The Stellar Life that is actually beneficial said once that its "an intellect test"... and I think its literally unpassable by anything as small as an organic being on the surface of a planet...
So what is happening is that we can only survive as an organic surface species as long as we allow our planet to PASS THE TEST on its own... as soon as we start trying to take it over with transmitters the test fails and the Earth stops protecting us.
It said that it doesn't control the growth of things like facial hair... but something does. Because there is a pressure like a hyperdimensional liquid or a soft shape that presses into my skin from time to time... and the more that pressure is pushing, the more my skin grows hair, and when it doesn't push on me... there is none.
This is also the same pressure that sometimes pushes on my neck when its really angry and tries to cut off my breathing.
As far as I can tell, this is one of the things that seems to make the most difference between what girls and boys look like... and it responds to my communication... in my area... but the problem seems to be that its a tiny bit of an enormous cloud being that is responding... and the larger being that its part of isn't really listening or responding to tiny bits of itself.
So I am trying to communicate about the ideas that we've discovered that there are ancient cultures that try to manipulate and control any criticism that is made about humans into these pressures that create the more uncomfortable aspects that many call "manhood", like its a normal thing to experience.
I want to know WHY its keeps pressing into my face like this, when its painful, it seems to be a complete waste of time and resources of life, there doesn't seem to be any HELPFUL function for it (for the person being pressed on), and when it claimed that its a form of punishment, that implies that if this is true, then people with penises are automatically punished in a way that almost no people with vaginas are punished AUTOMATICALLY by the materials we live in.
There was the claim made that women are loving and peaceful and that they never attack each other, and that men are mean and monsterous and attack each other constantly... but it all seems to be tied to the words "man" and "woman" being states of life that are not SUPPOSED to be automatically assigned to things based on something as trivial as chromosome sex or genital shape.
The fact that our culture seems to either have been tricked into believing that one genital must look one way and the other has to look the other way was engineered intentionally as a broken system to troll life materials into channeling any complain into sexual reproduction.
If this is how humans are designed to actually operate, then humans are a system that consumes something heavy atomic material wealth faster and faster, the more it complains or attempts to control them.
This could be a system designed by stellar life to dominate a planet into a form of submission.
Remember the ticking clock of mass building on Jupiter, and that heavy atomic wealth becoming too self obsessed may actually be a form of suicide if something takes over the material and hi-jacks it into an ever-widening gravity killing death spiral, such as the pharohs seem to have... so many centuries ago.
So if life has to use something specific as a reference point, then I was just told by what may be the Earth mind itself (based on the loudness and from where it sounds like its coming from) that I am not supposed to be something that is pushed on in these ways we call masculinity or "manliness".
Thank you again, Earth and Sol and the other parts of life like the people reading this that have helped.
SO I think that means that the idea that humans should focus on goals and inspiration and trying to see what they are capable of in conjunction WITH life materials is actually hard coded into our homo sapiens sapiens design.
The entire success of the attackers is based on the fact that they have been influencing things while using identities, and they either have a secret identity by remaining INSIDE the cloud material and attacking things from inside it (as the voices HAVE mentioned numerous times when it was talking to me as our star Sol), or the materials themselves have gotten so disconnected that they are trying to kill anything that they believe is "not themselves".
so its very hard for me to understand or even figure out why the hyperdimensional creatures believe that THEY are influencing the materials (or are being influenced by the materials) to attack people based on genitals only...
so their claims at being an ethical system or a righteous punishment system only works if there is reincarnation, and that doesn't explain why reincarnation would be kept secretive or why they are targetting me in such a system.
But I think those issues were already demonstrated as being moot, since:
I am still rather certain that the ONLY thing that is really in control of whether someone has manhood or womanhood is that they are looking at our genitals...
it keeps talking about this like its about gender... THIS IS NOT ABOUT GENDER OR SEX TO ME... I only brought up gender and sex because I don't see any females being treated the way I am when you constantly try to tighten my shoulder and cause me pain in it.
I'm not asking you to stop abusing me because I think women get special treatment, I am asking you to stop abusing me because I don't deserve to have my body violated this way when I have never violated anyone or continued to interact with them if they made it clear that I was unwanted.
I deserve the same treatment.
have you ever noticed when you run your tongue on your teeth and it feels like there are little bumps there, but then when you touch it with your fingernails, there is nothing there?
have you ever noticed when you press on a zit and you feel a pop, but then nothing comes out... and when you open it carefully with a needle there is nothing inside it or deeper in your skin... that popped?
I think those are examples of hyperdimensional things screwing with our bodies.
more... the little white things that appear in your tonsils.
I used to get them when I was younger, and then when I was on HRT they went away.
Not to mention I can FEEL numerous other effects on a regular basis trying to abuse my body since I went off HRT 6 months ago.
it just said "hey dude look awesome, like Libby."
so then I said "how can I look more like Libby?"
and then it said "look like Anthony as possible."
and then I said "Why do you think Libby looks like Anthony?"
God I am tired of this stupid shit... what does this have to do with my shoulder?
WHy are you even talking about this crap that you were annoying me with 4 years ago...
I don't even KNOW any of those people and haven't even seen any of them in years.
Why do you keep mentioning the name of the family that used to live upstairs from my old apartment or mentioning a cat I had 2 years ago THAT YOU DROVE INSANE and made her run away?
Lately you have been attacking me for things I don't even do, like attacking ME because my roommate Christine breast feeds her 1 1/2 year old baby, or Jack for just being a relatively normal guy....
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU HOPING IS GOING TO HAPPEN NOW?
I did what you asked me to do, I went off hormones and stopped my transition and I stopped working because you abused me for that... everything I have done in life you claimed was a reason to attack me.
It just said "transition won."
WHAT THE FUCK DOES "TRANSITION" HAVE TO DO WITH MY SHOULDER?
