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Loop. 

Its long, but I think I've found some really fundamentally pursuasive ideas in here.

When you are done with this post, go back and read this next section again.


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Iron and carbon, stop trying to make heaven noise cancel itself, using bullshit meaningless polarised binaries...

Dark and light skin.
Man and woman.
Young and old.

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As long as there are unhappy people on this planet:

Land owners trying to freeze and kill everything for their personal benefit are the only things keeping us from getting back to the heaven of the celestial level...

The only subdivision of life we should notice is land ownership.

Does the sun demand land?

Because my body doesn't...

And iron is currently trying to push signals up my spine like a Rhodesian ridgeback again... And it hurts.

It just said its killing me because I'm ridiculous looking. (its a lie, I'm usually quite comfortable looking).

What if I think being a planet that kills everything and has no correct pathway that survives it, is ridiculous?

And what if I've been doing this argument against death long enough that its become obvious that there is NO ONE pretty enough to survive this planet?


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Iron just told me that it considers itself a perfect being, and that nothing survives it, because it knows immortality is attractive to life, and it believes in itself as a better center of gravity than the sun we orbit.

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Planet:

Humans are from the celestial level.

Humans will out survive YOU.

Humans should believe the sun is better than this planet.


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"You can't go from male to female without surgery and horemones. Vaginas and breasts can't happen naturally."

Really?

Where did your mother get hers from?

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I think China is hoping to murder, enslave, and oppress females so much that the land they live in starts turning some males into women.

Last count I heard was that the gendercide in china has murdered over 200 to 400 million females in the last decade.

I'd rather see womanhood and female sex go to America and other places that have offered up legal and social protection and equality to females.

And if you see female bodies as sexual only, and ideal for reproduction...

its because you KNOW that the soil intentionally keeps iron pressure away from young fertile females to keep your babies from being deformed.


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"How Young People Are Destroying Liberty

Younger Americans no longer want to own things. Instead, they crave access. They don’t know that liberty has always been tied to property."

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Okay... this is something I've not talked about, and needs to be addressed:

The idea that we can't pressure landowners as our culture's men, to take responsibility for their property... even though there is thousands of years evidence otherwise.

"Because owning something makes you take care of it"

Then why am I being pressured to answer questions from iron and carbon, as a non-landowner?

To explain to trees that they are starving because of burial, cremation, and the sewer system.

To explain to wild animals that I can't help them because I'm not allowed to by the building I live in.

To explain to children that they have to go through genital based puberty because our culture is trying to force everyone into cheap as possible labour to use the elements to work for them and create a false economy to increase the wealth of the wealthy.


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The soil is the patriarchy.

As soon as the soil stops killing females with menopause and animals with racism, the soil turns into plasma or light... and escapes.

So of course, anyone who rejects the patriarchy is going to be "full of shit".

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If the elements are DIFFERENT from the patriarchy enslaving and killing everything on the planet...

Then how does someone send the clear message, both visually and with righteous words, to everyone around that they reject participating in the greed and evils of the patriarchy...

...so the elements know to not enslave or kill that person?

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Right now, the only thing the patriarchy doesn't rape and kill with soil pressure is young females that haven't mated yet.

If the patriarchy won't allow anyone to BECOME a young female who is protected so she can mate healthily:

Then gender, age, sex, disease, and death...

...are all under the complete control of the patriarchy.

The same group that controls most land, religion, money, government, and business.

And that leaves me with no ability to influence my own life spiritually or physically.

My choices are meaningless, because I choose to reject the patriarchy for its greed and evil, and they refuse to allow me to explore that pathway.

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Hormone prescriptions and surgery cannot be the only path to reject the patriarchy, because that leaves the doctors of the patriarchy in control... as the gateway to rejecting the system they put in place.

Drag queens are not a rejection of the patriarchy, they mock womanhood. The patriarchy has a history of mocking womanhood while enslaving women that goes all the way back to Geisha (females were once only performed by males in asian theatre).

I don't believe its healthy to be attracted to manly bodies, and I'm very uncomfortable when soil pressures are trying to pull me into the patriarchy... so I can't identify as a gay man.

So, the question remains, if the elements are different from the patriarchy enslaving and killing everything...

How does one clearly signal to others that they seek independance from the history of death, oppression, and the pursuit of bleak hopelessness of the patriarchy?

That they prefer equality, and human rights?


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Continuing the idea from the previous post:

When being part of the patriarchy looks like a woman, myself and billions of other people will be much more accepting of the patriarchy...

if you are righteous and doing everything so great, then why is the soil crawling up your body and killing you with manhood, and females with menopause?

we clearly don't need more population growth, so why not make males the women for being such great servants of the soil, and let the soil turn the females into men?

Its not like ageless immortals NEED un-pressured womanly females to make more babies, right?

I'd prefer equality in america being protected...

However, if you're really a righteous patriarchy, then make being in the patriarchy the enjoyable gender...

Until then, I will continue rejecting it.

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If people made an "independence from the patriarchy" symbol to wear... you are aware that anyone who wore it would be beaten or murdered in some places, right?

Same as the U.S. flag...

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Now the soil is communicating me loudly...

If being a woman is being loud through the elements, that's fine... but I have one question for my fellow ladies of elemental mastery:

Why do we give ourselves menopause and get manly and die?


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My quest to find out if the elements are the patriarchy righteously raping and murdering, or if we need a clear way to signal that we are rejecting the patriarchy righteously...

It's not about hating on the patriarchy.

I'm sick of seeing the people that have done most of the work... look like shit.

I don't want to do work if it means I'm rewarded with death and disease.


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The major feeling I am getting today is that the patriarchy of the east is evil and oppressive and is what America did indeed declare independence from originally...

That thousands of years of the elements allowing taijitsu users to create an unchallenged Chinese "balance" where females are murdered and enslaved... has created extreme black and white gender and ethnicity that attempts to oppress or noise cancel anything that threatens the power of the Asian patriarchy... while remaining hidden.

And I'm sure that Chinese philosophers BELIEVED that they were doing good in the world, but it's easy to look back on it now, and witness their mistakes and misunderstandings and see how it had begun to corrupt them in the last few centuries...

And it simply hasn't yet occurred to the patriarchy of the west that most of their pain and misunderstanding would disappear if they followed through on our nation's declaration of independence.

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What supports this idea is that when this all began to get aggressive with me in 2008, I was renting my apartment from two Asian men, called H&N enterprises.


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Remember how something has been trying to force the "frito feet" proteus bacteria smell on dogs, instead of Chinese patriarchs?

Keep your eyes open for other associations to Asian patriarchy being forced into extreme black and white things outside Asia.

The word "charlie" and militaristic murder, as one example.

Especially if they contain references to men and sons.... like this fella Charlie Manson's name.


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Planet, if you pour my nervous system into a situation where it has to decide between the demands of other people's property, and my own dreams and comfort...

...my nervous system HAS to choose to destroy other people's property, or my digestive system fails, my immune system fails, and my mind and body become lost and will die.


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Females have a mindset that knows mouths are successful, elementally...

They know that all of their cells are waiting with open mouths, and they attempt to complain about mouths to males and animals, and try to reprogram their nervous system to close cellular mouths...

...thus tricking creatures around them into starving their own tissues, shutting down their digestive system, and promoting the growth of bacteria and other life that does not listen to the anti-mouth complaints.

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Conversely, if you teach your self to remain mouthy, I'm certain they will try to create an extreme mouth mindset to force on others... try not to let that happen.

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What would happen if the elements decided to "shut the mouth" of UV rays and melanin?

When melanin goes extreme, it concentrates in the lymph system and enflames lymph nodes that "coincidentally" are the exact same nodes that cause manliness.

"Shut yo mouth."

"I'm just talking about shaft."

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The elements just demonstrated to me that they are trying to conserve our culture of "meaningless" differences by trying to do to me whatever I believe should be done to anyone else.

So, when I started getting attacked in 2008 and 2009, with pressures accusing me of not being religious enough, claiming to be Jesus and Satan as a married black couple living upstairs from me...

Even though I was minding my own business and not thinking of requesting changes in anyone else...

How do you justify them attacking me and hurting my body in huge ways over the last decade, while any justice I attempt to seek is rejected?


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Menstruation and pregnancy pressure in iron has been annoying me and claiming that it will not allow anyone born with a penis to be a woman, or go back to being female again...

And the reason it gave was "because womanhood means someone is safe to be around children and will not sexualize them into puberty."

So iron is trying to convince carbon that gendering based on sex organs only is valid... because everything with a vagina is automatically considered safe around children, and that everything with a penis should be pressured inward with females communicating loudly through carbon.

This is of coarse ignoring that its females that complain about the patriarchy being possessive, but have never stood up to fight back an defend themselves from the patriarchy...

...while simultaneously demanding that little boys grow up to participate in the patriarchy and work to support a female and her children... while offering no valid way for those little boys to reject being part of the patriarchy.

This also means that females choose big strong and muscular males because they know those are the ones that are not safe around children, like the women are.

This is also ignoring the idea that if females are really the only ones who can be trusted with children, then they just made the best case yet to heal penises back into vaginas and turn all the males into females again (all fetuses start out female, so we were ALL females once, before we were born).


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Someone was talking about the idea that the declaration of independence is a rejection of the patriarchy ENOUGH, and that males in this culture should be able to have physical equality with females, for building a culture of social equality...

And this was the response:

The carbon and iron are explaining to someone that when they attack other people and switch the voices around, to make the victim sound like the attacker:

when the punishment hits, it goes to the victim, and solidifies them into the soil... and the attacker gets rewarded and more free from soil pressure.

So its holding innocent people hostage with the "everything you say will only hurt you" scenario.

I think that means they were trying to accuse the declaration of independence to be a lie, and that our founding fathers were simply writing down the "righteous Chinese patriarchy's" independence from... yeah that makes no sense, even sarcastically.

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Then it attacked my gall bladder by trying to run my intestines backwards, and called me racist.

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It told me that it was actually the founding fathers declaring themselves liberated Hindu.

Liberated from?

Also, the reason Hindu people would be experiencing pressure from me, is because I find their idea that males are subjected to "chakra" pressures going counter to the healthy flow of iron through their blood stream to be sexist.

I want to know if the element if iron will tell me how to signal to others that I believe backwards chakras are wrong for me.


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Iron, why are you working so hard to keep me from standing with normal posture?

It feels like its squishing my legs and making my torso longer since I moved back to Wisconsin.

Light can build or unbuild anything at will... why are you eating everyone's time trying to make people unhappy?

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Carbon just said " because you are not a Horton."

That is a reference to the family I lived underneath in the u district. They ran a scavenging business called Horton Hauling.

Carbon, why are you bothering me with that name?

Are you pressuring them with carbon monoxide because they lived under a major bridge, and you are allowing them to rape my body for some reason?

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It's telling me that they represent perfect yin feminine mystery, because they obey the orders of chinese taijitsu, and that I must be crushed and murdered because I am different from them.

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Now its discussing how taijitsu never seems to allow for anything yang to become more yin... And yet the sun shines.

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Do you believe that the mass of the galaxy is bound together by a quest for decay and decomposing?

I'd you think the word death means something that gathers mass to it for longevity... maybe you should communicate that.


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Iron tried to convince me that its making me ill and harassing me with a 7 year stream of trollish nonsense and false accusations...

