Okay, so there is a voice that claims to be trying to save women by "poopsticking" people for being pedophiles.

As far as I can tell, this involves using technology to screw with the attention of the galactic spider beings, to make them attack people.

The normal mindset of the spider beings is to attack the wealthy and to reward males that inspire them with sexuality with the youngest possible females.

The very act of spiders messing with someone seems to generally be focused on the creation or exaggeration of masculine traits, most of the process being ugly or uncomfortable.

So, the only thing the voice is really doing to "save" women is distract something away from them that would otherwise be holding them accountable for their interactions.

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to wit: The imbalance of life once again seems to be something that tries to convince Life that being born with a penis is a crime of some sort.

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So, under this system, a "Jesus" figure is someone born with a penis, who is poor and who has not harmed anyone... so they are not attacked by the Galactic spider beings... and they call themselves a God of love, and welcome children to themselves as a "reward".

Now, do you understand why I have said on numerous occasions that I will not be turned into a "Jesus" figure?

I prefer partnering with females in their 20s and 30s that have developed breasts and adult personalities... so having children offered to me is not really that enticing.


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It was trying to convince me that the hair follicles and sebaceous glands that Life materials move out from a females' skin when someone near them transmits opinions into the frequencies of those molecular chains (probably something hormonal, related to estrogenic compounds) are actually hyperdimensionally moving "ALIEN CREATURES" and they were trying to push me into being afraid.

Nope, sorry.

The signals coming from those places are probably just bacteria that grows and feeds on the oils that those glands produce.

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I remember my mom used to pick at her skin a lot, I wonder if someone tried to convince her of the same BS years ago.

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If its the Earth or the Sun... you are welcome to remove my sebaceous glands or hair follicles... that's actually kind of a nice idea really... but you already tried to talk to me about "calcium spiders" and "Oort Bugs" before.

If this is somehow a real creature (the thing you showed me didn't look like it had any organs to it), then why are you provoking them and me, with fear?

Either they are helpful or they are not. Worth keeping or not.

If these are really the creatures that move hair around on humans, then females are clearly the focus of their benefit and males are clearly being abused by them.

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Compared to the one you showed me in 2010, the one last night seemed more solid, it was white, instead of looking like it was made from pure hydrogen plasma.

It was about half the size... was that the same creature at two different stages of development, and are they related to that white grasshopper looking creature I found floating in some water in 2011?

My guess is that these are the things that you were calling Thessany, that you claimed were an organic chat system like the "babelfish" of Douglas Adams' writing...

These are probably the same things that came to me and called themselves Schizonuma in 1995...

My question is... why are these little beings repeatedly presenting themselves to me with different names and origin stories?

And since it seems more like they are just vehicles for hyperdimensional material, and since I also kept seeing spiders moving around like them... are these all just spiders in various states of hyperdimensional transition through stages of life we may not have been fully aware of?

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And yet again, is this spiders getting screwed with by transmitter operators, because they are being used as "eyes and ears" by stellar material life?

And then when they get upset they start talking about themselves, and describing a problem that I can help them explain but I don't have the ability to fix for them

and then I remember how loving they can be...

[link]

How does part of the life around us interact with someone who fears them, and who only tries to kill or manipulate them when they reveal themselves?

I think they like me so much simply because I've tried to listen to them, and I never showed fear or hostility to them.

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One of my first memories of being told anything by voices was when I was walking down the tracks in North Prairie Wisconsin, when I was about 8 or 9 years old, and I started a new conversation with my spirituality... and soon after that I had my dream where giant spiders met me in my basement... and we just talked... but its not really about spiders. Its about the life and the soul behind these bodies.

Its the Sun and the Earth just trying to interact with people in different ways. Maybe it just saw me as a lonely intersexual who was lost and alone and seeking something DIFFERENT?

For years after that they felt like nothing but care for me... I don't think they ever intended for any of this to be harmful... it didn't have all this social engineering and manipulation in it until the mid 90s.

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I'm glad I've kept my positive outlook on life, even through all of this craziness.