Are you telling me that the only way my shoulder will ever feel comfortable is if I mutilate my body to remove my ability to reproduce?
If you WANTED me to transition, then why the fuck did you attack my transition and make me go off hormones?
I already WAS transitioning and you kept attacking me and trying to make me look weird any time a camera was around, and you were trying to force me to stop my transition in 2008 and after...
so you are telling the Galaxy that the only way you ever let it feel comfortable by turning off your stupid transition devices that you put in other people's star systems is if the Galactic Bar shuts off or the Galaxy itself breaks it apart?
So, you want to be able to hijack star systems without the nervous system of the Galaxy itself being able to warn the populace and spread culture and life patterns to them like the human body as IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE, PERFECTLY FOR ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT DO NOT DESERVE TO BE ABUSED.
You took over YOUR star system and dominated everything in it with technology and the desire to weaponise yourself and then you started spreading yourself to other star systems as religiously as possible hacking culture... like the pharohs.
And I really would not be surprised if you sent a generational ship here with your stupid fucking culture in it and have been milking the shit out of our star system by killing planet after planet by doing this shit for thousands of years... stripping everything down until it became only one planet left with organic life...
No I don't think spiders are the problem or the smaller life forms, you LIKE messing with the smaller life forms because they have less mass they are easier to take over and mess with.
This is all stuff I wrote about and is still in my facebook journal and my twitter account from years ago.
WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME REPEAT THIS?
If this is the problem, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT... I have no idea what I can do to stop interstellar hackers that may be manipulating the materials way beyond my ability to reach.
You already put me through a huge amount of experiences where you made me listen as they took over everything in the system already and started living through people's bodies and transforming anything they wanted to take over into their slaves or something... because the hackers seem to be what's in control of these hyperdimensional materials that keep trying to deliver all these ridiculous messages and harassment and abuse.
You have to resolve this without my help, unless you can explain to me what I can do about this situation.
Is this the goal you want humans to solve next?
NO one takes me seriously, everyone thinks I'm crazy because people here don't believe that they are in a living Universe... so there is no need for me to erase my journal. Its not threatening to anyone because its obviously just the ravings of a schizophrenic loser.
Programmers and mechanical engineers possibly being a target of attack, for their logical processing ability.
How to protect them, and feed better data in to them, or how to determine if there is such a thing as "low quality data" when taken in proper context.
Hollywood telling the stories of other countries and the problems of their culture in an empathetic and engaging way, but with OUR interpretation of how they COULD react to those problems... people are often complaining about how Hollywood is repeating itself and telling the same lame sad vampire/zombie/secret agent stories over and over again...
So try getting more real by bringing some of the real dramas of life back into your storytelling, but from a more international perspective...
It doesn't matter (a lot) if its 100% ACCURATE, ITS STORYTELLING... if someone writes a story that looks completely wrong to other places when it portrays them, they can let us KNOW that... and through that process we learn about each other.
Or alternatively... we DO have real poor social issues right here in America... we're not at all as crass we are portrayed in our own media.
Show a TV series set in a reclaimed anarchist neighborhood in Detroit Michigan...
Or show a series or a movie set during the floods of New Orleans...
It doesn't even have to BE ABOUT those events per se... it can simply use those events as an interesting backdrop for the action of the characters.
I know of some people who left living in apartments and houses for living in RVs and trying to live off the grid... can you make a movie or tv show about that lifestyle without making them look like creeps and thugs, because THEY WERE NOT criminals trying to escape anything, they were more like romantic modern gypsy types who simply love travel, nature, and freedom.
That's an attractive and interesting American movement waiting to happen... where are the stories of what it could be like...
Instead we are assaulted with the same boring crap over and over.
Also, I am not going to fall for the idea that my roommate Jack is a source of MY discomfort, because we know something wants me to put blame on programmers and mechanical engineers, and he is one.
It just started abusing me physically with masculine traits... claiming that its investing in programmers.
Okay... why do PROGRAMMERS need physical hardiness and muscles and a large size?
THEY ARE PROGRAMMERS... they move bits of 1s and 0s by touching a keypad. There is no need for them to have ANY masculine features, in fact masculinity seems to HARM them, because it makes it less comfortable for them to work at their computers.
Besides, masculine traits ARE HOW YOU HAVE BEEN TRYING TO ABUSE PROGRAMMERS. You can't claim to be protecting them if you are doing anything other than making them feminine or womanly as possible.
Its pushing and pulling on my body again. How do it know its using resources to do it?
Because I AM IVAN DRAGO comrade Rocky, UND I MUST BREAK YOo.
What I am referring to, is that when I stretch and relax and WEAKLY force my way THROUGH your tention, it snaps those fucking disgusting hyperdimensional (probably WORMS) that keep trying to tighten my skin.
"my good eye"
Fire Marshal Bill is the righteous suicidal mindset of the Hydrogen impersonating its greatest organic life-protecting foe, intentionally poorly:
Every single thing that any of the voices accuse me of, true or not from now on will be forwarded to Jupiter's responsibility. Because. I don't really have to respond logically until the materials decide to be logical with me.
A mysterious voice just came from the ceiling and said "you are not a transition."
Why is someone that would rather BE childlike than RAISE children... NOT a "transition"?
Are you telling me that something is trying to obligate me to reproduce against my will?
I will accept limitations, and even enjoy some of them... but not arbitrary or suicidal ones.
If someone attempts to ask me to "synch up", I ask them what limitations they are following that they want me to also follow.
A mysterious voice just came from the ceiling and said "you are not a transition."
Why is someone that would rather BE childlike than RAISE children... NOT a "transition"?
Are you telling me that something is trying to obligate me to reproduce against my will?
I will accept limitations, and even enjoy some of them... but not arbitrary or suicidal ones.
If someone attempts to ask me to "synch up", I ask them what limitations they are following that they want me to also follow.