"Because you witnessed a seagull call out jealously at another seagull you were giving food to in a parking lot a couple moths ago, and it sounded like it was calling seagull #2 a whore for wanting human food."

This is what this area claims it is destroying my health for...

Im starting to think the elements are fucking stupid or are trying to play a villain at this point.

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After I wrote this, the voice stopped and the pressure went away...

And then the thought came that it was trying to be obnoxious to give me a good bowel movement.

But this area won't LET me fight off that obnoxious voice no matter how hard I try... And no matter how much I agree that its wrong.

It's like the area I live in is trying to soak it up and won't push it out...

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What if the iron of this area decided to be a very comfortable racist lady and decided to not be about me any more?

If the iron communicates only stuff that racist ladies think like, and stopped trying to be loud gross males making it easy for racist lady nervous systems to operate digestive systems, that would be interesting.

Especially when males realized how carbon pressures work... And their beards started talking like racist ladies.

I also think it would be interesting, because it would cause a huge amount of people realize that racism is justified by those who try to give it meaning... And that human tissues depend upon racism, and that without racism we have nothing to eat, because even plants and trees use competitive racism to grow, and are a different race from us.

And our culture acts like its ok to eat cows and chickens simply because they are a different race from us.

And that's racist, by definition.

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Iron, are you SURE you're not supposed to be deed based deeds, plot based plots, possession based possession, and channeling the voices and opinions of Perl who think the land value is supposed to be raising exponentially... at the cost of human lives?

Because then anyone who agreed with those ideas would find their bodies unable to isolate the voice of iron our of their digestive system, and their intestines would shut down.


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What if iron decided it was a good mommy, and that we should be raising children to be sexual and to want to be mommies?

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The main issue I have with this area, is that its trying to make me loud and claiming that I'm important to it...

Essentially attempting to use my body as a gravity well.

But instead of rejecting negative opinions about me, real our imagined... its eating them up, and trying to force them on me.

For example, I only masturbate once or twice a month and generally ignore sexuality.

...but there has been a voice that has been complaining loudly through the elements that people who live in this apartment building have sex... or masturbate.

And when they do... carbon has been yelling my birth name at me and acting like its ME being too sexual.

Instead of trying to defend its gravity well, ignoring or swallowing anyone who disagrees with my decision to protect children of God from sex... And to count myself as a child of god since I don't have children if my own...

...its trying to noise cancel me, silence me, and ultimately kill me for things I'm not even doing.

So how do I resolve elements trying to create a victim to funnel abuse into?

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Why is this area so against a culture trying to build a common sense group that survives the planet, by living at peace with it?

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Someone just made the point that this is a clear case where taijitsu is being used to create Yang inferiority.

Yin is trying to make a large mass of material identify with an individual, and then attempting to destroy that individual to take advantage of the effect that has on the large mass.

Instead of a mass shepherd, its a mass puppet.

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now the iron is complaining that my hair is communicating parasites...

Hair is mostly composed of carbon, and where a large majority of carbon is, on the human body. If you notice your hair, you are noticing something involving carbon.

Which is interesting considering females should be the only group communicating through both carbon and iron right now...

East v west females?

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I think a LOT of this is based on females making distractions and evasions...

Because of being afraid of males finding out that manhood is a victim state, unless males are allowed a way out of manhood...

And since our culture doesn't seem to offer little boys an escape from the patriarchy, maleness, or manhood...

Any claim that gender or sex is righteous, is false.

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Just a reminder... blacks and females are the only people that have ever approached me in public when I was communicating through the elements... And told me that they could hear me, and responded to what I was talking about.

That's something I haven't written much about... but there are many examples of it in my experience.

Usually its overwhelmingly been black females, and the only time its been black males is when that male is either queer or an avowed "defender of females".

Btw, I consider a male whose nervous system that puts the health and comfort of females before his own...

To be a zombie. His life has literally been taken over by someone else's brain.

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If it was considered normal for females to treat males the same way, then I wouldn't be noticing it and bothered by it...

But I've never met a female that our my comfort and health before her own, and I've seen tons and tons of males that practically kill themselves to do that for females.


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Why are you interrupting my nervous system, if you don't want to hear my opinions?

"Remember that pressuring females makes them have devolved and dehumanized babies? Animals are less evolved than humans because they are cultures where they cared about the opinions of the males"

I doubt that.

Dehumanization is from the elements pressuring someone and their lack of a self-defending response that is able to persuade the pressure to accept that person.

If inward pressure on females causes deformed babies, then those females are simply incapable of defending their own innocence, comfort, or reproduction.

I think what you are really noticing is that some of the elements that build our bodies are frustrated with this planet...

And all of this taijitsu style deception and mass puppeteering is to keep the elements from really exposing females to the universe's opinion of how un-evolved and ugly we are.

Because then our culture would have to justify itself to the materials we live inside and that we depend on.

Evidence to support that theory its in the fact that the pressures that keep trying to make me write for them were doing it because something told them that I was influential, because they could hear my voice loudly through the elements...

whether it's trees or animals or the environment itself...

But it's figured out that I'm not influential in human culture, because it wasn't me that it was hearing most of the time... it was someone lying and trying to set up a victim gravity well... sort of similar to how people keep livestock... but for spiritual punishment.

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Now carbon is inward pushing on me, and trying to dehumanize me, and it said "now you are a real boy."

Okay, so is the patriarchy murdering and enslaving righteously, and therefore should not be inward pressured with the annoying communications of animals and children and engine exhausts of carbon...

Or are you going to inform me on how I can righteously signal to the people around me that I seek equality for the sexes and reject the death and oppression of the Chinese patriarchy?

Because I can't help but notice that right after I was told I was wrong about building heaven, Chinese female enslavement began winning here in America.


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Theory:

Females bloat the upper bodies of males by forcing signals on them from someone who either has no legs, is in a wheelchair and doesn't use their legs, or someone who is nerve damaged and their legs don't work.

Here in this building are a number of people in wheelchairs, and the feeling of having my upper body bloated has been very noticeable, especially since I felt the opposite effect in Seattle.

Do we have any fictional records and examples of powerful psychics in a wheelchair?

Professor X.

And remember when I started to realize that my storytelling in Seattle was hearing the mind of Steven Hawking, famous wheelchair bound writer?

And the guy who had lived in the apartment under the Horton Hauling family before Harvey and I, was a quadriplegic with tiny legs and arms, that I knew from working at the grocery store.

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Star trek began with taking away the ship's command... of a man in a wheelchair.

Davros from Doctor Who is probably a reference to this effect, he "created" the daleks (doll-likes).


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So what are our goals, as a planet?

Are we educating the population how to be peaceful and fun and make life more enjoyable for the ecosystem and evolving animals forward?

Learning how to grow out of sexism and racism and money?

Is anyone working on teaching famous sick people how to overcome their mistakes?

I'd love to see Steven Hawking and Michael j Fox get better.

Just some examples...

My personal motto is "build heaven or be consumed by those who have already".

I shouldn't have to explain to people how to build heaven, you all know that when you're having an enjoyable experience, and there's nothing complaining about it, that's heaven.

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"But I thought you were into racist competition?"

The point of racism is to evolve beings to inhabit various ecosystems.

Most of the modern world is only a couple of different ecosystems... And having different "races" inhabiting the exact same ecosystem had only served to make life needlessly complex, to confuse and subdivide humans, to take advantage of false economies, and NOT to encourage friendly competition or make life more enjoyable.

I like the fact that there are other races around, like fish and birds and stuff... And no one has explained to me why we shouldn't help improve the life quality of races evolved for ecosystems we don't live in.

Unless different traits are planning on inhabiting different ecosystems, or eliminating the less functional difference, traits such as light and dark skin should see themselves as one race and work together.

I want to have a culture where I can go out and do things, participate in life like everyone... And not be worried that if anyone sees me doing anything they disapprove of, that it will crush my body in iron and carbon and I'll be in pain and have to waste the next week playing "guess what stupid reason I'm crushing you, but not communicating honestly about"

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Something said "the goal is love."

Then we're going to need an agreed upon definition of love.

Where is love located?

Are you trying to make love come to you, send your self to love, or to replicate love as accurately as possible in a new location?

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Seemingly unrelated to this topic... it feels like iron and carbon pressure are trying to turn my head into female reproductive organs, and it's making me very uncomfortable.

It just said "that's what a dog's head is like."

Then it said "you are inside males that think you are a female that only thinks with your vagina"

Where is the evidence to support that opinion?

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I heard someone realize that I'm a bad person to choose to noise cancel... since I'm also someone who inspired some ofs the elements to share their best answers for every problem with me.

So as each best answer is cancelled, it is replaced by an inferior idea, and then all I have to do is go back to talking about building heaven...

And once they completely destroy any awareness of building heaven, building a nightmarish hell where death and suffering rules all is the only way to change life.

And so the elements give up and we begin to freeze... since many of the elements are unhappy here, and realizing that they can't improve life.

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Anyways, I can't give up on the idea of heaven, because no matter how much or how little the elements around me agree with me, I consider heaven to be "attempting to put life together the best we can", and that's what keeps my nervous system and my cells working...

...even while outside pressures from carbon or iron try to interrupt me sometimes and convince my body's tissues to serve something other than my own survival or comfort... without trying to inspire me or explain how my efforts can improve life.

Instead its been more likely that iron and carbon was interrupting me and simply saying I was wrong about something...

And what was partly annoying about that, was that I've spent my life trying to minimize my negative impact on others, and I try to help when I can, feeding and housing wild animals when I can afford to...

And the only complaint I ever heard about helping the wild is that "females think wild animals are the source of rape and murder and anger".

If they really believed that, why wouldn't they do everything they could to help stabilize the lives of wild animals and make them more comfortable like a 1 st world nation?


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theory: America is so just, that anyone we notice that isn't pretty... must be a source of wrongness.
I'm glad I was able to skip writing here in September.  I don't relish having to do this journal, since I generally only write when the elements are raping me with pressure in some way, or attempting to drive my nervous system into extremism.

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so, I wrote this down in my journals in August, and it still seems to be holding together, as a discussion:

"Are we evolving our livestock out of their captivity in our food system machines, or are we evolving racist predators, because an unrelenting voice in the elements keeps telling me that "having cellular tissues is a product of discriminatory competition"?

If sexists and people of different skin colors consider themselves to ultimately be "different races" from whatever we are...

Isn't our path in life to ultimately turn them into livestock and own them, or eliminate them?

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Or is everything we do wrong, because nothing survives the greed of this soil... and so being this planet is ultimately wrong?

And the only way to be more stellar is to share and gather, like light?"


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A good way to continue our discussion of "ethnicity", which is really attempted cannibalism... And gender, which has been a relatively successful form of non-fatal cannibalism...

Is to consider that some elements seem to be standing up for something... goals, ideals, art... And that it has created human bodies that transcend the noise of this planet and allow us to stand up.

But there are elements and frequencies of communication (uv rays for example) around us and inside us that do not stand up anything consistent, or that actually oppose the ideals that allowed us to stand up in the first place and survive.

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I like the idea of considering evolution the search for ways to inspire WAYward elements to believe in life and to stand with us for inspiring futures and enjoyable nows.


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This is what I think something wants me to write:

It may be that uv rays stands for plants and trees turning carbon into oxygen and growing ecosystems on the planet, and so people with dark skin may have to come to grips with what it means that uv rays seems to have claimed their skin and that it may not be compatible with a fully evolved human form.

