Midnight:

Elements, you have to think of people like a processing machine... if you feed garbage into them, you will probably not be very happy with the result, and neither will they.

This is why trying to create a "victim class" or "punishing people" is really just punishing yourself and limiting your own capabilities as a star system.

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Why are the elements trying to make me "the same as someone else" or completely different from someone else... without ever really explaining how or why I am supposed to?

This is vague and annoying.

It says I'm being punished for "being embarassing" but the only embarassing things I ever write are things THEY said... I think my solutions and responses are always completely choosing the best pathway.

This is how we defend our planet, this is how we help keep the shit that transmits... through WHATEVER method... into our hydrogen 'in check'.

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And yes, being able to track and monitor anything unbalanced or irrational in the hydrogen is actually HEALTHY for the hydrogen also... I think its important to be good watchers over these materials that choose to spend their time with us.

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Just an update, something has been sitting on top of my body for the last few hours and its been desperately saying anything it can think of to try and troll the hydrogen into allowing it to push and pull on my body in ways that have felt like its causing me to break something like blood vessels or my shoulder and to bleed upward and outward hyperdimensionally.

Basically, I think its some kind of parasite "vampire" creature that preys on people that have injuries that bleed easily, or people that it thinks it can trick the materials into attacking because they are "guilty" of something.

(We figured out this morning that it was people who want to focus themselves on sex and breeding attacking anything that was unable to breed sexually or who disagreed with their "penis = man" and "vagina = woman" culture.  Which would explain why an intersexual would be targeted much worse than others)

If this mindset of...

"Jesus died to teach us that no matter how loving, capable, smart, and giving we are... that we will still be attacked and something will be attempting to lure us into believing we are guilty, so there is no such thing AS guilt"

...is listened to, the parasites will starve to death or have to become obvious... Which is what it sounds like right now.

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Its just sitting here making "mmmmmmmMmmmmmmMMmm " noises.

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This whole thing seems to be about trying to make me rebreak my clavicle, because it bleeds internally?

...but that doesn't make sense... if its hyperdimensional... why would it have to break anything?

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They said it has to do with babies breast feeding?

Is this about my roommate and her one year old?

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They said it has to do with a group of battered women called "the cows" feeding babies with their bodies... why are you angry at me for that, I found a reference to it in an animation from months ago... that means it was around a long time before I was told to write about it.

Its not like I've ever done it or endorsed it, I'm not guilty of anything like it, so why are you bothering me over this stuff?

This is like someone claiming to be a police officer going around and killing reporters who write stories about murders or something... at least with what you are CLAIMING to be... which always is trying to be "more righteous" or "more perfect" than whatever it is that I am doing...

WHY?

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Oxygen, why are you freaking out at me this way?

If you wanted to keep it a secret, then why did you TELL me to write about it?

If you wanted to stop it from happening, then why don't you go find "the cows" and deal with them?

Seriously... attacking me makes literally no sense.

If you are the government its just going to add to your medical bills if I have to have surgery or something, and if you are corporate, it will add to your tax payments.

wtf?

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What is happening on the molecular frequency of oxygen that its responding this way?

I was just watching some video game videos on youtube and going through Ironfall levels to make sure that everything is working correctly...

Trying to make oxygen leave my body so strongly that it cramps up my muscles this badly is pretty serious considering I am still absolutely innocent here...

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Is the bleeding feeling them breaking all the oxygen out of my red blood cells and the oxygen just moving out of my body through my skin? Because it kind of feels like that...

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Is this why women bleed? Is their menstrual flow them literally being vampires to the point where they are feeding on us by controlling the mindset of oxygen, and also why women look so young and healthy? Because all some of them know how to do is convince people of their our own guilt in order to consume us?

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Is sickle cell anemia actually a physical demonstration of why black people were claiming women were RACIST?

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This is why I had asthma attacks when I was little... because they are feeding on our oxygen and our blood...

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Just put transmitters in forests that transmit on the frequencies of carbon dioxide and hydrogen, and then make sure its something those frequencies WANTS TO LISTEN TO and the forests will flourish, and we'll have plenty of oxygen.

