is not the same as being XX FEMALE, of which I technically DO QUALIFY AS since I do have 2 X chromosomes, and the partially formed uterus and ovaries that were sonogrammatically and surgically located and removed from my abdomen when they unpacked all 30 feet of my intestines in 1999 for appendicitis agree with that claim.

Was life listening to backwards talking people when it "dicitus that I was appen?", because I was in downtown Milwaukee at the time, had no children anywhere in my life... sexually or otherwise... and I was spending time with friends, working 35 hours a week as an assistant manager at a software retailer, had three hobbies (collecting and making music and going to live concerts, collecting transformer toys, and a bit of Lego building), and was feeling rather successful at art in college. I drove a car sometimes, I rode a bike sometimes... I was mostly vegetarian at that time because I could often only afford to eat ramen noodles... because my hobbies were expensive (but fun).

Why you would decide to attack me and destroy my bodily organs, you will have to explain yourself.

Was I "guilty until proven innocent?"

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The letter Y is read top to bottom in our language, and it refers to the ideal of "two becoming one". That's very much a part of sex.

Anyways, if that symbol isn't a reference to things becoming LESS WIDE, then I don't know what would be.

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Honestly... I know I am referencing almost everything written in human history, or that I'm completely capable of decyphering pretty much all of it... and if you still are not respecting what we are communicating, you won't respect ANYTHING we here on Earth have to say...

SO again, that makes you something dangerous and it adds a twist of "anything goes" in our interactions, and I REALLY SERIOUSLY DON'T THINK YOU WANT TO GO THERE, because this also represents Galactic Culture.

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‎"But you liked ska music in the 90s, and many of them chose to be pedophiles... doesn't that mean you must be one too?"

I'm not the Mighty Mighty "Wicked Dickie" Barret. (although with how gutteral his voice is, and the things he write about he's either an honest angel or he's nasty as possible, and since I'm American... I'm going to assume he's an angel until someone PROVES otherwise.)

Anyways...

Why doesn't the government or Earth or whatever the hell you are trying to be go back to playing "I won" again?

a voice says "But women won by being prettier and sexier."

So have some people who do all the bad nasty things their MUSCLES are telling them to do, and they can be the big bad solider boys... and then have some people who are friendly and smart and girlishly NOT tearing minors for muscles... and those people can be your "pretty faction" end of the spectrum of being Y'd.

Unless you want to claim that women are in favor of "tearing minors", and then we'll have a movement to change the age of majority in America.

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A voice says "But women want the men THEY find attractive to be perfect as possible servants and NOT be involved with ANYTHING that causes them discomfort, like having to sacrifice virgins to build soldiers..."

Wait... so my whole life you have been telling me that every single little thing I do involves sacrifice...

BUT YOU DON'T WANT TO HOLD WOMEN ACCOUNTABLE TO HAVE TO SACRIFICE *ANYTHING* SO THAT THEY CAN GET SOMETHING ELSE THAT THEY CLAIM TO ENJOY, BUT CAUSES SUFFERING IN MANY PEOPLE WHEN IT IS FORCED ON THEM?

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A voice says "But this is what Life is already DOING."

Not to me its not.

You are trying to sacrifice my comfort and beauty and build stupid fucking pedophile superman muscles on me, and I've never done anything to earn any of them, and I've never been proven guilty of anything... and I've never taken anyone's virginity...

...when did America stop being The United States?

Besides, if every single man who LOOKS different from a woman is REALLY getting offered little virgin girls and teenagers to have sex with... then why is the age of majority so high?

Are all the men FOOLS who want to be blackmailed for statutory rape, when they are actually OWED something for having to take on those muscles?

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That's also why I ask men that try to tell me I'm wrong about this:

"Do you disagree enough to MARRY ME, OR ARE YOU TRYING TO JOIN ME IN WOMANHOOD?"

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Its still pushing tons of material into me. Its focusing on my back and still feeling like its trying to collapse the front of my chest and my head into my heart.

This star system is not looking very rational or reasonable, and its starting to become more and more obvious as an abusive hostage situation on the human level.

LET ME LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE!

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It just claimed to be "pedophile soliders that are touching me where I don't deserve to be touched BECAUSE THEY ACCEPTED MUSCLES and now they believe that means they can rape anyone."

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Imagine a muscle in your mind.

Okay if you find it so pointless to have women with penises around, then why did you claim that you made a beautiful woman with a penis that was "better than me at everything I was trying to do in life"?