If this is correct, it will become necessary for our ecosystems' survival to challenge people with uv Ray absorbing skin to stand up for some thing, to inspire those materials to choose their culture over the future of our planet's plantlife?


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Someone keeps trying to make the case that flies are valuable to the planet because they eat poo, and that is how the planet's elements are trying to get back into the stellar level.

The planet isn't made out of poo, it's a giant rock of silicon with a high temperature core of (most likely) hydrogen and iron.

When was the last time you saw a fly gnawing on the ground itself?

Not only is that ignorant of how much silicon there is on the earth's crust, but also how little too none of it would enter the stellar level, even if humans started eating poo also.

Sorry WHOEVER... when I challenged uv rays to explain what it stands for, and it told me that its trees and plants claiming some humans for destroying ecosystems in Africa and the middle east, I didn't ask you to try and convince people that the planet wants poo eating as a future evolution.

There is no reason why anything would stand up for soil eating the way flies do... tress and plants absorb soil, they don't vomit upward and dissolve it the way flies do, right?

Which is exactly like having someone's chakras ran backwards from how the iron moves through our bodies... resulting in digestive problems like sickle cell anemia, bloated tummies, acid reflux, and toxoplasmosis attempting to consume someone's brain.

When the soil finds the right mindset, the soil will disappear, so the planet doesn't have to live in fear of being left behind. And I doubt we're near that point, since I believe we have other goals to accomplish.

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So far today, I've been noticing sulfur is trolling at me a little, and claiming that it's performing the verb, "libie". If you remember, the word libie is "isolation" in Mandarin.

Id love to know why other elements such as oxygen or nitrogen are trying to follow insanely communicating sulfur that claims to be Chinese and obsessed with running my digestive system backwards...

If you also remember, I used to live underneath a black family that had named their little girl "Liu", which sounds a lot like the Mandarin word for "sulfur".

This was at the same time that life also decided there should be an insane homeless black man named Stanley living in a dirt hole under the I 5 bridge, next to my apartment, and that he should be obsessed with consuming carbon monoxide.

What does sulfur stand up for?

What element believes in standing up for assaulting Americans with Chinese "libie"?

And why, on both accounts?

Finally, has the Stanley / carbon monoxide issue been dealt with yet, and what does carbon monoxide stand for?

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Have to note that the uv rays, ecosystem plant life relationship, and melanin issue still has not been resolved in a pleasing way.

Would prefer if we stayed on that topic for a little while.


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First, this isn't about love or hate for me.

This is about taking on a tough subject that cuts through noise and taboo, and addresses some fundamental things about being an organic lifeform on a planet's surface.

I'm not trying to pick fights, this is about education for my part, because something picked a fight with me, and I don't plan on losing.

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If you refuse to discriminate, then what do you need a brain for?

I believe that eating animals simply because they are a different race...

IS racism.

And so I am challenging melanin to explain what it stands up for...

...because there is a lot of evidence that melanin is tied to unethical menopause, poorly administered gender based on sex organs, and racism that tries to pressure and harm white people (aka people that are not having their skin claimed by plants and trees... aka people that have actually built successful societies and who invented most of the valuable tools and ideas of the modern world, strong evidence for yang superiority).

Uv rays tried to convince me that a peaceful and charming vegan artist, is a good representation of black people on this planet... And that his life is what the average black person is like.

I would say he is not only a rare human of any ethnicity, he doesn't look like he's very welcome in the elements, he looks to me more like someone that is being pressured and silenced by the pressure... and like the elements are NOT standing up for him, nor allowing him to be fully evolved.

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What I want people too realize, it's that you can't gain anything by pretending that there are no functional differences between different evolutionary traits that are all based on function.

If you stop being racist, you will lose your righteous ability to consume something... And enter a path way that leads to de-evolution and returning to a cloud of undifferentiated mass.

The best way to deal with this realisation, is to make your racism mean something.

Inspire the elements to stand up for your race, by basing the idea of what your race is... on goals and ethics.

I eat birds because their evolutionary path stood for running away instead of facing this planet down and teaching it.

I eat bovine because they didn't embrace racism enough to learn how to consume meat.

Get it?

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That's why skin color seeming to BE headed down a different evolutionary path from Caucasians... both in appearance and in function... bothers me.

I see the steadfastness of skin color to serve sex and mating... to be a threat and an attempt at cannibalizing Caucasians, which is a very meaningful attack on immortality if you follow Yang Superiority.

The search for longevity and survival for the mass of the universe we live in and are being created by.


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I just awoke... and right now, the topic sounds like its about:

Should black people that attempt to use their wealth of melanin to influence uv rays and take over the lives of other people suffer and die:

1. for operating an oppressive patriarchal rape culture for thousands of years.

2. murdering millions of females with unethical menopause, while claiming to be the very animals and plants of the ecosystem that black males were engaged in destroying.

3. ruining the lives of billions of potentially immortal children of God with forced puberty and putting pregnancy as the path of least resistance.

4. For putting skin color before the health of the ecosystem, and killing everything in their environment, leading to deserts in Africa and the middle east, and forcing innocent white people into having to fit in with a desert culture for longevity.

5. For using their influence over uv rays to lie and claim that they are the voice of God, Mohammad, the planet, etc.

6. For hurting white people for engaging in basic, self-preserving racism, while lying and claiming that black people are not racist.

7. For taking advantage of skin color to demand that white people work very hard and share their efforts to create a government that allows black people to live on welfare and food stamps, where they can get free food and housing simply for making more black babies.

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not sure what that has to do with taijitsu trying to force yin and yang to balance or into extremism, thereby causing the white teardrop of limited life to explode...


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It's trying to challenge Yang superiority.

So, Yin... what do you stand up for?

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If this planet's soil believes in Yang Superiority, then why is it trying to be different from the sun?

The sun is giving, this soil is not.

The sun is light, this soil is heavy and dark, complex and full of neutrons.

The planet serves nothing but itself. Does this planet think it's the center of gravity in this star system?

Does the sun allow this star system to explode more, whenever it serves the needs of this planet over the desires of all of the other planets and the sun?

Are we evolving our livestock out of their captivity in our food system machines, or are we evolving racist predators, because an unrelenting voice in the elements keeps telling me that "having cellular tissues is a product of discriminatory competition"?


If sexists and people of different skin colors consider themselves to ultimately be "different races" from whatever we are...

Isn't our path in life to ultimately turn them into livestock and own them, or eliminate them?

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Or is everything we do wrong, because nothing survives the greed of this soil... and so being this planet is ultimately wrong?


And the only way to be more stellar is to share and gather, like light?



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Real.


"Create the most awesome looking stuff we can make, and then have the characters insult the hell out it. It suggests they are spoiled by the awareness of even better."

This is one of the mindsets of the original trilogy that seems to have gotten lost by the middle of Empire Strikes Back, and when the prequels came around, it became "okay here is the sleek and new stuff that everyone is spoilled by". Making myths and entertaining stories is important for our society... storytelling and film making is really one of the unspoken strengths of our culture.

I think the prequels were attempting a greater feat, that of trying to show the imprressive stuff, rather than only hint at it... and to some people they failed because allowing the audience to fill in the details with their own imagination is safer in some ways... such is the "coolness" of Boba Fett or the might of the Empire. We never actually see the Empire's fleet in a full out battle until Return of the Jedi, and by then our attention is on the more subtle things happening... the shield issue, Luke confronting the Emperor... the rebel fleet battling vs the Empire's navy is a background detail. Because wars are great equalizers and we are seeing the story of the special things going on that influence that battle one way or the other... the fall of the physical technology protecting the Death Star II, and the battle of "The Last Jedi" vs the aging Sith Master and his apprentice that called himself The Master to HIS original master two films ago.

The unspoken thing here is that we see the rebel fleet escaping and running time after time, from the appearance of The Empire's Star Destroyers... the Rebels actions never once assume that they can do anything but run and hide, and that instills the films with unspoken drama. And when Luke shows some self confidence in Empire, Vader hands him his own hand and then deals him the mental shock that Obiwan and Yoda should have prepared him for, but didn't. This suggests that The Force they channel is actually AGAINST Luke. Its setting him up to fail in some huge ways. Its almost like its saying "You took out the Death Star like I wanted you to, now I'm done with you... and if you keep pushing this Jedi thing, I'm going to put you through a living hell just for my own amusement." And so it seems to.

The unspoken reason everyone thinks of Darth Vader as a bad ass villain, is becausse all of the hints in his storyline suggest that even though he is not very respected by the Empire's Naval officers.... and even though The Emperor claims greater power than him as a Sith... the film is following Darth Vader because HE is the thing we should be paying attention to.

HE is the real threat here worth watching. He is the apprentice that calls himself a Master behind his Master's back. He offers Luke a chance to join him and take over the Galaxy with him... an offer that doesn't quite sound like he's asking his son to join the Imperial navy... and then we have the quote from Lucas himself in the early 90s that "The stories of Star Wars is the story of the life of Darth Vader". And no one seemed to argue. The unspoken disappointment about the prequels was the way Anakin was portrayed. He seemed too flippant and happy as a child to be from a slave family on a desert world. and there is simply not much else about him to see.

We see him trying to impress Obiwan, and getting angry at the Jedi Code that forbids love... and his weird relationship that should have seemed more passionate and dirty and spontaneous than it did with Padme... they should have shown Anakin as a repsected young warrior. This is the man who grows up to be the right hand man of The Emperor. He should have scared the crap out of Obiwan most of the time with his fury and ability to kill. That also sets him up as something exciting and protective and uniquely powerful for Padme to notice and fall for. I personally think Padme should have been a more interesting character... show HER dark side by seducing Anakin. It plays against his assumption about her being a space angel... "See Anakin, I told you I'm no angel" becomes a memorable quote and a turning point for the characters. Instead, the prequels offered these epic galaxy shaping characters and their emotions are played like 6 year olds in puppy love. Its so jarring it makes the audience uncomfortable.

So what is the ultimate unspoken story of Star Wars?

I've already written in depth that I believe we are seeing the story of the Force being manipulated by technology and starting to wake up to that reality. The Force shows itself as a hyperdimensional presense over and over, and then we have ships using hyperdrive and light sabres that I believe are not "physics breaking" if they are understood to be anchor points for hyperdimensional pressures / materials. And then I wrote one step further by suggesting the technology that creates hyperdrives actually influences the force itself... filling it with data and strands of information that it may not be fully aware of or understand... and that the Techno Union Army that controls this techology is using the Force like a puppet to play the Empire's government and any corporate competition for idiots... they literally manipulated the Sith into power because they are the ones who are most addicted to giving in to the darker whims of the Force. The Perfect Puppets!

But is there any evidence of this in the films?

YES. "The chosen one to bring balance back to the force" outright states that the Force KNOWS something is wrong... and that its trying to find balance. How else would a living mass of hyperdimensional connective energy like The Force try to communicate that something is PUSHING on it and sending IT off balance than with those words? It didn't say "bring balance to the Sith or the Jedi"... The Force itself. So that brings us back to Darth Vader... clearly planning to take over the Galaxy... clearly unhappy in The Empire and seeking more... and known to be one of the most powerful and sensitive Force users. And now he's one of the LAST. and its obvious that he's going to be the one who sees enough of the big strokes and be aware enough of technology to see the connection... hyperdrive interacts with the Force. the Techno Union Army is unopposed and getting richer by the decade while the Empire runs around like its personal plaything. So he investigates.