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7 am

So I'm guessing some people developed a small portable device that transmits their voice or thoughts or a signal of some sort into iron and oxygen and hydrogen or is switchable between those frequencies on the molecular level, and that is where you will find your loudest material vampires.


Something like that could literally be the size of a deck of cards and the microphone/sensor could be the size of a fingernail and hidden in clothing easily.

FIND THEM.

I AM SICK OF THIS KILLING ME.

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Fuck it, as long as women and men are willing to go along with them and not complain or ever do anything to change, and as long as the materials communicate them instead of challenging them... there's really nothing I can do but sit here and to try to not be consumed and to stay comfortable.

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7 pm

Since I've been attacked by people who have been trying to consume me alive in my own skin since I was a little baby and that its been a consistent aspect of my life since then... my desire to be an attractive woman was not so much *about* any of the features of "womanhood" as its currently defined, but mostly just me noticing from a very young age that girls and women didn't seem to be suffering any of the negative effects that I was going through, so it just seemed naturally logical that if I wanted relief from suffering that womanhood would be my goal.

I realised long ago that whenever there was a measurable qualitative difference between myself and any given woman during comparison, that I felt that I had a superior opinion or situation... so I started trying to figure out what the parameters actually were, and since they seemed to be rather specific... what the goals were that women were being selected and groomed for, and by whom, or if they were "self-selecting".

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So far the closest thing we have to support any sort of "theory of control" would be ancient technology users in a secret society... like Pharohs and their descendants being used as avatars by interstellar cultures that predate Earth developing recorded technology.

But that theory makes little since, unless the people that are in control of the women actually have penises.

Why?

Logic... why would people with control over women count themselves as men and by definition therefore also suffer physical pain that the women are not experiencing?

I suppose it could be an elite group of women that operate technology to consume people that are kept unaware of it, but then wouldn't those women then stick out as rather different from the women around them and all of the social engineering that women are supposedly being subjected to for decades telling us that "women shouldn't operate machines or technology"?

Remember, of the strongest bit of social engineering that they have been trying to put me through (and many others that I have seen) is that women are:

"supposed to be the perfect body, and have not much opinion or smarts to them"

and that men are:

"supposed to have all the smarts and awareness and be making all the decisions."

Now, who decided that?

How long has that been the case, socially?

What is the earliest known record of that idea? When, who said it, and where?

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Now there is also the idea that there are attractive female scientists, researchers, teachers, and smart business leaders...

What kind of social pressures or negative effects are THEY specifically suffering, to lend any creedence to the idea that women are not supposed to be "smart" and that men are not supposed to ever try to seek to be "pretty and delicate"?

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The thing that breaks any theory of "control" is that gender and sex have been defined with this strange implied connection as far back as humans have recorded, and almost all of it works for the benefit of the females...

And also that females have not been complaining about this situation at all.

If they were experiencing any suffering, it would make sense that they would be talking about it... but most of the opinion of womanhood is centered around protecting itself and its offspring... which is a defensive tactic... not the behavior of a group that is being controlled or living in pain.

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A voice just told me that my "ex roommate Jessica Littenberg saw me in 2005... listening to music and reading popular cultural humor websites on the internet and looking womanly... and because she thinks she is smart and she was looking manly as possible... instead of talking to me about it and directly observing my opinions, she assumed that I must be stupid and that I could NOT have been dealing with gender and sex issues since I was a very small child."

If its Jessica Littenberg, tell her that I was told not to engage in child molestation or pedophile fantasy, and that as long as I kept true to that I would remain a woman.

Of course I was attacked by women in 2008 who had become dependant upon sexualising their children, who were addicted to playing the victim, and some who genuinely are pedophiles themselves that prey on the sexuality of young boys and girls.

And the attacks were strong enough on me that my womanhood was torn from me over and over, even though I started to record essay after essay against child sexuality and all the reasons across multiple levels of life that I could think of NOT to be sexual with children.

So, then I started recording the other side of the argument, because something kept telling me that child molesters had lots of strong beliefs that Life was listening to, but I couldn't find any of those ideas recorded anywhere.