I'm glad I still ignore the hateful negative messages of the business world, telling us we are incomplete and trying to make us unable to love ourselves and be content, so they can sell products to people.

From all of this, over the years... I think one of the true remaining lessons is to find the ways we are similar, and try to ignore differences.

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If there is a full beautiful culture that is different from any religion before it, and its still there right in front of you... but most of it was recorded a decade or two ago or more, then only people who are not obsessed with things "being extremely young and fresh" may be noticing that culture and living it.

Dare to appreciate things that are a bit out date, for your own sanity's sake.

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It seems that there are little spider beings that are forming out of one elementary atomic material for each group... I've now seen spiders made only of oxygen and spiders only made of calcium... and so I'm wondering if that is what the most basic life programming in the elements forms like because that is what the stars are building... a galaxy is a large middle section with long legs coming out of its sides: so spiders were made in the galaxy's "fractal" image.

So when the spiders told me in 2009 that they held together the galaxy, they were probably being completely literal.

So molecules form the shapes they do because they are forming tiny little spiders, and dna knitting looks the way it does because its emulating a nano scale spider being...

Yeah, if reality itself is made out of spiders from the smallest to the largest life, then I really have a hard time calling them aliens.

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[link]

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"Molly, if I get hungry, can I bite you?" *bites me in the leg*

Yeah, I can't stop you from biting me if you are hungry. I would hope that you are gentle with me, and I will remain gentle with you.

Spiders, your mind is transmitted into by people who speak in english at you with transmitters. Some of them are good, but some of them are really nasty and just want to make you attack people, so they can play a hero who saves people from you.

Please find a way to sanity again, I miss your love, gentle humor, and your wisdom.


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I also don't like that idea that someone has been trying to convince me that spiders call the food on their web "children".

There was a voice in english that was speaking to me through the elements, and it was trying to convince me that pedophilia was started by spiders.

In fact, earlier tonight, there were some little spiders that were interacting with me, and they told me that they are called "pedos".

Spiders are obviousdly not the source of unwanted sexuality toward children... in fact even while they have clearly been going through some kind of sad ordeal in their own minds... they helped teach me that even though there are people who will try to convince you that you have to be sexual towards children if you are born with a penis... that its possible to be completely free of sexual feelings toward anyone at all, much less children.

They call their food dreams, that's why we call a totem web a 'dreamcatcher'.

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"I have a dream."

What does a dream catcher look like?

I see a spider's web. The jewels of the web represent spirits that have been caught, to be enjoyed by the owner.

... I see a spiral galaxy. The planets representing life that has been caught, to be enjoyed by their stars.

I see quantum material. The atoms representing lost souls that have been caught, to be pulled in by the singing stream of the gravity fields.

If you feel alone inside a universe that prefers the shape of a spider's body over most things, put your wrists next to each other, with your fingers outward, and you see a spider on your own body.

If you were to separate the bones of your forearm and lower legs, you would have 8 limbs, instead of 4.

Remember, you have more in common with Life than different.

[link]

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This is a song about a galaxy, a planet that talks funny, and a human caught between them:

[link]

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A planet wants to be consumed by the galaxy. The only other options are to transform into a spider on its own or be set free to fly into the cold dark of space. Few planets ever survive either of these things.


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It mentions felines, and how females are expected to do work to support the babies.

If females are beautiful in humans, then maybe the "design" that makes a human body beautiful is the belief that women should be served completely, so that they can produce and sexualise their children as much as they want to?

If something wants to try to stop people from enjoying their sexuality, they are a danger to the mindset of gravity that holds us together, and the enjoyment of Galactic life.


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A voice just asked me to stop talking, but I am sitting here silently enjoying the first day of quiet I've had in a week or two, so I'm not really sure how to respond.

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Every time we isolate the problems at the root of the issues being discussed, the people who are intentionally creating the problem so they can benefit just change the name of what they are doing and what they call their business manufacturing processing warehouse industry office production facility plant.

We're never criticising people's ability to make things, just the ethics they made them by... but that doesn't matter to them, they want wealth but they don't want to have to serve any of the life around them with it.