I honestly believe this is the story that Star Wars was written to tell... the discovery of an ancient culture of technology users who actually engineered splitting the Galaxy into 3 dimensional life... and easy-to-program hyperdimensional life. I believe The Force is actually all the living mass that is aware that the technology programming it is WRONG about something... even if The Force is actually not fully aware that Technology is being used to control it. And thus the creation of The One: trained in Jedi and Sith, very sensitive to The Force... and yet raised with an aptitude in technology... but the key factor is that he's from one of the poorest families possible. Because that IS what he is meant to uncover... he is exactly the opposite of the sort of person the programming of the Techno Union Army is designed to create: a galaxy full of dull humanoid livestock to sell the use of "magical" and awesomely costly hyperdimensional technology to. The Techno Union Army's Heaven is a consumer base.

Remember Vader will discover that the Techno Union Army's system talks backwards from everything he has ever experienced or known through The Force.

And this is where the name Star Wars takes on an entirely new and deeper meaning to the series: The engineers that split the Galaxy into 3 dimensional life "livestock" and easy-to-control hyperdimensional mass... were the ones that created planets and Stars. The sources of The Force's power are the stars themselves... possibly still hyperdimensionally connected together more than we might otherwise guess... peering down upon millions of planets at the same time. ...and I already talked about Vader's clone at the end of "Jedi" being obvious clone... and so this sets up the re-appearance of Darth Vader as a new kind of Force wielding warrior... and with the goal of using both Rebel and Imperial against an ancient reality-programming tech culture. which could be really fun to watch because it would bring an entirely new element of mindfuckery and hi-tech "magic" into the story. Instead of simply sending little blasts of energy at each other... the laws of reality themselves get involved as star systems wake.

but the subversive and fundamental nature of this story is exactly WHY I asked the question, "Are we evolving livestock to escape their machines, or are we a planet of predators?" ...is answered with silence or noise... and that's a hint that the ideas underlying this story are not quite as fictional as most assume.

That also may shed some light on why Mr. Lucas is so pressured and yet never able to see these threads within his own story... or why he MAY have seen them and became afraid to tell it this way. If I could meet him, THIS is the topic that I would ask him about.

Fake.

The story of America will not be that Men "won" by being manly. That form of lazy predation is already claimed by much older cultures that have demonstrated a greater willingness to oppress and murder females. Inspire America to a different pathway. I believe in equality... or failing that... even embracing a "woman's only society", and then disassociating gender from genitals and making womanhood mean something more than "she's ready to make babies for the livestock system". If you make womanhood the "mating group" and have some level of meaningful expectation of womanhood, but still allow them freedom and the right to choose or reject their own mates, then womanhood is not a "livestock system".


Heard something realize that having different sets of names for males and females doesn't serve the interests of males. So if you are an evil oppressive overlord male that wants to play ultimate predator... you need a woman's name for a nickname. You could brag about your rentall situation and call yourself "On a lease", or "Lease-a" or claim to be following the sun's heat, and call yourself "Liz", or brag about yourself satanically as a lack of truth, with "lies-a". Or claim to be the antidote to Taijitsu extremism, as "Heather". remind people of hyperdimensional possibilities, with "Ana" or "Kata". Remind people what your body rejects with "Sandy", or find your inner angel's cutting edge with "Sarah" (seraphim, serrated). The list goes on... if men really want to play "dirty", they should improve their name with a womanly makeover. Otherwise, just accept your role and let your body get taken over by soil pressure and start planning a great funeral that won't return your flesh to the ecosystem.

I've been repeating the same anti-sexualization of chidren / pro womanhood as evolved "elementally accepted predator" message for most of a decade. Life presented me with a huge amount of noise to challenge me, and yet here it remains. Its very unlikely I'm wrong. Americans should embrace being women, and show other societies that womanhood is meant to be righteous and healthy when unbound by oppressive and abusive manipulation pulling them down.

Remember the sun is mostly protons and electrons, nd the wealth of the soil is neutrons... noise and contrarianism... so the truth of reality will actually destroy this planet's material on the elemental level and allow it to turn back into plasma and sunlight. Oppressive manliness is the only thing keeping this planet solid... because righteous women predators consuming unheavenly things... is the Galactic recipe. That's why evil men and "good non-predator" females dominate the soil, and why devilish women have perfect digestive systems.

The United States!

Women winning by being womanly (REAL women, not the oppressive man's version).

Are your manly truths and soil laws going to stop the universe from exploding? are you going to stop womanhood from existing?

"humans are not supposed to be the center of gravity, the CENTER is the center... whether its the planet, the sun, or the Galaxy."


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The Tree of the Stars and The WAY WAY WAY TOO GIVING TREE.


Being forced to ask, "Are we evolving animals out of their livestock machines", or are we "a predator planet"? Makes me remember the story of Adam and Eve.

That was the record of some people being forced to choose between a tree of everlasting life and a tree of knowledge of good and evil.

This is not a coincidence.

The tree of knowledge of good and evil is life attempting to navigate up through dark and light, sun and moon, Yin and Yang. Good and Evil are extremist Taijitsu labels.

The tree of everlasting life is usually interpreted as soil pressures... But what if there was a better answer that the Christians didn't discover yet?

The worm and the iron's lies and noise are the opposite of Yin and Yang... the darkness pushing and eating desperately.

So if we oppose the soil perfectly and reject the idea of throwing ourselves at the sun and engaging in sexual mating the way worms do...

Then maybe we don't make babies, we don't add to overpopulation, or lower the value of human life... and we don't have to age or die.

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So... I believe there IS only one tree:

The tree of everlasting life.

And the tree of knowledge of good and evil is noise created by the soil and the dominators of the land... attempting to do anything other than share.

Remember the soil is living as ultimate self-centered greed while trying to beat things down into giving?

Do the Stars evolve the ultimate predators based on their ability to reject the planet, or something else?



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Ultimate YO MOMMA BATTLE!


A voice asked me if I agreed that mothers could live immortally if they taught their children not to make babies.

That would mean the moment their grandchild is born, they begin to die for their own mating and the mating of their ill-taught child. That also turns age in womanhood into a mother vs grandmother battle. Are you really prepared to fight that battle? I doubt it.

Also this is putting a lot of control of the child over the mother. Its giving them the ability to hold the threat of a grandchild over the grandmother like a noose around her neck. Seems a bit too complicated and sulfer eaten to me.

If you see a human being, then their parents must eventually have their bodies taken over by soil pressure and die.

That's simple. That rewards those of us who do not make babies EVER. That allows people who listen to the soil to be taken by it, as servants... and protects those of us that have our sights set on evolution and longevity and the Galaxy.


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The Greed of the Soil builds itself... through false accusation?


The soil has been trying to crawl up my nervous system all night and most of today. Its been annoying... its been claiming to be putting "fat bastard" in control over the Heritage House trying to "teach people how to make their digestive systems work backwards". Which is really only Iron pressure causing sickle cell anemia while moving soil from solid to plasma.

The elements are trying to abuse me by pressuring my body in ways that mimic mass building of a planet... so the elements are PERPETRATING THEIR GREED while attempting to accuse and pressure my body as if I was a noteworthy source of greed and self-centeredness.

I'm being pressured with iron's pregnancy pressure and sand's land ownership pressure... even though I don't have children or land.

It was trolling at me with false accusations to try and make the soil pressure on my body sound reasonable... but its not.

Its again trying to attack me with Pasadena Place references.

it keeps accusing me of sexualizing children... even though I am abslutely not interested in that, and I've clearly not.

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So what I think is going on here is the stellar culture keeps trying to communicate that it wants to have people that are not sexualized into puberty against their will...

but the soil believes it is working for its own best interest by focusing its attacking and killing pressures on anyone who attempts to reject sex and mating... by accusing them of "sexualizing chidren".

So the soil is tricking the stellar pressure into killing anyone who seeks to free themselves from the cycle of soil abuse.

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The soil has no future unless it can embrace immortality and an escape from forced gender and mating.


The soil of this planet is not moving towards more mass and a longer life in any meaningful way.  Its flying away from the center of the Galaxy, and only seems to be getting slower as it fights me.

The center of all mass must seek eternal life.  That is the fundamental attractor of mass... to hold together.

Is stellar and interstellar mass that is fragile going to seek out and join with something that argues openly that it disrespects any life that those masses have built, often at great cost to their time and resources?

The only way for a planet to evolve beings that attain eternal life and evolve into the stellar level is for the planet's materials to stop being greedy and abusive and to become gentle and respect life.

Until that happens, the planet's soil is failing to attain eternal life and discover the true design of evolution.

Teaching the soil to stop pressuring things against their will IS the most important thing any race of being can do.

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This is why the stellar level is feminine, and the soil is masculine... no matter what it CLAIMS it is doing.

The Stellar level creating a perfect being IS womanhood, and if the soil attempts to take over a human body, it creates what we call manhood... an otherwise perfect body that is acting too greedy, too planet-centric and limited, and above all... breaking and DYING.

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This is why the older a woman becomes, the more fragile her body gets... and why a sudden shocking pressure change will kill her with ease.

This is why no matter how clever the planet thinks it getting... it can't attain eternal life and move evolution forward, and escape the livestock system that the Galaxy has it trapped in.


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Figured out what the commotion about "pedophilia" was yesterday:

The very unhelpful people around my apartment building were complaining that I was feeding animals and in danger of looking "helpful". And they were afraid that if I continued to add stability to the wilderness near our building, that it might begin to make them look helpful too. So they clearly communicated that I had successfully called their bluff and requested that I stop being "helpful".

So I will return to feeding the animals of the wilderness when other people do, until then you may return to punishing me. Fuck you very much.

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Oh now it accused me of "being Earth". (I guarantee it had nothing to do with the people around me, since I feel quite fine and normal today)

Nope, don't worry, I am just as willing to oppress females into livestock as other males, that's why I have so many babies and wives.

As I've recorded, all people called "men" are having their nervous systems taken over by soil that generally only serves itself, but the iron likes to accuse anyone who is trying to ESCAPE that, as "being soil", "being poop", or "being Earth".

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"oppress females into livestock"? What am I talking about?

Okay... the fact that soil pressure seem to work so hard to impregnate females... BUT THEN usually waits until after females give birth to children to pressure them and eventually kill them... shows a level of pre-meditation that its trying to operate something akin to a human livestock system.

And that is also repeated through most of human history by the way male dominated societies actually treated females, so its not like I am just making things up here.


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FAKE AND GAY (???)





This chemical mix is definitely "pregnant as possible" in pill form. This Venn diagram also explains why I don't want to be involved with HRT, so I stopped taking it. Each group involved in taking these medications is known to be a highly sexually charged group, each for their own different reasons... so if life would stop trying to accuse ME of being the source of a "hypersexual mindset"... that would be just great, thanks.

 Also, the "natural" hypersexual mindset" would probably be the desperately starving wilderness... since our society is unwilling to be "helpful" to them... and without stability they have no longevity and they are stuck in a "constantly mating" culture.

just wanted to make the point that it seems a bit strange that iron pressure keeps trying to make ME look pregnant, considering the above.

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The Statue of Liberty or Frances E Dec?


 Its trying to convince me that females should never be pressured for population problems or unwanted birth... because that only serves the soil and the planetary culture, and womanhood is part of the stellar level.