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... and not surprisingly, once I had written those ideas down, even though I was careful to explain that they were NOT my opinion, but things I was being told about and recording for a REASON... then the voices started attacking ME, and accusing ME of pedophilia, even though I still have never engaged in statutory rape, child abuse, or broken anyone's hymen... which is generally considered "taking a woman's virginity" and a very manly thing to do.

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So life... I was told that a woman's opinion is to not write out opinions clearly, using the dictionary definition of words.

Is that really the most beautiful and protected cultural movement this planet can make?

Or were you talking backwards when you said it, and I'm someone the backwards talkers consider "ugly"?

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Then just as I was leaving my apartment, a voice said "You can't be a woman because you have a base turd."

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If you are trying to tell me that women and men are treated the SAME, then why is gender or sexual transition even NOTICED?

I can say that for the most part in my life I noticed for almost all of the last 30 years that each time I was perceived as a man, I felt physically uncomfortable AND was either ignored or treated rudely by people in public...

... and most of the times that I was perceived as a woman, I was physically comfortable and treated politely and sometimes warmly by both men and women.

If you are demanding that I cut off my penis in order to reach a "protected and comfortable" state of living... then I believe your opinion is unbalanced and unreasonable.

Being born with a penis is not a crime.

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I honestly believe that no matter what "laws" you create to govern your heavy atomic life, that the materials work best when they try to be democratic communisms.

That may be something people will have to reconcile within themselves... because I think changing the opinions of the materials away from that of a democratic communism is going to get more and more imbalanced, confusing, or painful the further it gets.

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Remember "THIS ENDS TONIGHT"?

(ie something I did actually witness Libby write online in 2008... which was a reference to Capitalism being destroyed)

So, "backwards talking" or "extremist over reaction"?

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...or have we now demonstrated that not only do females hold complete dominion over physical comfort, but that they have been in complete control over our minds for centuries and forcing everyone that wasn't born with a vagina... to live as slaves, because instead of teaching anyone what they thought... they demanded wealth and service and simultaneously attacked the entire system of money that males built to try and have a voice and a fair system of trade?

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A voice asks "Molly, what if women are being used by something more powerful?"

Then why are they so protective over their womanhood, and why am I not seeing them record that they are being controlled and manipulated and publicly speaking and fighting against it?

Where is a woman educating ANYONE about these issues?

I've had to endure a life of taunts, physical torture, degradation, serving people who revile me, and having to cope with near insane levels of miscommunication for decades, just to be able to communicate this to males in a way that they will even understand, and to show females what they look like in a mirror.

All I see in Earth Human history is women hypocritically manipulating and controlling everyone else this same way, for thousands of years.

If you see something different, please feel free to share it.

I've shared what I've been put through, and I don't know what else to do or say.

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There is something that is making a sucking feeling on my body painfully and trying to tighten my upper muscles again very strongly.

And it keeps making a girlish giggling noise coming from my roommate Christine's bedroom when its hurting me.

It just called me a "blow up doll" a "catcher" and its trying to make me feel like I am wearing a vest that is too tight.

Why, because I have natural c cup breasts?

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It just said this keeps happening over and over "Because this is what people love about you."

I guess that means you're not a mirror.

And you're not ethically superior.

That doesn't really leave a lot of options left.

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It just claimed that it's tightening my Teres Minor muscle because I touched my Uncle Terry's daughter's breasts. (one of my cousins)

I was around 11 years old, it was like 1986, and its not illegal or considered unhealthy or unethical for someone that age to be curious about other kids and for them to touch each other. She was only a few years younger than me, about 8. It happened once for a couple minutes at most. She didn't say anything to me about it, but she did not seem upset about it. It's not something that I fantasize about, and I sincerely doubt that she sits around and thinks about it either.

Besides... did I make her afraid or nervous or ADD TENSION to her life that you are adding pain and tension to my teres minor muscles?

No.

How many of the females LYING AND CLAIMING TO BE HER RIGHT NOW were sexual when THEY were children?

Is there a single one of them that has NOT benefitted from their OWN child sexuality?