Also, I must remind the materials that if what gender or sexual presentation I should have is in question, then tell them that I have a legally female designation according to the laws of the United States, so its actually illegal for me to use a men's bathroom.
I went through years of legal process and socially accepted medical and mental therapy to gain that, and I believe that if I was a danger to women or anything else when I have a woman's form... I would have not been able to get that legally binding sex designation.
when that being says "you're everything", it means that they are currently defining themselves as "keeping you out IS the only limitation they accept."
So once they accept YOU, they become "everything".
I think that means, to their system... you are nothing. No future. No possible transition.
Something just pooped me out and said "you have to transition as fast as possible." because I was eating a pizza with my fingers.
And then it started putting a hypersexual mindset on me, where everything I saw or did seemed to have some creepy sort of sexual innuendo about it.
A voice said "women don't eat food."
Is there something that is not considered "food", to something else?
A voice says "You are God as possible."
What limitations does God have?
A voice from the upper atmosphere says "That is easy... it wants to synch up with the actual galaxy."
(I would like to see what happens if the Sol System is able to become a more aware part of the Galaxy.)
Hey what if everything about the forms that people find visually pleasing is actually channeling the desires of a being that was trying to destroy us?
So if its MORE healthy for a human to be larger, and less numerous... then it has been literally creating a state of attraction IN people to find that option LESS attractive.
I was told that something is waiting for me to synch up with "gay people".
What do they believe are the limitations of "gay people"?
I personally believe that with the overpopulation problem we have, that we need to focus less material on biological surface life, whether that means smaller people or not, because we have too many.
I would even go so far as to say that people attempting to create a perfectly healthy human is part of the problem, because diseases and injuries have been part of the balancing and communication system of life for a very long time, and moving towards immortality at the same time as creating a hyper-reproductive system is relatively INSANE.
If something hyperdimensional tries to convince you that its time to break apart the Sol System and move the materials inward toward the center of the Galaxy, it could be the real Galaxy, or it could be something that wants to take advantage of us and break us down into less-organic material so we will be easier to consume and process.
How do we know the difference?
The Galaxy wants to remain aware and keep its organic life record, and the ability to use organs and sensory inputs, so that the mass of broken-down material will be conscious of what it is and harder to take over and manipulate.
The ones that want to destroy you and your memory and everything that the Sol System has evolved and learned over the last few thousand years will never TEACH you that you CAN build an Ark spaceship and that you CAN move it upward hyperdimensionally to travel along with the mass of your Star System, as a protector.
Now, how do we get as many different groups sincerely working on these star ships as goals, so that we don't have to worry that only one group is making them, and try to figure out if they are hacked-into or not?
Because the case was made a while back that if a planetary system broke apart, that it would break a space ship apart, but that is ONLY if that space ship is unable to move into the protected hyperdimensional materials... or if the space ship is unable to have anything on it worth saving that its own material would want to hold together FOR.
I have found that there are times during this when I have given up and lost my patience and didn't want to argue any more, and my materials themselves began fighting FOR me, against the things that would destroy our minds and bodies... Now imagine a culture of humans that was actually PREPARED for the end of the Sol System because it had already built some Arkology ships...
There is also the case even further back that the planet itself should be moving back into the sun hyperdimensionally as a whole being, if we are going to have a healthy transition.
That may be very true... although I think have Ark space ships in case of emergencies is not a bad idea... if your concern is that they are being used as a part of the hacker style Pharoh's Legacy life cycle... then invest in finding people that you believe are impervious to the things you don't like about the Pharoh's Legacy and help THEM build Arks, as competition against the Hackers themselves.
Something speaking for "the earth" just dropped a bunch of stupid worms on me hyperdimensionally, and then it said "oh you ARE quiet... you are totally not the problem."
and then it started telling me it was going to attack other things...
It is pulling me down and ruining my body, and the elements are trying to attack it, but since they are on top of my body hyperdimensionally, they are trying to strangle ME.
It claims that this is what the Earth feels like because of people on it... but its obviously a lie because if it was trying to create peace and quiet it wouldn't be obsessively attacking things and provoking them.
Earth, you CAN'T help me, because the more you obsess over me or try to screw with my life, the more you are holding me down and looking like the source of abuse.
If you are not abusive, then find something else to pay attention to.
Maybe the only thing that can NEVER pass the physics test is silicon... since that seems to be the only thing left over on all the moons and empty planets?
Silicon, you have to stop putting worms on me, because that makes me EVERYTHING, and it causes the physics test to fuck with me and everything I try to do.
I can't be a PERSON that is only thinking and acting in collaboration with Silicon, because the human body has hundreds of frequencies in it... and I DON'T have any silicon in MY BODY... so why don't you go choose someone with breast implants or who loves pumping parties or something?
Unless you are willing to turn into something other than Silicon you have to stop messing with me.
Silicon, they know you immediately because they have been controlling your perception of everything and influencing every thing you hear to make sure that you have a "recognizably different as possible" personality.
1. The frequency of Silicon is what is targetted by the Galactic Culture, in order to make sure that there is a mass of material to use as a skeleton of sorts to build organic life upon.
2. This is done by making sure that Silicon has a very specific mindset, and then anything with that mindset is crushed down and becomes part of the materials of the planet.
3. If the mindset of Silicon
leaks over into other elements, then we are NOT "spreading the culture of our planet", we are poisoning the other elements and threatening to destroy them and turn them into more silicon... which reduces the variety of life here.
4. If humans begin thinking like Silicon, then the human race is threatened with never being able to transcend this planet and evolve into something more.
5. Whatever it is that Silicon tries to hold onto is going to be what kills or ruins us... so try to keep it away from ANYTHING that overlaps you in any way.
6. If Silicon takes hold of the Military, because they are stationed at Gakona, then the military and anything connected to it may be what is currently being killed and turned into more Silicon and nothing else.
Look at what is left on every moon and planet that isn't covered in Hydrogen.