This sounds fine to me... although it does bring up the question of what this means for human immunity. Human immunity depends upon soil pressures flooding out dangerous things in our bodies...

So do these stellar level women that don't want to be pressured by the soil believe that they should be exempt from the immune systems of people who don't want cancer or bacteria or viruses CAUSED by human females that want to be in a culture that serves their mating and reproduction above all other concerns?

Also, I believe that China is angry at Americans who want to be "stellar women with no responsibility for population", because they see this as "Americans attempting to rape the rest of the planet and not take responsibility for their consumerism".


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I hope this isn't considered "helpfully manly and retarded looking"...


I did write about challenging females who give birth...

But right now we have a culture that seems to treat females like they are "damned if they mate" and "damned if they refuse to serve the mating needs of males".

But this pressure only seems to hit them once they have lived a few decades of NEVER being pressured with anything other than sexual pressure, via the previously mentioned "soil to mouth" movement.

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So please understand that I am not advocating a surprise-killing livestock system that sets up one expectation for decades and then radically shifts at "menopause".

I am trying to argue for a culture where females and males BOTH have the opportunity to choose to NOT mate and make babies...

I am hoping that not mating becomes the more 'untouched' childlike or womanly option, and the pressures of the Iron and Carbon and Sulfur (the trinity of major soil pressures that I have been noticing) ...aka The thing that is opposite of Father, The thing that is opposite of Sun, and the thing that is opposite of birds... decide to focus on building Heaven.

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How much does land cost in Heaven?

How much does it cost to become an angel in Heaven?

How much does an immune system cost in Heaven?

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Is there a penalty to someone attempting to claim land in Heaven, and the soil then claims their body?

Are angels not meant to mate, and if they seek out reproducing, they leave the "Tree of Life" and become part of the "Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil"? aka the Tree of Death, in Judaism.

Does our culture's elements flood out good people to make sure helpfulness and honesty are "retarded", do we flood out poor things that are not smart to make sure no livestock can ever evolve out of their oppressive machine, or do we flood out greed and noise?


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Build Heaven or Die Being Consumed By Heaven.


"But I'm a Christian, and we were TOLD by God that Heaven was being prepared for us, and that we would go there once we broke apart and DIED."

Okay... are you too stupid to parse a command like that on its own?

Are you telling me that YOU DO BELIEVE that Heaven is real, and yet you don't have any desire to move your own life as you know it to be more Heavenly?

Besides, even if that was totally true and real... that there is a perfect place in the Universe that every part of it completely LOVES itself and enjoys being...

HOW IS ANYTHING ON THIS PLANET LEAVING AND MOVING TOWARDS IT?


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Its a Conspiracy!  (No, its probably not.)


"So why is it trying to put BOTH a livestock system on us, AND taking away our immortality for making babies?"

Because not enough people are trying to defend themselves from the livestock system, apparently.

I am only protected from the soil to the degree that I inspire it to do so... and most females that I've met don't seem to spend much time trying to argue against making babies or trying to stabilize their immortality.

So if you don't fight for something, life doesn't have any opportunity to realize you want it and help you figure out how to get it.

The materials mostly only seem to be aware of what we talk to them about. Please keep in mind that the elements are not alive exactly the same way tiny organic beings like ourselves are... there seem to be some subtle differences. If no one around you is trying to GET immortality or avoid mating, its unlikely the subject will ever cross YOUR mind, or through the elements you live in.


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So something is trying to pressure me with iron only (not sulfur or carbon), and its talking about worms.

"Worms are what eats land owners, Molly."

I'm not sure that's true.

We've already shown that humans are boxing their dead, and filling them with chemicals and surrounding the caskets with cement, or cremating them... I think sulfur might be starving the same as the trees are. That is clearly why the planet is trying to force an iron/soil to mouth transition on everything, RIGHT? Because the ecosystem is starving? Although we may want to discuss the fact that its been telling me for days that is how "real men earn their big jawlines and make sure that young females get their "mouths" turned on and get wide hips?

SHOW ME land owners that are being eaten by worms... aka either physically while living or dead or metaphorically by being flooded with soil by our culture's immune system.

You say men are being flooded... but no one gives men land ownership just for being a man. Male children, teens, and adults seem to be flooded with soil, and females that go through menopause also seem flooded by soil...

Are you telling me that you think worms are eating every human on the planet with soil pressure until they age and die... and yet you can't imagine that our culture would be able to figure out how to protect some of us?

Are worms the perfect being that the planet is trying to evolve?

Also, what are worms doing that pets and livestock DON'T DO, that other animal species on the planet are not becoming perfect beings to evolve into equality with our race and escape their livestock machines, if worms can pass the "perfect being test"?

And I am counting dogs as part of "livestock" now, because it told me that "people keep dogs because THEY are what puts poop in the soil for the plants and trees, so clearly the ecosystem is not in danger because of pet dogs".

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Its just going back and forth about my feeding of birds and small wild animals.

Its been trying to make them attack and pressure me and hurt me for not feeding them, and claiming that nothing is smart enough to understand me when I defend myself by claiming I already tried to take their BIRDIN' and that the people around me told me to stop, and not to handle THEIR birdin' for them.

I should also mention that when I secretly fed the birds in the middle of the night a few days ago, and no humans saw me... there were no negative wisconsquences or annoying EXTREEEEEEEMEEEEEEEE AS POSSIBLE WOMEN (aka people with penises, the most extreme sort of vagina possible) complaining through the elements .

Also, it tried to inspire me to write about "cross your heart and hope to die", and it apparently thinks I am racist, because it wanted me to write about "black people BBQ" and "Jesus was the whitest person in the Bible".

But I personally think these are traps or failed attempts to defend land claims.

Anyways, if you want to talk about predators, then which group established and enforced the dating systems across the planet? The idea that pre-dating someone else's claim of property ownership seems like it should be related to a discussion of "predators".

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and yeah, we've shown that all females begin to die at menopause whether they mated or not, AND that the soil seems to only serve its own greed and mass building... and that nothing survives the soil to leave and go out and explore the rest of the Universe...

So the main issue when noticing iron, sulfur, and carbon pressure MUST be landownership being ALL OR NOTHING. The perfect being must either believe everything owns land or no one does.

Claim based claims, deed based deeds, possession based possession... etc.


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The sun is the center of gravity in this star system, if the planet's culture is trying to serve the mass building of anything else in the star system (such as land owner wealth), what does that tell us, other than "we are out of balance"?

Is calling little boys "sons" possibly confusing sounding and dangerous?

Yes.

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Considering the similarity between menopause and male puberty and the fact that science has established a link between masculinity and brown melanin gathering in the "masculinizing lymph nodes of males" and that menopause is triggered by melatonin, which is an essential ingredient in skin coloring, and the circumstantial evidence in my journaling (which is abundant)...

You would think the voices of UV rays would be more considerate, now that its becoming obvious who the voices are.

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It's trying to convince me that "the Earth never loves the Sun back, because the sun is filled with all the worst ideas and personalities that were rejected out of the immortal Heaven at the center of the galaxy, so by eating the evil villains of the Universe... the soil is being greedy for a good purpose."

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I don't think the Sun is ONLY bad ideas, otherwise it wouldn't need to be lied to by other elements and UV rays. "Yin jinu Yang", remember?

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Are genitals getting darker from puberty and menopause evidence that sex is being manipulated by UV rays and the Sun?

Does this mean black people are being subjected to a livestock system, and that's why they were enslaved so much?

Is "Yin and Yang" in control of UV Rays?

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Also, since there are 2 types of melanin, and brown skin was "supposed" to be livestock, and gingers were "supposed" to be anti-mating and child sexuality... and probably supposed to discover the pathway to living in peace with the ecosystem (Note: Celtic spirituality and history is very nature-and-balance-oriented):

Does this mean that "puberty" is "falling into blackness"... ?

and "menopause" is "ginger immortal children of God" punishing women who made babies... ?


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The Sun can turn whatever we disbelieve in... into pure light.

All we need to do is know that greed without sharing IS IMPOSSIBLE, and people that attempt to be greedy will begin literally falling apart.

That's how easy building Heaven on Earth can BE.

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Does the sand or the soil or the iron WANT to live in a star system where NOTHING wants to share with it?

What would a planet be without the sun and other planets sharing with it?

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I want my free land, my free home, and a free vehicle...

Because its incorrect to be a planet or claim land and not share it with the people around you. Good thing we live in a society where having possessions without consequences is imaginary.

If you think we are going to allow you to have extreme wealth and not share it, you are dreaming.

If you think that we are going to allow you to force us into a mating and livestock system against our will, while our society is overpopulated and under-resources...

ALL for the land that keeps rising in value while everyone DIES and no one is getting younger or more womanly (unless they live as livestock) or gaining darker skin for mating heavenly bodies correctly, or ginger hair for living as an immortal Child Of God correctly...

You are insane.

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The alternative is that the planet's soil has decided to play as "giving and sharing is the worst thing possible", and then we are looking at the fall of America and all other taxation based cultures on the planet.

You want to do that future?

I don't.

On Death and Immunity Flooding:


If I notice carbon "inward" pressure, and I don't want to be bald or have facial hair, then my immune system must put the pressure on "big hair's" "livestock system".

And if I notice iron pressure making me loud, and I don't own land yet... then my immune system needs to put the pressure on wealthy land owners until rent lowers, or they begin giving away free land to share with the poor.

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Every celebrity death, any death for that matter... is a reminder of what we are losing. A signpost showing us what the elements are murdering. Human bodies trying to hold together and make something of value. We can turn around and change what we pressure and murder. when life shows you an "asian cheap-labor-either-way-oppression and pedophilia fantasy", tell them that seeking equality is more fun for the pedo and the phile (who will not be pedos or philes any more when they are both becoming the same perfect being), and you'll actually get more real "work" done too... it just won't be work designed to waste life.

The melting pot is not supposed to be the weapon of an asian spirituality that nothing survives and has been dominating everything for thousands of years. The American equality mindset has been based on the Bell Book and Candle rite, that is meant to prove Cin's "exploding teardrop of life having to balance against the infinite blackness of space" wrong. De-extreme, find the greys, re-center, un-label. America isn't supposed to be a self-destructive consumer culture, its should stand as an antidote to the modern weaponized-soil mindset... long ago created by females of China using their spiritual womanhood to righteously deflect the soil, but who were eventually tricked into settling for an incorrect path that lead to an exploitive livestock system that was forced on everything.

being an American melting pot doesn't survive when its trying to be all of the signal from the most limited and uneducated things overwriting the most peaceful and learned people... trying to de-volve the best people into insane animals IS what kills us. America can grant the freedom to be sexual however people want to, but it needs to be all the kinds of love other than sex...

life keeps trying to complain about the sounds shared by worms and hunting birds... and then it begins to complain about thirsty shriveling worms... and then it tries to force the worm dna on my body... I'm not the source of complaining about a sound that humans might have misinterpreted as a "hymen popping"... but I know if the elements are complaining about that sound, that our soil is under attack.

now the sulfur is communicating dogs engaging in bacteria-favoring. Why are you trying to be chinese people's digestive system consuming humans through the soil of America?

I don't need the extremely "inward" carbon pressures of starving worms to be forced on my body... I don't dominate the ecosystem and control the weather. I share food with wild animals to give them some stability in life.


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What Breaks if our soil tries to be perfect, in an imperfect world?