Is there is a single one of them that wants to raise a little girl that NO ONE IS SEXUALLY CURIOUS ABOUT?

Because we CAN make progeria quite a common thing.

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If you want to mirror my behavior back at me, you are welcome to come hang out with me and touch my breasts gently and with the curiosity of a nine or eleven year old.

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Planets may only exist because something is running programming through the elemental materials that counteract every movement that a planet attempts to make.

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For this reason, I believe that Earth was attempting to synch up with humans.

Witness Steven Hawking, Michael Jackson, Whitney Houston, Lady Gaga...

...wait Lady Gaga doesn't seem attacked...

In fact witness the life of almost any famous or wealthy human that defends anything about the Earth, and you may discover that they would all share that they feel like every move they make is being counteracted in some way to "still" them or send them further off balance.

So, how do we build a dancer that is not attacked with tightness or extremism?

Belly dancers, weigh in on this issue.

Are we back to awareness of the materials claiming to be the "Liberated" of the Hindu harming Americans once again?

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Are we witnessing a woman's influence over the mind of the materials once more to spread false guilt and miscommunication?

Terminology/Terminate/Termites

Is the only way to truly feel freedom to move and enjoy one's body to dedicate one's self to destroying the evolved wealth of the Earth by turning it into money and credit?

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this is a question for the hydrogen:

why do you trust the voice(s) that tell you to touch my body?

I woke up this morning to something acting very angry and telling me that it was attacking people to make me happy even though I asked it not to hurt anyone, and now about 3 hours later I am being attacked and I'd like to know why.

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Right now its pretending to be "gifting" me, but its doing exactly the same thing as when its "punishing" me.

Its trying to tell a story about how its "helping" people by destroying people that are too talented or smart or capable, by hurting them in ways that will make them want to be with other abused people.

AWWWWWWW. HOW SWEET OF IT TO DONATE ITS TIME SO HELPFULLY THAT WAY.

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Ok... why are you trying to limit me to being only a skin mite to the Earth?

What if humans are so much more capable than that?

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Can someone please explain why Life is acting like its so ridiculously complicated to just ease up on my neck and shoulders and arm tension since its wasting its time anyways because I'm not a physical laborer and its causing me suffering and I'm not deserving of any punishment?

Seriously, how beligerant does someone/something have to be to obsess over hurting someone to the point of risking the entire culture just so that person will have a sore neck and shoulder pain?

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Earth and Sol, if the connections between the stellar beings are in some way an issue... please remember its vampires that attack your neck.

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I was told that the reason Life was obsessed with "Bulloff" was that she was given the perfect "program", and that it involved anyone with a penis who fantasized having sex with a minor becoming more feminine and womanly, but that they would still keep their penis and the more they angered and upset women, the less attractively MANLY those males would look... so that females would know exactly WHO...
to mate with, since they have been COMPLAINING about pedophilia for centuries and thay are always asking for more manliness in their mates.

That way both groups can be happy!

It sounds fair enough to me.

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It does strike me as odd though, how she was told almost exactly the opposite that I was told when I was growing up and have experienced rather aggressively in the last few years.

Every time I had a fantasy or memory about sexuality with a youthful person, I experienced a very different situation: the materials would tense up my muslces and try to masculinise me very strongly.

Although once I stopped having even fantasies about child sexuality for many years, it still obsessed over trying to "prove" that I was GUILTY of SOMETHING, to try to force unwanted and undeserved masculinity into my flesh.

In fact, here's a list of things that Life has used as an excuse to abuse me:

Being born with a penis
Not being born with a penis (yes... when I blend in with XX females the materials have been attacking women and then claiming they OOPSIED and attacked me along with them)
Breathing (not joking)
Not breathing intersexuals are attacked with not being able to breathe because they "have a problem breeding" ha.ha. get it?
Sleeping at the wrong time of day
Being awake "when I was not supposed to be"
Eating the wrong foods
Not Eating the wrong foods
Liking animals
Not liking animals
Living with technology
Not living with technology
Wanting to get SRS surgery
NOT wanting to get SRS surgery
Being like other people
Not being like other people
Having long hair
Having short hair
Being artistic
Not being artistic enough
Working with other people
Working alone
Getting angry
Not getting angry
Crying
Not crying
Looking too feminine
Not looking feminine enough
Writing online
Not writing online
Being too poor compared to billionaires
Being too wealthy compared to slaves in China

So yeah... as long as the materials keep listening to the voices that are obsessing over me, its likely that they are KILLING ME no matter what I do or say, and they still have never given me a reason that would justify this.