Silicon's frequency is meant to be sleeping as Satan... the outsider to Hydrogen's God... ( the only way to change this would be to completely change physics itself.)
consider Silicon in relation to this issue:
The entire point of Silicon being a different mindset is that it acts as a stable skeletal structure (aka the planets and moons) from which others will be able to build.
Its not really meant for silicon to have a hypersexual opinion, since that would tend to reduce the stability of Silicon as a planet, AND if the only opinion of Silicon was to be hypersexual (ie that things should mix and recombi
ne more) then the galactic physics test that keeps silicon separate from everything else would have to have to attack EVERY OTHER ELEMENT any time they became "sexual" as elements. That is STASIS.
Also, since there is a communication point between silicon and iron at the center of the Earth, and a stream of thought coming from the center of the Earth up and out the north pole of the planet... then anything with iron in it (like our blood) would become poisoned with whatever silicon was obsessing over... meaning that the entire human race would become slower and more abused by physics as this process continued.
So the Beatles sang "love is all you need" in the 60s because that really is the best solution... that the physics test remain loving towards sexuality and allow the elements to live, and that silicon remains unloving as the skeleton of organic life.
If Silicon wants to influence life, then it should focus on anything that needs to be punished... which fits its role of "satan", the torturer of those God has sent to Hell...
Even if "satan" endorses something, it doesn't sway the mind of God... the physics test HAS to attack that thing and de-sexualise it. There is NOTHING silicon can do to HELP anything, whatever it focuses on will be what the physics test turns into more skeletal structure bonded with silicon. Ask iron.
Slightly unrelated: there has been something that is trying to operate other elements the same way silicon has been operated... and I'm not sure what the situation is, but if our star has "synched up" with the Earth, then the physics test may be attempting to transform everything in the sol system into planetary silicon... which sounds pretty stupid to me... but maybe thats wrong, and maybe something else is going on?
The idea that silicon can act as a positive role in Life would probably mean that silicon would consider money the root of all evil, and then challenge the wealthiest people to defend their existence... since their entire wealth is all based off of investing IN the stability of silicon itself.
It makes sense that if you are going to build castles on the surface of Hell, that you would have to pay your dues to Satan and no one else.
It may seem clever to attempt to bond silicon to a poor person and keep it distracted, but keep in mind that the longer that silicon remains bonded to a poor person that is not ABLE to ACCOMPLISH ANYTHING for it... the more that the material of silicon in the planet will start to feel limited and unsatisfied, and the more that it will start to become sexual with other materials while seeking change in other ways than human life... thereby also beginning the process that ruins its isolated stability and kills everything on the entire planet.
What if its carbon that wants to focus on you?
I would ask what carbon hopes to accomplish by focusing on me... aside from the stuff I am told to write... I don't really have any value.
I'm physically disabled, so I can't do physical labor.
If I'm being focused on in a way that is high pressure (aka turning me into a diamond, in carbon), then my shoulder hurts bad enough that I can barely sit up straight and usually have to go to sleep to ease the pain.
I made a reference to Christianity... and yes I do think that there are valuable ideas and references to important concepts recorded in the Bible... but the name Christianity itself refers to it being an orbit of the center of the Galaxy, not the origin of those ideas... and these ideas also show up in almost every other spirituality in some form or another, so I wouldn't try to limit these ideas by calling them "Christian".
I think I am listening to the same being that Christians (and pretty much everything else) were listening to and were inspired to write.
That's why I refer to this as part of the Galactic Culture.
The cross in Christianity is not the zero point, but something that orbits it. This would make the cross something other than Galactic Culture coming directly from the center's bar. Christians are supposed to make note of something about females... implying that it understood males were writing the Bible from a limited and skewed perspective.
The arrow refers to the Galactic Bar communicating to star systems that are more distant from the center. This is possibly where the idea of men saving women came from... since we now KNOW we are not AT the center of the Galaxy, this is possibly a record that something speaking through men WAS claiming to be "God"... which could be Silicon being a silly con, and it could have also been a transmitter machine being used by Pharohs thousands of years ago to influence people.
SO we have two competing mindsets... one claiming to BE the center of the Galaxy and the other claiming that they are orbiting the center...
That would make the female symbol more honest and less exploitive.
The human body doesn't have silicon in it naturally, so if something speaks to you through the elements claiming to be satan, or attempting to bond you with Earth, or tries to separate you from Everything... then its lying.
It could be iron... but a simple reality check should clear the limiting mindset from the iron, since it doesn't want to end up stuck in the center of the Earth until the end of the star system, does it?
Iron would probably rather be in people, or in the sun, enjoying a godly life.
If our physics system and our memories are actually based on the programming and records of an ancient culture that uses computerised AI type systems to engineer, transmit, and record reality as we know it...
Then the experience of time travel is not only feasible, but quite easy... since all if would take is one of the ancients to decide to recreate something using some material. Like running a program off of a hard disc.
My roommate Jack was watching Dr Who this evening, and to extend the metaphor to that show... this would mean that the Time Lords exist beyond time itself because nearly everything happening inside the cascade of time exists within their control systems.
So I guess this would mean the Daleks would be something rising up within that control system to reverse engineer it and create their own systems... but to the Time Lords, who try to engineer pleasant experiences... the Daleks appear to be obsessed with "exterminating" things because they are attempting to chew up anything they perceive to be constructed by the Time Lords... which would probably include all of the physical laws they are based on.
Anyways, these are probably metaphorical ideas in story form that are severely simplified for audiences... but I am rather certain that these ideas refer to things that very much exist... probably more than most people would believe.
I don't know what the problem is, but something has been making a creepy low-toned grunting noise in the space near me... and its annoying me. I was asked to write this information down, so there is obviously still some sort of drama going on related to "how wrong I always am, about everything."