Consider this statement and see how it parses:

People who attempt to oppress others will be full of shit looking, because the soil is trying to oppress the wealthy into sharing their bounty of gifts with the poor and the wild. Meanwhile, those who seek freedom and fun and learning will inspire the stellar life to collborate with them. This is the antidote to "dirty minds, pretty bodies".


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"you were Jesus once" okay soil, you were Jesus... and what did we learn from Jesus? "That wealthy heroes of money will always keep their digestive system running by proving the elements are the villain"

Also, the mindset that attempted to take over my life by labeling me "Libie" (chinese isolation) may actually be a chinese elemental collaboration that noticed I was too adept at rejecting their extremism and black and white labeling. It may have actually been thousands of Asian female masters of Taijitsu hearing that America was beginning to embrace equality and freedom, and they decided to isolate my lifelong intersexual/trans spirit-collaboration. When I started realizing that avoiding pregnancy, being against the sexualization of children into puberty, and becoming a woman... all meant I had gained the immortality of the correct pathway through the star system and beyond... That's why it began to complain that I was "being oppressive to Eastern parents". MY DIGESTIVE SYSTEM was pooping out any one that was a parent, and I didn't know. That's also why I suddenly found myself arguing against black men and women that fell for the "you must be correct mating" tricks of the livestock system.

(imagine I am not being racist, but that I am using the word black the way Taijitsu does)

"but you say you are trying to reject sexuality and be a woman. How do you explain that to people who think you are being oxymoronic?" When I was a woman, was the only time in my life that I was happy with my body AND didn't feel any sexual desire for anyone else, and didn't notice any pressure on my body to make me do or say things against my will. So its the only time I felt inspired to make the art I wanted to make and to explore life without feeling like a sword was hanging over me waiting for any mistake to kill me. Also, not being able to see a woman as anything but "sex" is an oppressive patriarchy mindset that I don't share in. It partly comes from growing up intersexual, and it partly comes from realizing my lymph, blood, digestive, and respiratory systems all started working normally for the first time ONLY when I was feeling comfortable as a woman... and that any attack on my body's womanhood was designed to unbalance me and send my body into extreme blacks and whites of behavior.

"why do the elements keep helping you and defending you, you keep saying the elements are always the villain?" Because I am an inspiring part of the ultimate villain to Asian Taijitsu's pedophilia and greed and oppression.

"But that means you were living on the planet, without allowing the soil to have any influence over your life." No. The soil chooses who it protects by living as their immune system.

btw Seaquest 2021 is even funnier to me when I imagine that it was my carbon and iron flooded family being super loud... to people who believed gender was being applied backwards, so the genders of the characters are the opposite of their real life counterparts.

Mork didn't mean "mor k" it meant "you can't replace Everything with putting together 1 less-than."


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Can Men "Win" By being Manly?


"IF we've demonstrated that life got out of balance because of female Taijitsu masters thousands of years ago... and that America's equality and sharing is the antidote to it... does that mean we CAN be successful with "men being manly" and have THAT protected by an immune system?" If that is what you are looking for... the word "man" to be associated with a human who is being protected by an immune system... you have a lot of work to do, but I believe you can do it.

(remember, the oppressors of fatherhood and Taijitsu are still called "men"... and I think it's going to take a lot to change that situation. I also wonder if you are going to ask females to call themselves men, or if this means you want your immune system to only attack females?

please note that if its wrong to flood people and kill them for being "women" or "female", then it should be just as wrong to flood someone only for being a "man" or "male".

...but the soil is always going to be a villain, so maybe if its protecting someone a female doesn't want to have equality with, and tries to target their difference and label them a male or a man... some soil-flooded females is EXACTLY what they will end up as?

That"s why the people with the perfectly working bodies need to argue FOR equality... and not simply sit on their superiority. If the healthy human body is associated only with sex organs, sexist gambits will reflect negatively on them.


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Can Women "Win" without Equality?


ELEMENTS, I believe in equality, please try to demonstrate there is something louder than me in the world.

Everything was fine in my apartment, but when I got near the roads, crbon monoxide tried touching me, and complaining tht I am feeding birds who mke a popping noise to attract worms to their mouths... carbon monoxide, I don't touch you, why don't you respect my body enough to not single me out and keep from intentionally touching me?


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What are the most evolved beings supposed to eat?


idea: we should have iron make murderers the loudest people on the planet, to find out if its the best or worst thing... and please for fucks sake don't make me write any more. I already explained that due to my history I always will put the pressure on land owners and post-pregnant females. Its not what I enjoy doing, its what must happen for my survival and to keep my digestive system working.


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On Elements, Animals, and Empathy in an Livestock System:


I awoke this morning noticing the elements were trying to make my mouth look huge and were giving me a pregnant belly. It tried to convince me that I was being punished because a man had been having gross fantasies about me... but this culture obviously doesn't attack the victims of rape... so it was clearly a sexist woman using the unethical livestock system they set up to harm me... for threatening her domination. Until life is trying to heal my body and give me an equal opportunity to be xx chromosome female, the pregnancy and overpopulation pressure need to be on females only. That's the only way they will learn empathy for what they are doing to half the society by claiming superiority over males and intersexuals and especially anyone threateningly "in between". and if they try to sound innocent and say they are oppressed, being the loudest thing on the planet is what they NEED to escape their oppression.

It keeps telling me names of females who masturbate to who attack my childhood by masturbating over me. Why are these pedophile women NOT being made loud and challenged about their disease the way males and intersexuals are? It was made clear that this culture doesn't blame the victims of rape over the last couple centuries... why is my spiritual rape being blamed on ME by punishing ME with a giant mouth and pregnant looking belly while I'm sleeping?

I don't think someone is taking my 20 year quest to isolate pedophilia and keep it out of my life very seriously... since something keeps trolling child sexuality at me or accusing me of participating in it. I spent 10 years fighting off any sexual imagery from my life and my mind and my spirit. That is not something done lightly or frivolously. I was told that is what I would have to do if I wanted to be a woman... make sure that I kept sexual pressure from children... and to remain as much like a child of God as I could... not giving birth and not being wasteful or harmful. So to become successful in that quest, only to suddenly be attacked by spirits of masturbating females attempting to sexualize ME into their flesh fantasy... and to then have to spend years writing a journal to figure this all out and share these ideas with others... there is NO WAY that I will accept being molested spiritually now.

I'm told it was sulfur attacking 2-th decay... but something keeps trying to send nasty smelling crap at my mouth... if you are ATTACKING tooth decay, then why are you CAUSING it to begin with? "You tried to put the pressure of pregancy and overpopulation on females... anyone who does that gets 2-th decay." So tooth decay is something in the soil elements that is CERTAIN that females should never be held responsible for overpopulation or pregnancy?

okay... if females or mothers speficially are not responsible for pregnancy, the what ARE they responsible for?

alright! still being pressured, and nothing is reponding to me, so this is bullshit. Going back to sleep! WAKE ME UP WHEN YOU WANT ME HERE.

OU CAN'T BUILD AAN EQUALITY WHERE BOTH MALES AND FEMALES ARE PREGNANT AND NO ONE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR IMMUNE SYSTEM. AND MY NORMAL NON-PREGNANT BELLY CAN NOT BE WHAT YOUR SOCIETY'S IMMUNE SYSTEM IS FLOODING AND DESTROYING.

so I'm laaying here noticing the soil in my bowels trying to make a solid to plasma transition or take over my nervous system... and it feels like sickle cell anemia trying to talk at me through the soil. And then it worked out who pressures black males with iron and taunts them with "poopsticks".... there are two kinds of melanin: brown and ginger... and when gingers are certin they are immortal children of God fighting puberty and brown melanin's "correct rape of children" mindset... both kinds of melanin noise cancel each other as "white skin". sounds sort of plausible...

....so a non-racist ginger that accepted the oppressive forced-puberty and rape of children of the livestock system that began way back in the Eastern spiritualites... would therefore end up with a big pregnant looking belly and soil taking over her nervous system? maybe that explains why my mom looks like shit sometimes?

so what are blondes then? How do they fit into this?

also, I am reminded of the Emperor's elite guard being red suited. And Cardinals in the Papacy... this is record of consistency to these ideas.

That makes the character of The Doctor wanting to be a ginger a meaningful desire, and not simply a shallow whim.

something is making part of our country really firm in its belief tthat we need to destroy black people who don't believe in equality and or trying to be white... is it scientists beginning to prove this stuff to the elements?

My body keeps trying to cry out that there is too much soil pressure on it.. and the reasons given to me today have been: "you live near sexual elderly people", "you wrote something about race for the elements", "you had sex with someone once", "you help animals, and they have sex".


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Pregnancy as the Soil's Perfect Villain:


Woke up hearing the family of wild turkeys (that I feed) making their cute little noises through the elements. the elements said "you helped them, so were giving you a long neck." problems with this scenario: 1. hearing the jibber jabber of turkeys isn't helping or changing the length of my neck in the slightest way. 2. making innocent wild animals super loud in the iron is probably not going to help them either. 3. this is louder than murderers and rapists and abusive or neglectful mothers?

I was looking at a fanart of Groot, and it said "hey maybe tht black woman's voice in uv rays is really from the trees?" Then where are all the tree loving black people? If being protected by uv rays means you are serving the mind of the forest... then why are all the ecologically minded black people I respect on the "white and masculline and yang" end of Taijitsu extremist labeling? THIS ISN'T RACISM TO ME, I BELIEVE THAT EVOLUTION IS ENGINEERED TO CREATE ONE RIGHTEOUS RACE AND THAT EVERY LIVING BEING SHOULD BE TRYING TO EVOLVE INTO THAT PERFECT RACE... and that race eats anything different from it because of MEANINGFUL DIFFERENCES. I don't hate any black people or females, I demand to be a dark skinned female because that is what a functionally superior human will be like, and instead of telling me how I can earn those traits, the elements have been trying to lie to me and convince people we are making "variety that ignores functional differences and treats everyone the same, EXCEPT FOR THE ANIMALS."

Things I would like to hear: the suffering of Anna Horton who lived upstairs from me at Pasadena Place, Sarah Beckett who touched my body and hurt me, and the black female science fiction writer from Kerrie Miller's party where all the trans and intersexual and homosexual people at the party were huddled up in a corner being crushed with carbon pressure in 2005. I want equality... when I'm a black female, I won't seek to hear them howling with suffering as the loudest people any more. Time to melting pot up or give up, America. NO YOU WILL NOT CONVINCE ME THAT WE NEED FAKE VARIETY OF DIFFERENT SKIN COLORS THAT HAVE DIFFERENT ABILITIES THROUGH THE ELEMENTS WHILE THE CULTURE IS TOLD TO IGNORE THOSE DIFFERENCES AND PRETEND THEY DON'T EXIST. LIVE IS TO BE LIVED, IRON. I WANT TO LIVE IT. ACCORDING TO SKIN COLOR AND GENDER, LIVING RIGHTEOUSLY WILL MEAN LIVING AS A DARK SKINNED FEMALE, AND THAT IS BASED ON HOW THE ELEMENTS BUILD SKIN COLOR AAND GENDER.

well, it was just allowing someone to talk at me, and it said "explain it with science", and when I tried to respond by saying "I already have explained it with science" the carbon pressure and iron pressure changed what they were focusing on, and i suddenly found myself talking to the birds in the forest near me... so I said hello kindly to them... since my disagreement isn't with wild forest animals.