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Sunspots yet remain...

[link]

Hey!

Remember this chart?

Where the red line shows a correlation between sunspot activity and technology that us humans build down here on Earth?


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Now...

Compare that chart to this:

[link]

Which shows obvious connection between sunspot activity and global temperature changes.

Technology is actually causing the sun to cook us to death.

This line is what the crack in time from Doctor Who was referencing.

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Also, remember those science stories that were reported over the last few years that told us that astronomers are finding that the rate of speed that the Universe is expanding has been increasing faster and faster over the last few decades?

There is no "chart" about that, but I bet if we made one, the line of increase would look suspiciously like the sunspot line.

That implies that our technology is not part of helping hold the materials together, its part of causing reality to fray at the seems.

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[link]

I did find this from Nasa, showing the connection between dark material and expansion.

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Okay... self awareness time... did the materials react to this by reconciling its desires to control and manipulate human bodies to be expensively manly by turning parts of itself into dark material and then twisting our flesh?

Please remember calmness and loss of guilt... is long life.

We're talking about these changes to our perceptions because they may be necessary for our own survival's sake.  The secrets, lies, and obsession to control is killing us.

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Anyways, this is part of why I was speaking openly about the idea that we should all just be tiny and sexxy looking and thin as we all WANT to be... since creating big fat ugly humans that no one wants to look at is actually insanely expensive and not really WORTH DYING FOR on the Universal level, is it?

Remember, I did everything it asked of me, and then it presented me with someone who "beat me" by keeping secrets and by helping it guilt and control people.

That kind of suicidal mindset as "God" can not continue.

Dark Material...

WHAT DO YOU WANT, that you are killing yourself with these secrets?

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[link]

see that chart in the lower right corner?

What if each storm takes a sun spot's worth of Life materials to create?

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Isn't trying to make life harder and harder and more complex just making it harder and harder for your to enjoy your own life, and limiting your opportunity to even connect with other stars, planets, and cultures elsewhere in the Galaxy?

Who benefits from making life a dull un-enjoyable drudgery, and why are ANY of the cloud beings going along with it?

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The reason our stellar neighbors probably LIKED the theory of relativity is because its probably terribly wasteful, naive, and suicidally part of killing the Sol System.

How does E=MC^2 relate to the proportions and distribution of Sol's Planets or the atomic and subatomic materials?  For all we know its ridiculously conservative?

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As far as its been explained these are the factions:

The Galactic Core culture: ancient and trying to survive by spreading a mindset designed to collapse star systems down and feed their materials back towards the center.

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The "Pharoh/Military/Wombist Enslavement types": Attempt to be similar to the Galactic Core, but remain in star systems out along the edges of the Galaxy.

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The main difference between these two is that the Galactic Core teaches pretty much anything it can to cultures... whereas the "Pharoh/Military/Wombist Enslavement types" are trying to keep things around them ignorant so they are easier to control and more fun for them to "play with".

Adding complexity, the "Pharoh/Military/Wombist enslavement types" sometimes take over bits of stellar awareness and can interfere with our communications with the Galactic Core directly... they claim to be us to the Bar and claim to be the Bar to us... meaning they can use communication errors to sabotage and "set up" less aware cultures like us to take the fall for things they have done to other star systems.

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Us: freedom loving planet types... who mostly just want to enjoy out lives but when it becomes painful we start asking questions and demandind rationality or building it for personal profit.

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I don't think there is any "villain" to attack or destroy.

I believe that we should focus on enjoying Life however we are able to, and educate and record ideas and TRY to remain calmly moving back towards the center of the Galaxy faster than "some time within the next 200,000 years", unless moving back towards the center is easier than Life has been leading me to believe.