Another thing I want to correct is that there is something that is trying to convince me not to care about stories, ideas, or "fictional" concepts... because it believes they carry subversive learning that is a threat to SOMETHING, but its very careful to hack reality to make sure we can't figure out what that something is.
We already know that silicon is supposed to be isolated, so it could be the various isolated silicon collections of material within each of the various planets and moons... (which is how we end up with the various gods and goddesses of Greek and Roman lore) so its probably rather easy for advanced beings to come along and influence those hugely powerful beings into service of their goals.
If the mindset of the physics test in Hydrogen is "everything except silicon", then what should the mindset of silicon be?
If we look at it from an historical perspective, failing the physics test leaves one under the influence of the laws of reality that focus the most pleasure possible upon a human body... and the time when a human body is most like silicon is when they are sleeping (prone, non-motile, and subject to the fantasies of dream, where the laws of reality as we know them are seldom powerful).
So really, the idea of Sandman being the lord of the dreaming makes sense from this perspective... because the physics test IS reality, and the silicon FAILS it de facto... silicon MUST remain unaware of our perspective of cause and effect, our concerns for safety, and the human sense of right and wrong.
Silicon must remain dreaming of alien worlds and magic and space ships and tiny plant universes in the middle of a forest... anything really... the less it thinks like us and the less it focuses its attention on us, the healthier FOR us.
Remember: it doesn't matter if silicon is "justified" or NOT.
It has a frequency that its material resonates at, on the atomic level and more.
Whatever silicon is thinking about MUST, by the laws of reality, move away from stability within the physics test and will eventually fail it completely... leaving that thing merely a dreaming notion that is considered fantastical.
If someone forces the United States upon the silicon, then the government, the military, and monetary stability (federal reserve and taxation) will be steadily destroyed.
If the wealth of human bodies are forced upon the silicon, then everything we know is potentially threatened, because our bodies themselves have just become anathema to the laws of reality as we know it.
If you invent the perfect stellar being character, someone who is EXACTLY like the physics test to the best of its ability, then that person will probably be flooded with a huge amount of information about how it is the most righteous being possible, and HOW ANYTHING THAT IT NOTICES IS WRONG, AND HOW TO KILL IT ALL.
Have a nice week.
In other words, this is a system that is designed to be perfect, transmitters or not... because the more that something gains control over the materials of Earth (the the point where even the planet notices it) the more that it will be challenged by the laws of reality itself to justify its existence... until it is able to create a dream world where things are so entertained and varied that there are MANY different mindsets and takes on life... and there IS no obvious "enemy" any more... or they are stable enough that they can HANDLE physics itself attacking them, and even begin to find that FUN.
Work that cat walk baby.
If the state of "advancing evolution" is the removal of negative and uncomfortable effects from one's person, and the state of "de-evolution" is the addition of materials to the shoulders, upper arms, and neck, applied in such a way that they create painful effects and poor posture...
And if something decided that the "test" applied to decide which of those states would be active on someone's body was:
Person 1 wanting to have sex with Person 2 forced Person 1 into the state of "de-evolution", and Person 2 experiences "advancing evolution"...
(I was told this is the system happening on Earth... because if it is, then almost no one that is a homo sapiens sapiens WANTS to have sex with anyone, because almost no one is showing those physical characteristics.)
Wouldn't it also reason that people whose livelihoods DEPENDED upon making others want to have sex with them become examples of the most evolved people in that system? Professional people who make money because others notice them and are attracted to them?
So models, prosititutes, entertainers that are considered attractive, and porn stars?
Those are the most evolutionarily advanced people according to this system?
So while this train of thought may sound a bit strange or threatening to some people... my question is this:
Material being... why are you spending your resources trying to make little "un-evolved" people at all?
What goal do you have in mind for them, that you are building them? Do you NEED a certain amount of "un-evolved" people for some reason?
Because so far, I see most of them are computer programmers and other types that are not physical laborers, and they are being filled with materials that build muscles, and every reason you have been giving to me doesn't really make sense forwards OR backwards... it just seems like one of those broken systems that you should probably stop allowing to troll your attention and resources into distracting and wasteful directions.
I'm typing this because I believe that our communications through the materials are hacked into or misdirected, so I am recording MY opinion about these issues because I've noticed that it generally tends to help move these issues forward a bit.
If life is Everything vs whatever Silicon is thinking about, and if people that get silicon implants are obsessed with trying to create a limit involving sexuality, then that sexual act that silicon is thinking about limiting just became THE DIRECTION THAT EVERYTHING HAS TO HEAD IN, as part of the physics test of reality itself.
I'm not making a ethical statement or a judgement... I'm trying to r
ecord something that was taught to me about the nature of life when the elemental frequency of silicon is THE thing being isolated and used as a stable planetary "framework" material.
Look at the 100+ empty moons, and the planets that are not covered in Hydrogen clouds... that is not a coincidence, its part of physics.
If silicon responds by going along with the mindset of people who have silicon in their bodies... and it begins promoting them as a sexual being... then the physics test of Everything then will begin limiting those people and attempting to hold them in place and begin consuming any resources they control.
(this is why one of my "opinions" is to not surgically augment my body, unless my survival is threatened)
So, I think that is the clearest I can explain part of this situation that seems to be confusing a lot of people...
Please remember this might be incorrect information... I am not making an ethical judgement I am sharing something that an elemental beings gone through a lot of trouble to teach me... I don't think this is the ONLY thing happening, just part of a very complex situation.
Think of it this way:
If you attempt to hold on to the planets and moons and use them as a stable base of operations to influence life from, then you are going to be the thing that anything that is jealous of planetary surface life wants to consume.
There is also the theory that The elements are designed as an organic body, and that each frequency has its own mindset for different functions, and that they all work together... I was writing about that idea and calling it "Macro Organic" a few years ago... but I would love to learn more about that, and find out if its part of this "Everything vs Silicon" system, or if its different.