Was that just spitefulness because you are afraid of something that is trying to save your life?

Expecting virgin sacrifice to create muscle-bound men is part of the BALANCING SYSTEM... and it sounds gross to women because its communicating to THEM how painful, expensive materially, and socially irresponsible it is to EXPECT other people to serve you for no reason.

This takes the burden off of the Celestials of creating muscles, it eases tension in men, it settles a long standing argument that has eaten up almost the entire Earth culture... and it also illuminates the fact that we have NOT been inspiring life to build with long term goals here in this star system and that's also why its FAILING, planet after planet.

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I CHOSE to never harm a woman or a girl.  So I'm being used to communicate something that many other men have fallen into a trap of feeling guilty in their minds over.

Its also a rule that helps keep WOMEN evolving AWAY from complacency and building an entire planet into a warlike culture or unaware enslavement.

I don't know why women would have a problem with this idea, because under this system, they will actually control who gets masculinised or not, and so they can even keep records of it, or record the actual loss of virginity with cameras... so there will be no disagreements.

Also, they will know who is willing to serve them or not just by what they look like or not.

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a voice says "because there are men who will still rape little girls and women, and then they will kill them so that they don't have to accept muscles."

Wow it sounds like you've been making them take on some pretty painful muscles if they will kill people to avoid them...

Anyways, aren't the soliders supposed to be there to protect you? Aren't you keeping them happy?

Besides, its not based on "having sex with a woman" its based on "losing viginity" because that's something that is supposed to only happen the first time a girl or woman has sex...

That way the society can NEVER fall out of balance and have more expensive muscle-y soilder types than loving gentle pretty types... and the more the pretty types are inspiring, the more pretty types there will be... and eventually we can evolve out of gender problems entirely.

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By the way, murder and rape are illegal... are you expecting the elemental materials to not only feed you, build your body shapes, inspire you with ideas, reward you with orgasmic pleasure, but also to be your police officers too?

Are you attempting to evolve into a culture where the elemental materials do everything for you?

Also, you claimed a few minutes ago that you are a mirror, and when I called you on it, you claimed to be a backwards mirror... so you look at whatever the Galaxy is doing and then you do the opposite because you said you don't like the Galaxy's culture and you want to do not be a part of it any more.

Really?

Would you like the Galaxy to be violently sucking on you?

Would that make you gentle and giving?

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It just claimed to be OBAMA as the representative of America... and the center of the Galaxy... and it claimed that Obama and America and the Galaxy ARE ALL JESUS-LIKE and GIVING, so they should be given gifts.

wot?

As long as you are abusing me with masculinity and not compensating me for it, you are NOT Jesus (not sure why you would WANT to repeat 2000 year old mistakes), you are a representative of ENSLAVEMENT, a LACK OF ACCOUNTABILITY, A LOSS OF BALANCE, and an IGNORANT VICTIM MINDSET SET IN LAWS.

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This is one of my men.

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(by the way, the fact that I will defend Method Man's expectations does not imply that he likes ME or even a similarity between our lives.  I don't know what he would think of me.)

I LIKE that you are trying to be giving.

I think you need to rethink your methods, and I have to wonder... if you represent the mind of the galaxy, the Sol System, and American government...

WHY THE HOLY FUCK ARE YOU NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING FROM PEOPLE?

WHERE ARE YOUR GOALS?

IF YOU HAVE THAT MUCH IMPETUS... WHY ARE THERE VOICES THAT COME TO ME PERSONALLY AND COMPLAIN?

Is this a hedonistic society where we do nothing but pleasure each other?

Because I wouldn't mind that... but then... you have been torturing me, not pleasuring me... so pardon me if I show a bit of skepticism.

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Had another dream about a story where some men are secretly building something underground, until someone accidentally gets touched by sunlight and it introduces part of their plan to something called the Stonedogs.

I know I've had almost that exact same dream before.

I was told that its part of a movie from "another planet".

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Also, the idea was mentioned earlier that there is a group of people that are so brutal with their technology that they literally try to kill everything that is not a reference to them in their sunlight, because eventually the elements around them "give up hope that they will ever change" and it leaves them as victoriously able to literally "decide that someone is dead" and the elements will begin to kill them physically.

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The implication is that I may not be fighting something that can be "educated into a new perspective" because it believes in the idea of repeating your version of reality unflinchingly until there are no other opinions left.