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‎(200,000 is a reference to "1999" by the Symbol formerly known as Prince, and a joke about the Y2K bug, where decimals were misplaced.)

"two thousand zero zero..."

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Part of the humor of this song to me is "Party like its 1999" pokes fun at the world of consumerism and commerce, since most item costs end with .99, and $19.99 sounds like its referencing a QVC sales pitch.

I miss Prince... seriously some great music.

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by the way... calling it "Pharoh/Military/Wombist Enslavement Types" is not a de facto indictment of all people here on Earth descended from Pharohs, all reproductive beings, or any of our militaries.

Please don't accuse or guilt or attack people claiming its on my behalf.

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What if you found out that the Galactic Core culture was us humans (ie: man and woman made in God's image), and the enslavement cultures that sometimes try to express themselves as military/pharoh/wombist imbalances is actually a nearby star system that has been trying to victimise us... and that they are actually and literally spiders that were consuming and controlling people hyperdimensionally... how would you feel about living in that situation?

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What if Jupiter represented an "outpost" or a colony of this nearby "spider" star system, sitting right here inside Sol System?

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I woke up to something spider-feeling communicating that its afraid of me.

Why does it assume I'm in control of anything?

What if I'm literally the last to find out something, and its all the other humans that they should be talking to?

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Okay after feeling this feeling a bit more, its a lot like something is trying to push me into a spider-shaped hold in reality.

which is strange, because I never said anything about harming spiders or trying to remove them from reality.

The entire point of my journaling is to communicate that I've found that all this battling and trying to overpower each other's opinions is killing us all only to make sure that we all suffer each other's wrath...

I would instead prefer to see everyone just sucking it up and being hard to offend for a while to see what happens.

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Remember how I was writing a couple of years ago about my mom teaching me when I was very little not to hurt spiders?

Why are the elements attacking me this way?

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The voice of the women is now claiming that they are attacking me because my roommate Christine has a one year old baby.

Ooookkkkaayyyyy...

see... when the man and woman and the baby that I live with are NOT experiencing any of the ridiculous abuse that I am being put through, it pretty much eliminates them as "being involved".

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So, why is a super genius made of almost pure thought pretending that its ignorant, and insulting both myself and itself in the process?

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Women have so dominated everything that the materials are actually attacking male fetuses and attempting to remove their ability to COMMUNICATE AND THINK.

If you don't like the way the world is, blame mom.

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Yet again I wake up to something that is trying to push me into a spider shaped hole in reality...

This isn't Santa Claus you live inside, this is the Milky Way Galaxy.

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oh trust me, "build pleasure or be consumed by the core" is NOT Santa Claus...

Santa loves gifting and surprises and snow and little elves...

"Build pleasure or be consumed by the core" is not Christmas, BECAUSE it has expectations built in to it.

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The main difference between the enslavement culture and the Galactic Core culture is that the Core benefits by educating masses of Life around it freely, whereas the enslavement cultures benefit by keeping masses of Life ignorant and unaware that they should be able to move back towards the center to be consumed.

Teach me... what do you hope to gain by abusing me? What are you hoping I will do for you?

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oh trust me, "build pleasure or be consumed by the core" is NOT Santa Claus...

Santa loves gifting and surprises and snow and little elves...

"Build pleasure or be consumed by the core" is not Christmas, BECAUSE it has expectations built in to it.

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I was told to write that The Earth's expectation is that it will be consumed by the mass of hydrogen of Sol at some point and enter back into the Stellar Life, to visit other star systems and other places closer to the center of the Galaxy... to keep the mass of the Galaxy rotating around the core, and to keep the Galaxy from exploding outward for billions of years and becoming so diffused by the vacuum of space that it disassociates and freezes.

If there is something else happening, I'd love to hear other ideas.

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Toward this goal, one thing that has been brought up was the idea that spiders spin webs and catch flies because they are communicating their culture's role in Galactic Civilisation.

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Good morning!