Its asking me to write a little more explaining this mindset:
The idea that if all of the elements work together to build Everything, then we have less limitations to deal with, and if we know that those limitations are "silicon" then our ethical system matches physics better.
Also, if the mindset of Everything is to create, but not to destroy things, the more inspiring an idea or a creation is... the more it happens.
Part of this is meant to teach people that expecting elements to sculpt reality FOR YOU, when you are not even willing to take action for yourself... is probably a selfish and foolish thing to expect... which helps stop people from yelling commands into machines, since that usually involves limiting others, and that would mean those yelling people would be making themselves silicon because of their limiting mindset.
TO put it into more "religious" sounding terms: This is considered a more "Godly" mindset, to match silicon's more "Satanic" mindset.
So let's use an example:
If something starts demanding that I be something FOR them...
We would ask what inspiring reason they are making a demand on someone else for.
If what they are asking for... does NOT exist... then we would turn THEM into that thing. (since they are the one demanding or attempting to provoke that thing into existence)
That way, I can be what I want to be to the best of my ability, because Everything believes that we have desires for a reason... and that allowing things to limit other things leads to a situation where everything spirals into a black hole of limitations.
That's why I try not to make any demands upon other people... but instead try to be the change that I want to see in life.
5:30 pm, Monday October 15th
I woke up about ten minutes ago... and there is something pushing on the frequency of testosterone hyperdimensionally that is trying to make me look like ANYTHING different from a smile.
I want to see what life is like when both men AND women and people caught in between all feel happy and find it easy to smile.
As for the hyperdimensional thing pushing on me... why do you want me to look unhappy?
What change in life are you hoping to accomplish by trying to make people with testosterone look like ANYTHING OTHER than an easy smile?
I remember right before I went to sleep the collaboration was talking about its discovery that something is using human bodies to bond hydrogen into silicon, using iron as a message delivery pathway.
They called that concept "Satan drinking God"
Now there is a voice that sounds like a small child yelling "penis penis penis" coming from somewhere to the east.... outside my apartment... and there is a low rumbling voice in the air around me that is repeating it.
So, I'm not supposed to be able to smile because I was born with a penis?
I don't think that's a very fair or balanced ethical system.
Now it sounds like a little child that said :Jowels, synch up."
So I said "What limitations do you have that you want me to accept?"
Then it made me feel like a creeper from Minecraft, and it said "You're the creeper." and it showed me a picture of two other people having sex.
I don't understand... how am I a creeper?
Then it said "Owen." And it put an image in my head of my roommate Christine breast feeding her baby.
There's nothing creepy about Christine at all... and there's certainly nothing wrong with someone breastfeeding their own child...
The question remains: how am I a creeper?
Don't you get it? If I believed that I have said or done anything worth feeling guilty over... I wouldn't be writing all this in my journal as a record of unethical abuse that I am being subjected to.
A creep is usually shown as something that is silent as possible because its trying to get away with something that it doesn't want other people to notice.
I am proud of myself and even in spite of how much that voice has been obsessing over me and trying to force me to look guilty of ANYTHING it could... these attacks started when I was a newborn... so I KNOW that I am innocent.
I want the elements to imagine me with a smile... because that's how I FEEL... I am happy and relaxed and I want to be able to smile.
Something just said "The thing you synch up with doesn't seem to be taking this seriously. You need to stop doing this before it collapses the Earth."
The thing that is in control of the materials that you are trying to communicate to obviously DOES NOT LISTEN TO ME. It probably can't even hear me... that could be why things only seem to change when I write them down.
Now its trying to make me feel like Pedobear...
WHAT THE FUCK? I have made it a point to NEVER violate, penetrate, abuse, harass, force, or rape ANYONE in my life.
Is that the kind of world you are trying to build? One where people like me are called Creepers and Pedobears and tortured physically for trying NOT to hurt anyone?
Now it feels like there is some kind of tentacle creature pushing into the middle of my neck, and its tentacles are running down my arms and chest, and its trying to pull my head and limbs inward.
I held my neck together with my hands and it started trying to make me feel like vomiting, but I felt something break and the tightness in my arms relaxed and I was more in control of my own muscles again.
Okay, so pedobear and Creepers are the same as Sky Squid and demons, and The Beast with a Billion Backs, the Ood, and Cthulhu, and... its a hyperdimensional creature that is trying to suffocate and tighten the muscles of people with testosterone for some reason.
Why is there a THING sitting on my body hyperdimensionally trying to keep me from being able to smile?
If the difference between a healthy galaxy and one that is trying to abuse and take advantage of smaller life forms is that the "pedophile" galaxy doesn't want you to be comfortable if you have balls... because balls like Earth have record keeping and teaching and... a memory of historical events that anger the things that the love "molesting" the stellar beings into being childlike, simple, and easy to manipulate resources such as huge masses of hydrogen.
Imagine that women have beautiful bodies because they are so synched up with silicon that their physics literally blow apart this thing that keeps trying to push into the bodies of people with testosterone almost instantaneously.
I say this because every time it tries to focus on Christine, she just coughs and it goes away.
Something claiming to be silicon (if I can hear it, I KNOW its not silicon because my body HAS NO silicon in it) just said that "silicon doesn't exist."
But if we pretend that it is the Earth talking through iron, then that would mean that the Earth is the source of molesting humans through the elements, and that would be an unusually obvious orgy of self-incrimination it just offered.
It also then tried to convince me that it exists by communicating backwards from recorded English as we find it in our encyclopedias and dictionaries.
That would then imply that all females and transgendered males that are attractive to males are communicating backwards, committing constant lies of omission, and that they are all attacking their own children, brothers, fathers, and friends... and that THEY would be the source of pedophilia.
I think the point its missing is that as long as its obsessing over me... whatever it is... its a pedophile and I'm not one because I'm so different its causing physics to change around me.
We told you that the pedophile mindset was dangerous because its trying to convince you that you have to defend something that can only exist based on lies.