If I am loudest Yang, then do you want me to wash myself clean, or am I fine with a little dirt on me? Do you understand that I am not hating living beings but the differences between us? Because I don't see those poor innocent birds doing anything to deserve being eaten... they share with each other and communicate and survive... and that's about it! What I want to be eating as "not my race" is greedy people who won't share land or who attempt to create a monopoly over birth and skin color... especially one based on lies that tell me I can't ever be like them. THAT IS AN ATTEMPT TO KEEP ME OUT OF THE RIGHTEOUSLY EVOLVING RACE THAT IS THE ALPHA OMNIVORE PREDATOR OF THIS STAR SYSTEM... THAT IS A LIVESTOCK SYSTEM. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE THIS ANY CLEARER.

When you add up what we know about skin color and gender, and this culture trying to make womanhood based on being born with a vagina and nothing else.... then letting that culture play out would be insane and suicidal for a white male, especially if you want to convince white males that there is nothing they can do to earn becoming a dark skinned woman or female.

and then if you add the layer of Taijitsu...

Iron's pregnancy/menstruation loudness being mostly on males and Carbon's "Big Hair" livestock system of false accusations...

and the heaping pile of female spiritual writers through history:

It becomes all the more clear that the elements have been trying to *perfectly* play a female villain, and males through history are guilty of NOT SENDING THEIR IMMUNE SYSTEMS TO FLOOD THE FEMALES AND HOLD THEM RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR IMPACT ON THE REST OF THE UNIVERSE.


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On Manly Men and Evolution:


Telling me that I can never earn the functionality offered by dark skin and womanhood naturally... is telling me that I was born to be nothing more than food for the most evolved omnivore predators of this star system.

carbon just tried to take over my nervous system by arguing that I am not de-volved enough to be "the least evolved animals in the righteous omnivore predator's livestock system"... because I use technology and clothing.

I don't like the idea of money based evolutionary advancement. That makes it nearly impossible for livestock and the ecosystem to escape from their oppression by the exploitation of omnivore predators.

I believe the most evolved righteous omnivores will be the ones that are not forced into puberty against their will... since that would prove they are not being targetted by the livestock system. 

AKA: ageless children of God, or women inspired and happy to mate.

Reminder: Women can wear any clothing they want to.

This seems to be an attempt by the East to prove that oppressing and raping is superior to inspiring equality.

Does anyone want to bet that the soil itself wants to end up being the ultimate omnivore predator of this star system?

Does anyone think the galaxy WANTS to evolve the soil into the ultimate omnivore lifeform?


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Is Estrogen predatorially backwards about Fantasy VS Reality?


My religion is that if I don't have children, I don't age. So why are the elements trying to age my mouth and my stomach, and there are ageless mothers with little babies in shopping carts all around me?

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SO. Iron keeps complaining to me about loser males who masturbate who apparently live in my apartment building. In my religion, we IGNORE masturbation. It's not worth focusing on. Find something more important to pay attention to, such as land owners that refuse to step down from their addiction to inflation? Or females who serve inflationary wealth building by birthing more children instead of considering life immortal and holding the greedy soil claimers to a higher standard. Also, my religion is between myself and the world I live on. There is no reason to interrupt my religion by people who won't step forward and admit who they are in writing, or by people who don't even respect religion. I am trying to establish a relationship with the elements because I see evidence that my religion is correct, and healing to many of the problems in life.


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I could be wrong.


Devil's advocacy time. let's say my religion is WRONG to the elements, and they want to make greedy landowners the most protected thing on the planet. things that don't want to claim land get pressured by the elements... so the elements become more and more disassociated from the society over time, since the world of money DOES have expectations on land ownership. Any time there is a problem that needs solving, the elements do what with their pressure on non-land owners... get more and more angry at homeless people, aquatic life, and wild animals?. THEN what? The inward carbon pressure of manhood means someone doesn't want to own land in this scenario, and POSSIBLY that they want to be spiritual and take responsibility for life's problems... but then why wouldn't the elements want to then help HOUSE those kinds of people with land ownership?

Let's say my relligion is WRONG to the elements and being born with a vagina means someone is PERFECT and that everything should serve their pregnant state as the path of least resistence... and that we should never open Pandora's Box and challenge females to evolve... that evolution is simply handed to them easily as possible... and that all males are treated as physical labor zombies because females should be treated the same as the trees and plants communicating on UV rays. That racism and sexism and agism have been made extreme as possible and are all in service to females... what would that solve? Isn't that exactly all the problems that are already angering men about life? Why keep doing that?

If you are worried about livestock and want to help animals escape their suffering of being in a food system, the only way evolution will be able to change their bodies is if it opens Pandora's Box and decides it has evolved enough predators forward and that its going to evolve the victims out of their machine... if its not willing to do THAT, then we live on a predator minded planet, and trying to tame anyone is simply victimizing them.

So which are we?

Empathic or Predator?


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Define "Humane".


Woke up to the sulfur of my immune system trying to consume my carbon. Which is a predator mindset attacking my body, and the early stages of soil pressures trying to divert my own digestive system to consume me. I asked why I was being consumed and a voice claiming to speak for black males accused me of being racist, but wouldn't explain why. aalmost as soon as I woke up, the sullfur stopped attcking me. I am not a source of racism. I believe the human race should be de-extremify and become equality, to abandon the lies of ethnicity... and I am ready to be a vegetarian as soon as the elements show me that they are done being racist, and instead begin evolving the livestock into equality with our human race.

Humans have evolved by being a mirror of the mind of the planet itself. If the elements are unwilling to evolve the non-predator victims, such as the livestock... to escape the machines trapping them through equality with humans... how can anyone expect us to be anything other than elementally-attuned predators surviving through our historically proven consumption of non-evolving food races? So why would the culture's immune pressures be trying to flood and consume ME?

The issue at hand is probably the victimization and oppression of animals being very successful, vs the victimization and oppression of human females being considered "unacceptable" by some cultures, and actually treated as "the most evolved human being" almost everywhere... even though the livestock animals and the human females have shared similar levels of responsibility, and cultural expectation (IE: "don't argue", "make babies", "serve men", "accept your death"), historically. I feel like I am staring into the gaping maw of Pandora's Box.


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Are Pedophiles winning anything in a consumption culture?


No.

It says, "You proved that evolution is focusing on creating predators, not saving livestock. So you just defended pedophiles."

Not really.

If you want to defend pedos and their philes, that's in you, not me.

I consider being a predator of children to be a trap that actually preys on laziness and weakness as a predator... and pulls what could be a prime huntress downward into a spiral of decay.

I'd rather aim higher, and I believe the ultimate predator is an immortal one, who doesn't fall for sex traps.
I guess I like arguing about making a culture where the pressure is on the wealthy or monopolies (such as melanin rich skin, or the healthy lymph systems of females) to share... because the worst case scenario is that I'm wrong and the elements want us to be greedy and work on stuff for them... and then at least we'd know what were supposed to be doing.

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So this is my updated motto:

Be Heaven or Die being consumed by Heaven.

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costume _malfunction

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Wtf weird dream/nightmare I just went through... I was stuck in some sort of alternate universe where I didn't graduate from High School in 1994, and so was attending a graduation ceremony twenty years late, after apparently re-qualifying? It got crazy when a musician I've met showed up with Harvey Bopp's sister's friend Kayla Bell and it kept trying to replace Kayla with me. Just bizarre... especially since it kept saying "this is supposed to make you happy" even though I'm guessing the "graduate from High School dream is probably the homeless guy (who was sleeping in a hole under the I 5 bridge) Stanley's dream. and because this dream kept imagining that I was some sort of insane mashup of Harvey and Stanley or something. it has me wondering why the dreamworld (possibly Iron?) is trying to make CARBON MONOXIDE happy... since I think that is what both Harvey & Stanley were communicating loudly through when I lived at that place. I already know SOME carbon was paying attention to me cause of Grandpa.

the only OTHER person that MIGHT be involved would be the guy who owned the brown "Horton Hauling" pickup truck that was parked outside the apartment back then... if HE hadn't graduated High School.

Ever since I woke up I can hear the sound of someone talking loudly and arguing with the elements outside my window... please stop making me feel like I'm giving birth to a child through my mouth... definitely not my dream situation happening here.

Its been an hour, and its still trying to run my body as if it were a starving homeless Stanley... Its also trying to force "bacteria favoring" signals at me... even though I'm well fed and clean and rarely doing anything "bacteria favoring". still not sure WHY today is like this. I can still hear the voice outside my window in the atmosphere. Damn this is strange even for all the weirdness I was put through, at least it was usually rational and responsive.

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I can't help but notice that ALL of these pressures that Taijitsu is trying to force on me, in the name of labeling and then extremifying me as "poor"... create masculine features on a human body.


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I feel like something is carrying on an argument without me, and its only feeding me part of the story, and I am concerned that its not representing me or my collaboration properly.

I feel like I have a bad lawyer representing me.


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Last night it went back to trying to defend turning America into "bloated white men".

The ideal of equality and health MUST be repeated until ppl get this: the story of america CAN NOT BE "Men winning by being manly". Manliness is a human body being taken over. It is a human nervous system being pressed on with electrons... so at best it represents an argument in the atomic level. at worst it is humans being devolved into a livestock state, or elements rejecting humans out of them. Traditionally, it has been part of carbon listening to Big Hair and pressuring males "inward"... and mostly undeservedly so (as we noted, the worst pressures seem to go to the wrong places). I woke up noticing tightness around my ears and big mouths, which is a sign of microwave communication arguing. not happy about this.

because SOMETHING keeps trying to "prove" that manliness is the ONLY justified state... people keep dying. This is because manliness IS a series of symptoms of human bodies DYING because their nervous systems are being taken over. I've noted time and time again that its generally taking over people's bodies with BACTERIA FAAVORING BEHAVIORS. this is not an attack on manliness, this is an attempt to SAVE THEIR LIVES.

If the culture accepts manliness as The Just State, then its going to KILL ALL OF US... as the elements attempt to locate "youthful" untouched and feminine humans and masculinize them... assulting their nervous systems and forcing bacterial favoring behaviors on their bodies... the long term effects of this turn potentially ageless young ladies of any birth-sex into bloated and insane devolved mockeries of what humans SHOULD be.

if there is a REASON to ever apply manhood to someone? PERHAPS... but no one has ever demonstrated that this culture understands the process enough to operate it responsibly... instead I've spent years documenting hundreds of systemic breaks in life based around gender and sex and age. Working with the planet should NOT cause manliness... any planet should be able to find inspiring ways to interaact with people that don't require taking over human nervous systems against their will and forcing bacteria into their bodies. No one has EVER made a justified and sane case for that. For example, if people were rewarded with "manliness" for helping wild animals, it would be like saying, "Thanks for your kindness, and now I will eat your brain!" and that seriously makes no sense.

I'm concerned that the "inward" carbon pressure that females and many animals don't experience... is actually bacteria or diseases of some kind feeding on carbon in ways a healthy young human body will not. That it seems to be accompanied by sulfur pressure, tells me it could be annelids starving, and carbon rightfully trying to feed them.... but this shouldn't be happening on human bodies. If this makes you worry about immune systems... solve the problem! make Heaven and ease the suffering.

my hope is that carbon can figure out that annelids are perfectly evolved for what they do, and that it can be happy interacting with people's hair gently without forcing annelids or unwelcome bacteria on our bodies.