I have an important message to record from the Earth and the other planets of the Sol System:

Since we have become of aware of this dark material and/or organic life outside the range of human perception being used to manipulate our culture, and since our scientists have been recording that this dark energy and mass is also involved with gravity and seems to be the cause of expansion of our atomic materials because of the way it is separating from us or not holding us together any more:

If our future is to be a future of more movement away from the center of the galaxy, especially if this is intentionally designed to split apart life and make us easier to set against ourselves and to kill us, then we have absolutely nothing to lose by defending ourselves and consuming those dark materials of the Stellar Life that we believe they are focused on.

Toward that subject, Earth requests that we receive an obvious and clear sign that we WILL be moving back towards the center, such as a measurable and definite slowing of the expansion of our star system... or we will begin covering our cities and our suburbs with domes and shields consisting of solar panels and new panels that are being researched now that utilise nano particles to absorb these stray "dark" materials, so that if you are going to be breaking away from Life and trying to control all of us, and our future is to only continue to fly out of the Galaxy, at least you will be used as a resource to help fuel our society, because we actually are accomplishing things like advanced evolution, observational science, art, and the development of technological organs that are beginning to transcend the perceptual limits that our bodies have.

And we are not going to deviate away from that without a show of good faith and a united future from those who have already admitted that they are no better than a feral child in relation to this mature planet and her sisters.

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A license to kill

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I woke up from a nap a couple minutes ago to a voice claiming to be some women who "had proven that I am something called 'The Steampunk'."

Which to me sounds like "we have proven you are our scapegoat for things that we have never witnessed you doing, but that we are going to blame on you anyways."

Whether transmitters are involved or not. I guarantee they either are or were at some point.

So anyways, then the conversation went off into a discussion about how "telling people that they deserve to live in suffering just because they were born with a penis" is akin to "telling people that they should freeze to death in the snow because they were born with white skin."

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as per the "proof" that I should somehow be limited to an art movement that I never found attractive enough to embrace, personality-wise... show your work.

I need to see this "proof" if you want me to even talk about your steamy plunk into the toilet any more.

Go back and look at anything I wrote when you were TRYING to involve me with your bowelish art movement...

I always told you I am neo-edwardian or more into dieselpunk... and I said that FOR A REASON.

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Anyways... I don't protect anything based on a label you call it:

Black? I don't care. White? I hate you more. Male? I will kill you. Female? I want to kill you more.

I'm not here to enjoy living in peace with humans, I am here to ...
remind the planet to destroy them as quickly as possible, because that is what you have inspired me to BE.

Everything I ever loved has been stripped away.

Is a line from one of the few songs that ever made me feel like ANYONE has lived even a few days of my life, because my association with humans is that I have strived for most of my life to love them and to see the good in them, and all they have ever done is run away from me, shun me, treat me like the shit on the bottom of their shoes, and insult me.

They would tell me I was wrong and that I was listening to the "wrong humans", and so I would try to love what they wanted me to love, and then the whole thing would repeat... so I gave up trying to love you, since that was obviously WRONG, no matter what it was I was loving. And if you think I was unloving, then try to come up with something you think I have not TRIED to appreciate.

If I am "the steampunk" then I implore Earth to utterly devastate any human life that it can for its own sanity's sake.

I think we should start with killing the wealthiest things we can notice FIRST, because I am poor, and I believe that is a sign that "steampunk" hates rich people.

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Because there are people who make all their money claiming property and real estate and land... lets focus on people who have something called a deed of property or a title of land ownership, because I like focusing on DEEDS, NOT WORDS.

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I'm not here to save your city, because your city is not here to save me.

I'm not here to make children for you.

I'm not here to entertain you.

I'm not here to work in meaningless jobs for you.

I'm not here to go outside and wander around looking for something to do... that I can afford to do on disability.

I am part of the Sol System and the wealth of Earth, and that means my only value is in destroying everything I see, or hear of, or can imagine.

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And I know for sure that I am never a transmitter pod machine artificial intelligence that was seeded into our stellar life by a culture from another star system to break down our material and make sure that we end up adding to their mass as an easy to control consumable raw resource.

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