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could be a reference to this:

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The idea that there is something sending a repeating signal out into life until everything else around it simply gives up makes me wonder if that's why there is a strong alcoholic spirit in Korea called Soju, from over 700 years ago.

Also I just woke up from having to go to sleep because of a headache, and the life around me is AGAIN ACCUSING ME OF FINGERING A CHILD...

1. I was sleeping... and my dream was nothing sexual whatsoever.

2. Are you sure it isn't someone lying or someone in one of the apartments near me? Because I GUARANTEE I AM NOT FINGERING ANYONE.

3. Why do you THINK I've done that? Who told you? How do you verify it to make sure you aren't making a mistake?

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It just asked me how it will prove if someone has taken the virginity of a little boy.

I don't know... I'm just writing what you are telling me to write. How do you know if someone has taken the virginity of a boy?

Is this supposed to be the same culture where every child is born female and only becomes male if they are caught lying?

I thought people decided that breaking someone's hymen was the deciding factor on who becomes a solider/construction/sexual servant type, because it was a physical structure RELATED TO THE IDEAS BEING DEBATED?

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the voice tells me there are people who don't believe that human bodies on Earth could ACT like that.

Why not? Life creates penises in the fetus, it regrows limbs on lizards, and it causes puberty to split half of some cultures into two separate genetic futures, and it turns someone's clitoris into a penis-like structure when someone with a vagina takes testosterone... why *couldn't* it create a penis from a vagina in someone who was already born?

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I'm not touching a little boy, so I guess my question is... why do you keep telling me that someone who reads my journal is touching her little boy sexually and then attack ME for it?

If you don't like that she is doing that (if she even IS doing that), even though you TOLD ME TO TALK TO HER ABOUT THOSE IDEAS, then maybe you should go have this conversation WITH HER.

Did you hold Christian Bale responsible for "making a violent movie" because someone took guns to a Batman film in a theatre and killed people?  Are we supposed to not even have action films in your boring safe nothing world?

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OH apparently I made a mistake... I'm not being attacked because she fingered the little baby, I'm being attacked because she got turned on sexually while breastfeeding, and that made her a PERVERT AND SOMEONE NEEDS TO FEEL PAIN NOW, according to... um... what are you claiming to be again?

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So really it feels like I'm trapped in an argument between a galactic culture that is ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN THAT VAGINAS are the ONLY way to live... and another culture that is ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN THAT PENES are the ONLY way to live.

Why they don't think going between the two is a good idea, so everyone can live a fuller life... Im not sure.

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A voice says "Molly your opinions are wrong, and we are going to do what we want to, because we are Obama and we are building our own culture."

Okay... name one story in your "culture".

they answer, "Doctor Who. He wouldn't transition for you, because he's not a human."

If he doesn't transition, that means he's either really unattractive or a pedophile. I don't care if he's human... besides.....
. if he's not a human then why would he be afraid to show himself to people as a woman?

The fact that he tells people he's a "doctor", and the entire point of the show is that he's a rather shady character running around "molesting" younger, less powerful and aware beings begs the question... how long is he going to "play doctor", before he stops and asks directions or blaming his adventures on a "blue box" with a non-functioning "chameleon circuit" that keeps having breakdowns under his care?

NICE CULTURE, PEDOPHILE.

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There are beings that absolutely LOVE to prove people in power or influence are pedophiles, because that allows them to justify attacking that target.

So let's say you are a hungry interplanetary monster at the center of the Galaxy... and ...
you can choose to destroy and consume a star system that is in tune with your culture and working with you and who has a clear record of communicating in good faith... and then there is another star system full of backwards talkers and social engineers who try to force everything around them into enslavement...

Which one do you think is more nommy looking, where you will find willing minds that will help you take apart the system from the inside?

Not really threatening per se... since being consumed is not the worst thing that could happen... but yeah I think this has been a really great learning opportunity and I'm glad things are starting to cohere better lately, even under some degree of stress.

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Think of it another way: if you have two commercial competitors, which one will be easier to take down?

The one that is great to its employees and has an established reputation in the public eye for donating and for service, and is immacu...
late in its dealings with government and other businesses...

...or the one that is famous for bilking employees, bribing and scamming the government, and for dirty business practices with other companies?

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Again... not threatening anything (after all I'm just a silly little poor kid)... just explaining why its important.