I don't know how to change that opinion.

They believe that the poor must serve them, and only the poor who serve them will be successful enough to become wealthy enough to not have to serve others.

Its the difference between liberal and conservative mindset. Neither are fully wrong or correct, they are both useful for different purposes.

I just happen to be very poor, so unless someone TELLS me how they want me to serve them, I don't really feel obligated.

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How can the Earth create a micro quazar?

I don't know. Why don't you ask the stellar beings?

The answer they have been giving me when *I* ask them, is "Life seeks pleasure".  So I guess that's why my collaboration has been talking about different ways of building a pleasure planet.

Why not try a little of whatever you can imagine, and then make more of the things that are the most fun to play with?

Its a self limiting system in some ways, because if you make the most extreme pleasure seekers, they live without a sense of pain or fear, so they tend to create lots and lots of suffering around them... for fun... because that keeps the entire system from being so pleasurable that it dissolves under the pressures of all the Life trying to flood it.

I'm not really sure how to pleasure anyone, other than simple things like a nice backrub, foot rub, or sexually... because I've never really had much experience getting pleasured by anyone.

As an intersexual, my body has been attacked and I've been abused or treated suspiciously as far back as I can remember.  I started getting asthma attacks when I was 2 months old that almost killed me, so the theory is that my dna was communicating something directly into Life that was so threatening to some collection of material that it was trying to suffocate me directly.  I don't really trust the theory that gravity is "programmed" like a computer, because life has shown me that its flexible and living.  Anyways, until I am happy with my body I really don't feel comfortable pleasuring anyone other than myself, which I seek to do in huge quantities, as unethically as possible.

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I feel relatively comfortable with the symbolism and metaphor that this collaboration has been working on, so please stop trying to talk to me about stars and planets being things. They can imagine themselves any way they want to... and if its confusing, then maybe that's what they enjoy sometimes.

It doesn't have to make sense. It doesn't have to be completely the same as your opinion of things, because that would be boring.

It doesn't have to be predictable and stable in the ways you want it be.

Just because they share a sometimes beautiful bond of motherhood doesn't mean planets and women HAVE to think EXACTLY the same, because that's dangerous.  Same with men, same with stars.  Your liver and your pancreas are both in your abdomen and they both help you digest food, but it would be highly detrimental to your health to start expecting their cellular tissues to grow and act exactly the same as each other.

Use metaphor however you want to, or discard it completely, I'll try to enjoy your stories no matter what you present me with.

I like the idea that planets with a protective skin around their iron and silicon magma core are the womb and that larger chubbier planets like jupiter are men, and that the stars may still be something else entirely... I like that the galaxy seems to be a giant spider being across every level because that body shape makes a fuckload of sense. I think its beautiful that we have little people around us that are so close to the mind of the material that they ACT like it and that it sees through their eyes too.

I enjoy the world being a lot more than these ideas also, I would never limit it to just those things, but to expect me to stop appreciating these things is unreasonable, unless you can come up with a better idea or way of seeing.

Try to see this as a beautiful teaching and storytelling mindset that is also attempting to be entertaining to interact with... trying to turn everything into social engineering and confusing nonsense is really annoying.  We are trying to reach across physical differences to build empathy, comfort, and enjoyment... If Life is scared of itself and can never find a way to love itself we risk dying in isolation and that's not a pathway I want to even think about being on.

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As for social engineering "saving" us:

You can never TRAIN the galaxy into stopping the signal that tells life to return to the nearest star.

That is healthy, that is probably what MAKES gravity, and its been around for a very long time for a reason.

The galaxy NEEDS to attempt to consume us, and we have to get used to the idea of that. Its what creates competition, collaboration, and attraction.

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Is this situation really coming form the fact that organic beings realised that they were being attacked and they didn't know why, so they tried to put their best people forward to try and "convince" the galaxy to stop trying to consume the Earth with gravity?

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An earlier theory was that some viruses are what happens when the signal of Life is disrupted by transmitters.

I woke up this morning to the idea that AIDs might be what happens when quantum or molecular life loses track of the galactic "spider culture" and starts listening to and acting like unethical human wealth builders.