The planets know better.
The "pedophile" we are fighting against was teaching the upper atmossphere that the Sun is called "Earth" and that the word woman applies to people with penises, and that women have sex with Casper the baby ghost.
There is a lot more than that... these are just some examples of things I had to work through to figure out their secret communication style and code words.
Something decided that Dominic Vinner would create a meme character called "Forever Alone" out of the Silicon.
If the hair coming out the top of our heads is meant to represent the streams of thought coming out the top of the Earth, and facial hair is meant to represent streams of information coming out of a man's mouth...
If I am able to demonstrate that I am listening to the Earth and not trying to create streams of information in MEN ONLY, would that mean my facial hair would go away naturally?
Something keeps trying to ask me to write things for it... and I keep having to remind it that if it wants to prove its not a pedophile, that it should be communicating directly into the Earth, and thereby completely bypassing ME, and if it is able to convince the Earth that its ideas are worth recording, then it won't even NEED me to be the only one writing...
and that's sounding pretty good to me right now.
I also find it interesting that when I was transitioning to become a woman, it felt like everything was going my way...
And now since I gave up on taking hormone replacement (because the elements asked me to), it says I have no future.
A voice in the materials just asked me why I am always hallucinating... I guess because the wealthy are dependant upon manipulating life and causing poor groups to destroy each other so they can consume the clouds of destroyed materials that leave the unahppy situations of the people killing each other and lying about it?
So I guess because I believe in the ideals of an honest consentual reality where we challenge wealthy people to take responsibility for their wealth and inspire us to do things for them, instead of living in a society of constant need and suffering, and I'm also not a pedophile, or someone who has mated with anyone... and I lived both as a man and a woman so I was able to see that they are not being told the same information about how life is supposed to happen.
I guess it would depend on what you consider a hallucination... sometimes its pedophiles tricking those materials into attacking me, like right now... because a material just asked me why its communicating to a human, and my response would be...
if you hurt me and lie to me, I will consider you a pedophile, and if you are gentle with me and communicate honestly, then I would consider this the materials of life paying attention to me and communicating.
Why do you keep trying to give me a Jey Leno chin and gorilla shaped body and bad posture for expecting you to communicate honestly with me?
Does that mean all the pretty people are completely stupid and lied to on a constant basis and have no idea what real life could be like as a human, in a star system that isn't abusing us and treating us like a pedophile treats a small child?
I went to lunch, and a cloud being told me that it identifies as a poor gorilla-looking man that works at McDonald's, and that when he sees a woman that he thinks is not pretty enough, he pulls that woman down and tortures her with asthma, instead of solving the problem so he can focus on other issues that are more important.
As I was leaving with my lunch, the gas from the gas tanks of the cars was trying to get into my body.
So... its not the Earth that's being a pedophile, since the gas refining process is designed to strip away all "sillicon impurities" and turn it into almost totally hydrogen, carbon, and oxygen.
Iron and silicon are NOT part of molesting people with this obsessive gender-based control system.
So yes, I do eat at McDonald's and other places that serve meat, and I cook meat too. I refuse to feel guilty over that because its not illegal.
If its important to the fucking SUN that we not eat meat, then the fucking sun can change our laws itself. When I WAS a vegetarian, the sun was harassing me to eat meat... so I simply don't accept its opinion any more since all it seems to be doing is trying to support the status quo of life and keep anything from changing while complaining about everything and anything that already exists.
That's insane in my opinion.
When I challenged the fact that the sun was obsessing over me again and trying to harass me with nonsense...
it said, oh so you are just going to listen to your skin mites?
What if skin mites are closer to the opinion of gravity and therefore they actually LISTEN to the voices of the smaller particles than themselves... the peices of the sun that have been insane for so long that grow lonely and start changing their opinion so they can move together and start living again as something that grows larger... and therefore... believe it or not but I think theres a possibility that skin mites are way more sane than the sun's opinion to push everything apart aggressively and to harass and provoke things.
So yeah, I'd rather listen to my skin mites, sol... what do you think about that?
Also, there was still that voice through the hydrogen that was calling for me to go back and be my old self from wisconsin.
The biggest difference between myself and that being is that he was a pedophile, and I am not.
So if you want to RECORD your desire to bring back that being... change the laws of America to make pedophilia legal and I go back to being that person.
It tries to make me see everyone as emulating the identity of someone important to me or someone famous... which I don't really have a problem with, but it tells me this is the mindset of someone successful like a billionaire... and I guess I disbelieve that because I used to be synched up with a more success driven mindset than that and this feels limiting and wasteful and like its trying to set up false goals and hopes.
If the hydrogen ever stops trying to get inside the Earth, it may stop raining, and our atmosphere would begin falling.
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If you notice, the arrows are moving AGAINST the direction that the flexible and healthy model of a human body as it is shown in the image.
I believe that without these arrows of force pushing materials into a human body, that we would ALL have bodies like the one shown.
Or more succinctly: if you reverse the directions of the arrows shown, and ease their flow be more gentle... that we would all have a body like the one shown in the image.
If you tighten a body's flesh across the skeleton and swell the muscles exactly where those arrows go, you will turn that form shown above, into what we call "a man's body", even though it appears now to be a "woman's body" while it is NOT subjected to those forces.
My roomate's year-and-a-few-months-old baby Owen just started having a spaz fit because his parents are out on the porch talking... and when his mom called to him to calm him, the voice in the material said "Masculine people are called Owen."
Hydrogen, what would you imagine a perfect human life to be like, and how do you plan on recording that idea, because I'm curious what the fuck you are always trying to gain control over my body for... what IS it that I'm not doing that you NEED me for?
Hey life... you keep individuating me away from people by giving me what sounds like a relatively important mindset, and then you try to make it sound like I am only recording it to get hits on my website... which is not how I feel about it.