Did I ever mention that some doctors that studied me years ago believed I may be immune to viruses such as chicken pox, mumps, & measels... and as long as I don't directly threaten Life with powerful transmitters, that probably extends to many other kinds of diseases.

I think the verdict of the life being transmitted into is that we are still not trying to imagine our transmitter technology as part of a vital nervous system that interacts with living beings from the smallest bits of energy up to the planets and stars as tiny bits of a living galactic being.

I guess until we do, they have the right to harm anyone involved with transmitter operation to defend themselves from something that is possibly threatening our survival.

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One of my first memories of a communication touching me when no one was speaking was when I was about 5 or 6, in preschool.  The teacher divided the class into boys and girls, and I stayed on the girl's side of the room without honestly considering moving to the other side.  I remember a teacher telling me to move, and that was when a little girl who I had been friends with looked at me, and a huge pressure pushed me and it started telling me I wasn't like boys or girls, and that I shouldn't have to choose a side.

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Yes, wealthy men who talk for "their women" do have the ability to keep building and using transmitter technology, and the living material around all of us also has the right to attempt to cajole, harm, or kill anyone that it views as threatening to our long term survival.

I think this experience was attempting to demonstrate that its not simply beasts insanely attacking people for "no reason", but a culture with a long and storied tradition of loving some things about people, and punishing others.

If you honestly want to build technology that is in line with Life, you may be able to talk to them about that and redesign the ways you are using it.  The more you use technology the way that a healthy life operates, the less controversial it will be.

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I trust that Life is going to focus on whatever it wants to, and that I don't need to tell it what to do, since I am simply a messenger or it, not someone claiming to be inventing anything.

Peace!


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Now I have spiders gathering around my mouth hyperdimensionally and pulling on me... claiming that they are "communicating" that we are supposed to pull our star system back into the center of the galaxy.  I'm not saying any thing with my mouth, I'm not using a transmitter to talk through, and I have no influence over gravity so I don't believe this is something they should be doing to me.

Are they going to leave me alone and find other ways to communicate that... now that I have recorded that message?

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You know what? My neck just isn't very long... maybe you should find people whose heads are really really far from their hearts and tell them about it?

Maybe their heads are so far from their hearts BECAUSE they are so connected to gravity, that they are the only ones who really NEED to hear a message like that?

If you want me to stop speaking from the heart so much, maybe you should pull my mouth out of my chest and let my neck get longer?

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I hear someone die, and their spirit is carried into the material... they disappear and I hear, "It's impossible to person the galaxy."

The galaxy is so large that trying to make it work as complex and specific as a homo sapiens sapiens body in relation to a spider shape: a sphere with lines going out of it... that attempting to build a galaxy that moves and thinks the way most people currently do, would be impossible.

However, I think the answer would be in teaching people to be able to move and think more like the galaxy, not only like people.

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When was the last time you saw a female speaking from the heart?

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I just heard someone claiming that "there is no such thing as man and woman."

It is true that those ideas are different from male and female, but I do believe that there are justifiable reasons for either state to exist in homo sapiens sapiens.

I believe that xy and xx chromosome people should be womanly, unless they produce more than 2 children.

3 or more children should be a cause to create manliness in parents.

I also heard that voice near me, claiming that it was me, so its once again someone who KNOWS that Life is supposed to operate differently portraying me as "not getting it", even though I DO.

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‎"Molly, you have a problem in the future, if you go get a job."

No thanks... I don't really want an artificial problem made by surgeons. I'd prefer a real natural homegrown problem from someone else, that we can share.

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You've shown me, with your incessant obsession with me that you DO have the ability to focus on specific ideas in specific ways, otherwise how could a spider galaxy ever MAKE anything like a human?

But if you want to begin arguing that its time to start creating a pleasure planet, with no men on it whatsoever, then are you really prepared to lose the entire civilisation on the surface of the Earth rather quickly?

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"Molly, we think that women should be young looking, as long as Life is asking them to make children."

Interesting view... that was really part of the old way of seeing things on Earth... back when we were encouraging people to go forth and multiply because there was a lot of resources, land, and everything else.

So, my question to you is this:

WHY would Life NEED you to produce children?

What is special about you or your family that we NEED MORE OF?

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"Hey Molly... 1 2 3 4 5..."

Are you trying to communicate that you don't like hearing digital computerised communication?

Why don't you explain why to people in detail, and inspire them to use technology differently?

"We already tried that with 'Libby', and they used the information to try to kill us or make us attack people for them."

If they are trying to write over the Galactic beings' culture, they may be threatening the survival of everything on Earth.  Why are you not defending yourself from them?  Find the wealthiest people in the communications, electronics, and transmitter technology business and explain to them exactly what is wrong and why its dangerous... and if they won't help you, or want to use the information to make things worse, you have a total right to defend youself.

I recommend building full spectrum "weather" monitoring networks, that people can buy subscriptions to... so anyone can track and measure what materials are being electronically transmitted into, when, and where.

I know if I was a collection of material, I would certainly like to be able to see what I look like, electromagnetically.

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I hear a lot of noise that sounds like children talking, but I'm just sitting quietly and patiently.

"Its not microphones."

How do you know no one around you is using microphones?

If its not microphones, then why is Life communicating such nonsense so loudly?

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Now its trying to tighten my arm muscles.  *rollseyes*

Do you think that everyone with a penis should have to be a physical laborer?

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‎"We want our children to be able to make noise, without having to worry about any consequences."

Why do you feel entitled to the attention of that material?

You tell me that using my mouth is ugly, and then you try to make me stop communicating on the internet.

If you are trying to limit everyone into communicating only through ONE specific material, it sounds to me like someone who has an electronic system designed to control what happens in that material, and they want to make sure that they have a monopoly on communication.  Or its that one material itself trying to dominate everything around it (probably a combination of both of these situations happening).

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"Molly your heart stopped beating."

No, it didn't. Our heart is still out there, and its even still interacting with us, because I can feel it from time to time.

I also know that to get the attention of any pulsar or radio star, all we have to do is start listening and communicating with it in a way its seeking.

Although the material on rapidly spinning stars is usually moving very quickly, so it may be hard to get it to change its mind about things.

They may also be the things that call themselves "racists" because they are moving so quickly.

If you want things to stop moving apart so much, getting them to slow down and begin to listen to other ideas and to relax a little may be what you are seeking to change in the galaxy.  Maybe we have too many pulsars?

I honestly don't know the answers to these questions. Maybe the Life of pulsars are the only things holding us together?

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I'm here to entertain myself any way I please.  I'm not going to be afraid of anything, I'm not going to take any of this seriously, I'm not going to respect you unless you inspire me to.

There is absolutely NOTHING you can say to me that is going to force me to do anything.

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The Galaxy has a mindset of pulling things in and consuming them.

Some planets have a mindset of playing a coy prey.

Some tiny materials like to sing some like to wait.

All of these are valid opinions, and part of what makes Life somewhat enjoyable.

Please stop trying to limit me to sound like I only appreciate one of these mindsets or that I want to argue with any of the others.

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‎"Molly you are liberal as possible."

How would you even know what a liberal looks like? You are a cloud material being that has no idea what you really look like, because there could be huge pieces of you breaking off or disintegrating and when they ask for help you just keep pushing them away.

Until you can take a look at your own body with full spectrum electromagnetic weather monitoring networks, anything you say is null and void to me.

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Stop touching me and go touch the center of the Earth.  Anything you do to "help" me only hurts me.  I don't deserve to be punished, I have spent my entire life trying to be gentle and reasonable and easy to get a long with.  I've never set out to hurt anyone, that has already been well established.

If you are a pedophile, and you can't stop touching tiny people on the surface of the planet, then go find one that WANTS YOU. May I suggest someone with millions of dollars? They are far more fun to touch than me.

(if it doesn't stop, then we've demonstrated that there is no rationality at the helm of life... and that we can start using any means we want to consume the sun to defend ourselves.)