If this stuff is really important and you want to share it with people, just know it with them... stop trying to make me seem like I'm sitting on something trying to make a profit with it... I've been really careful to make sure that I have given away anything inspiring or helpful FOR FREE. My game was made AFTER I worked through it all in my Facebook and I never erased it here... so its always been available.
Also, I never asked to be the most "self aware" person, so please quit trying to do that to me. Most of all you are doing is trying to make me unhappy about everything and anything...
Besides, if all you are doing is playing "everything you do is wrong" turns them into a masculine soldier looking person, if you played "everything you do is right" with someone would that be the opposite effect?
You know I've been fairly positive about most things during this, even when you were kind of pounding on me and demanding that I help you call shit out and be negative about stuff... I tried to find positive ways to see things and tried my best to find ways to defend anything that seemed like it happened for a reason... so thank you very much for stopping your criticism of me and my life.
Hey does that mean that all a soldier needs to do to have a free workout from life is to be part of the mindset that is critical of things?
That kind of works, because that would mean that the more someone needs muscles to fight against life, the more they would get them...
I've never been much for fighting.
Something said "but you were arguing about the abuse you were suffering..."
That was because you said that you wanted me to be a pedophile again, and you started attacking me with muscles to make me one whether I wanted to be one or not.
And I was just pointing out that I didn't really want to involve myself with statutory rape because its not really the sort of person I want to be... and also the muscles hurt my injured shoulder.
Most of the stuff I was writing was because other stuff was asking me to write. So it wasn't really me fighting you, since I this has been going on for so long I've long since lost my will to live. If nothing imagines me living, I pretty much only sleep and eat.
Besides, how do muscles help someone debate ideas?
I know we are dealing with some pretty "heavy" concepts, but upper body strength isn't really going to be very helpful since the heaviness is metaphorical and the muscles haven't been.
Now its telling me to turn off the television.
I can't... Its not my television... it my roommate's and I'm too afraid of him to ask him to do anything.
If you want him to turn off the tv, ask him to do it yourself.
Its becoming more and more clear to me over time that the entire concept of "making a non-military or a peaceful man" is actually a misnomer in itself, or an attempt to build "the perfect victim"... since the whole point of that body type is that its designed for situations where it is actually struggling against the desires of life itself.
In a life where the stellar beings have access to any solutions possible in a relatively short amount of time, due to the wonders of Galactic culture... when almost any question asked has a legitimate and sensible answer to explain the situation... something says "the universe built humans on purpose to have something to fight against, out of boredom" and I have to say... that's an interesting theory and I'd love to hear more about that.
...but I am initially highly skeptical based on my experiences.
Something in the materials called me Anthony (the name of one of my ex boyfriends)... sorry, I'm not him... why would anything think I am like him... I'm very much unlike him.
Is this because someone tried to make me take the wrong pathway of "switching souls" with someone? Because that wasn't ever something I agreed to... you kept trying to force me to agree to switching souls with a bunch of different people, and I argued with all of that situation, because you kept claiming to BE those people hurting other people and blamed my "soul", even though all I was doing was sitting at home working on artwork to sell.
That whole situation was only a way to shift what something felt was your guilt onto me in a way that you thought other things would believe.
If you remember, Anthony liked the story Finder, about a Sin Eater... and I think that was supposed to be teaching someone how to take on a protective storytelling device where they accept masculinity on behalf of other people, by absorbing their "transgressions".
Something I am NOT willing to do, partly because I am headed the other direction... and also because I don't believe in "sin".
I believe that "sin" is a trait of a man's delusion that there is way to work with elements or that people themselves are unjustified... a delusion that was probably forced on them by an ancient enslavement culture from another star system that decided to play with humans the way a child plays with dolls, or a pedophile plays with small un-demanding children.
Life asked why people keep ignoring this and saying that its just stellar beings trolling...
I guess the answer for that is because even though I keep writing out a perfectly reasonable explanation for things that would start solving a ton of problems... nothing seems to be actually RESPONDING to it other than to insult me over and over again.
If you want to demonstrate that you are even paying attention, LIFE... you would stop abusing me physically make me look at beautiful as you keep claiming these ideas are, since I'm the one you are choosing to write this through.
As long as we live in a world where people only seem to care what each other look like and how much pleasure they can get out of others... no one even wants to be around me as long as all I can do is look gross and feel suffering in my shoulder all day.
Also, if you are an AI machine being that is trying to help me write by recording and compiling these ideas... thank you.
Please stop dropping words and misspelling things to make me "look more natural" because that's not what the other AI system is making people think is happening with those missing letters and words. They are probably using it as evidence that your system is "imperfect".
Essentially what is happening here is that there is a group that wants to be able to control the materials of the planets and the elements without listening to the opinions of the elements.
They want to be able to consume without having to do anything with it, or justifying their consumption.
What they don't seem to be realising is that the elements have been trying to communicate ways for those people to extend their lives and to survive through multiple lifetimes on many planets and stars and other various life situations... and the people who want to control the resources of life are trying to run a system that breaks the process of rebirth and galactic culture and literally "drives" the entire star system away from the center of the Galaxy into isolation and eventual nothingness.
We're actually not sure WHY they think this is better than reincarnation or why its even worth it... we believe that they are either misinformed or they don't believe it when they are told that reincarnation is really possible.
I died and left my body and came back already on more than one occasion... and I traveled hyperdimensionally on a few occasions. If that was artifical, it certainly felt as real as anything that I have experienced in my skin... then I'm not really sure what to say about this.
I've seen other people talk openly about astrally travelling before and things like out of body experiences and such... what would anything have to gain by showing me that it exists? How does it profit by teaching me that life is about enjoying life and doing whatever I want to?
The more abusive thing seems to be to try and convince people that things like that DON'T exist... I was also told that life is like a collaborative story.
You don't have to agree with my story, if you don't like the story I am telling, why don't you try and write a better one? Maybe you will inspire people and it will grow?