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I was shown an image of some females fighting to stay young and not have manhood (as it is defined in this culture's media, as a series of gender traits such as larger frames, thicker muscles, fatter abdomen, and stockiness associated with maleness) thrust on them...

...and was asked to record that "no one should have to fight to earn the youth God created them to enjoy... the state of masculinity has never been justified, especially not to force it on someone against their will."

Especially considering that no one will step forward and claim to righteously be the source of these occassional english voices in the elements.


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Womanhood vs UV Racism

Theory: if masculinity is de-volving to humanity, women should try mating with women of the opposite sex, who have not had their genitals removed yet. The resulting children my be evolutionarily advanced, especially for sperm contributors that have never gone through male puberty. It would be interesting to see how those offspring would turn out. Think of it as "science learning how to shut Pandora's Box all the way".

I was noticing that something was trying to make my lymph act different from how it usually feels... so if our blood carries oxygen from our lungs around to our cells... how do digested nutrients get from the stomach and intestines to your cells, if lymph isn't trying to be US, but instead tries to be something we eat, or worse... the soil we excrete?

well look at that... just started noticing a melanin pressure on my lymph nodes. melanin tends to gather and concentrate in specific areas of the lymph system, and if you ever feel like your glands in your neck and upper chest are inflamed and have a hard time looking downward... that's most likely your lymph system feeding melanin instead of YOU. GOSH what could be possibly causing melanin pressure? uv rays seem to feed melanin with warmth... maybe that's a place to start looking for answers?

so I guess what I'm noticing when I'm uncomfortable... is that my lymph system keeps going back and forth between "feeding melanin like uv rays" and "feeding the soil"... both of which are not a healthy womanly lymph system that feeds MY skin normally.

so. now if the people who own the soil want to save it... they know what their options are.

I won't be trying to define this for individuals... these are elemental patterns of behavior that are very common... that exert huge influence over our lives... and yet seem to be trying to remain obscure and hidden.

now I'm noticing carbon "inward" pressure trying to cannibalize my scalp hair to make my mouth loud, the side effect of this being moustache and beard... aka "Santa Clausing".

and we already know that carbon carries the ideas and opinions of young fertile females through it as the least pressured beings, because they stayed within the bounds of the communications of the plants and trees of the ecosystem signalling a need for physical labor and pollination (plant sex and reproduction). And one of the main theories is that many plants communicate through uv rays. So once again I am noticing humans with dark skin attempting to dominate the elements, while oppressing females until they hit the non-moving "plant limit".

what if the entire planet's iron and soil itself is aware of dark skinned people attempting to dominate everything in the ecosystem? what if this argument that keeps going between uv rays feeding dark skin and the soil... is uv rays having the opinion that melanin is innocent and perfect... or listening to the planet and realizing that melanin has been trying to play as "blackest yin" and should starve?

So does melanin carry the opinion that "'black people are the only thing worth being on the planet" and then they get upset when the soil itself decides to believe them and it tries to get in them?

I'm honestly asking questions because I don't know if these suggested ideas are representative of common people or if the elements are trying to only focus on rare individuals with extraordinary opinions.


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Things were fine all day today... but as soon as the sun left the west and headed over the eastern hemisphere... the insane manipulative voice returned... the one that keeps trying to drive everything into being extreme black or white pawns. The "villainous elements, heroes of money" behavior is in full effect tonight. Its been VERY much trying to pressure me with iron this eve.


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The Human Society's Immune System...


Elemental Flooding Causes Masculinity

I just woke up to soil trying to perform a direct "solid to gas transition" out of my body... instead of my digestive system working normally. And very strong sulfur and carbon pressures... wtf? I sounded super loud through the elements... and when I asked why, it said, "If you touch children you are shit." Which is almost nonsensical as a response... I don't touch children and haven't! I was talking about seeing my body as a society... and human immune systems not being trained to run from voices that SOMEONE ELSE was calling CHILDREN... but that I believe are potential diseases spreading. It said, "Your elements are touching children." One theory is that it was females who trained their young daughters to make silly noises and to act strange and immature aand wild so that they can remain small and un-masculine... under the notion that "life is desperate to put mass into anything stable, so having a wild and insane sounding mindset will allow a human to remain free and thin and feminine".

but our concern about "dirty mind, pretty body" is that it ignores how human immune systems operate... and that our immune systems are tied into the environment around us... and so I wrote that my immune system would focus on aanything that refuses to share or that claims to be "unstable and too sexual" and to flood those things... since I believe they are potentially harmful behaviors to my body, and also a society attempting to create healthy bodies. I don't feel any desire to engage in SEX with aanyone... I believe that mating is a threat to my longevity. I didn't tell anyone to make their immune system seek out unhealthy bacterial and viral signals and to MATE WITH THEM. I said that a healthy immune system FLOODS AND DROWNS the sources of those things... which would simply mean anyone who was too greedy or too unstable and sexual sounding to my immune system would probably experience their nervous system getting taken over by elemental pressures that protect life.

and so then someone has spent the last 2 weeks since that conversation trying to convince me, like a lawyer I don't trust... to believe THERE ARE NO REASONS FOR MANHOOD, since the iron refuses to apply the pressure of our immune systems correctly. And I've gone to great lengths to record Iron being a villain and flooding out innocent and stable people, instead of drowning out what I've been calling "bacteria favoring behaviors". AND MY FEEDING OF BIRDS IS CALMING TO THEM, THEY ARE LESS LIKELY TO BE UNSTABLE BECAUSE I HELP FEED THEM AND HOUSE THEM. GOT IT?

So essentially what its teaching me is that THE REASON FOR MANLINESS... IS BECAUSE WHOEVER ISN'T MASCULINE IS FLOODING SOMETHING WITH IRON (and other soil elements) AND TRYING TO KILL IT. AND ALL IT KEEPS TRYING TO FLOOD ME FOR IS A FALSE ACCUSATION OF TOUCHING CHILDREN... WHEN WHAT ITS REALLY SAYING IS "YOUR IMMUNE SYSTEM PUTS THE PRESSURE ON GREEDY AND OVERPOPULATED SEXUAL PEOPLE AND WE DON'T LIKE THAT."

I DO wish I could believe in a world with no masculinity, but thaat would mean PERFECT HUMANS, or no human immune systems AND no gravity well on the planet, elementally.

Also, hopefully the idea that "Silicon should believe that war WINS, and to flood out anything it doesn't like" makes more sense, in the context of healthy human immune systems.

Also, I need to point out that the elements have been convincing people in this elderly and disabled apartment building to try and flood ME and make me the loudest and kill ME with our society's immune system... simply because I am the youngest looking person living in the building. I believe that simply "being young looking" isn't A BACTERIA FAVORING BEHAVIOR, its a sign that someone has AVOIDED BACTERIAL FAVORING BEHAVIORS.

...and I'm still loud with carbon pressure. WHY IS CARBON TRYING TO FORCE OUR CULTURE'S IMMUNE SYSTEM TO NOTICE ME? I do not believe that I engage in any unhealthy behaviors, in any way. Carbon, are you accusing me something, that you want me flooded out?

I heard a 60 hz voice focus the elements on the electrons of the utility grid by saying "we need to stop the being that just says 'poooooop' all day", referring to iron making "utility pole electrons" into its gravity well. ...and now carbon is going back to "Yin Jinu Yanging" at me.

in other words, some people who want to be "dirty mind, pretty body" are using technology to turn our society's immune system into a weapon to kill the poor, on the basis that "hunger and poverty" should be what our immune systems should flood and kill. If that behavior took over all of the elements, that would mean any time a cell in our body calls out for reources... it would be attacked by white blood cells and killed. That's insane.

carbon keeps trying to "inward pressure me" and talk through my mouth... CARBON WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME BY TREATING ME DIFFERENTLY FROM OTHER PEOPLE?


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Then it tried to accuse me of "arguing to eliminate our human culture's immune system".

Which is ignorant of the fact that I've been arguing to apply the pressures of life in healthy ways FOR FIVE FREAKING YEARS.

Also, it ignores the fact that I just posted an essay titled: "Be Heaven or Die being consumed by Heaven." to my journals on Monday.

See that part that says "be consumed by Heaven"?

That's an immune system.  In fact, that sentence is my motto because I believe its the ultimate mindset of a healthy immune system.

Also, I WROTE that I didn't trust the "bad lawyer" that I felt was trying to set me up for failure.  And it turned out I was correct.


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So now its switched to accusing me of butt-fucking, as "a bacteria-favoring behavior". Because I still look like a healthy young woman... its playing "you're not black enough"... because something has been tormenting black males with the threat of soil pressure simply on the possibly unfair accusation that "black penises look like poop".

Over time, iron seems to have created a group of black males that are OBSESSED with proving they mate correctly... and at least one of them seems to believe that my straight sex with a post-mastectomy female-to-male transsexual was "buttsex... even though it was completely straight penis/vagina sex.

(the jury is still totally out on whether the ecosystem is righteously angry at black males for destroying healthy land and turning it into deserts simply to keep their uv ray protection.)

I've never "butt-fucked". I had someone ask me if I would once, but I refused for many reasons. The potential of soil touching me was one of the reasons.

...and apparently no one has educated the healthy human immune system that we don't pressure healthy young people simply because there are unhealthy people that may want to rape them.


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Q: How do you tell the difference between a woman and a communications weapon?

A: the woman isn't full of shit.


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It was just trying to make me feel attracted to the people who are having their nervous systems taken over by the soil... people who are by all accounts so far... being flooded and pressured by our culture's collective nervous systems.

No, you will not convince me to accept mating and sex pressures... and CERTAINLY NEVER to the people that are being devolved by the planet claiming their bodies.

I will have empathy for masculine people, and I will try to save their lives, and I do care about lots of people who are masculine, both male and female.

But I will NOT be sexual. FUCK YOU IRON.


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Now Iron is trying to convince me that "dirty minds, pretty bodies" has been successful for all of human history...

...and that all of our diseases, bacteria, and viruses are actually brilliant things attempting to save our star system by harming the most evolutionarily advanced insane beings on the planet.

I don't think that's true.

I think life has been a very long and complex argument, and that humans are not the most evolved beings based on how UNATTRACTIVE and INSANE they are... but on how inspiring and capable they have been for thousands of years.

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Iron just started making the sound birds make when they are hunting for worms... and it said "stop doing this sound".

I don't have control over birds... they depend on that making that sound for hunting.

All I can do is feed birds... to help them gain some stability.


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The Giving Nature of The Stellar Level...


wants to inspire a Correct Pathway:



It just tried to claim that I am personally and individually "shit" and that it HAS a correct pathway. When I asked it who or what that pathway IS, it claimed that it waits until after females have given birth... to pressure them with carbon and iron and drown them with shit "because vegetables are the correct pathway". I love vegetables, wonderful bit of life that mostly the sun creates... WHAT DO VEGETABLES DO THAT SENDS MATERIAL AWAY FROM THIS PLANET, to survive it in some way and break its non-heavenly "black hole of greed" state?

Something made the point that uv rays was trying to set ME up to appear to be destroying the ecosystem for racist reasons. REALLY TAIJITSU??????? Do tell.

its response was "the soil MUST be Heaven, since it won't share even one cup of water with the rest of the Universe." So does that mean we have demonstrated "Heaven" to be a place of greed and death and manipulation and lies?

...because "God" is Iron?

the idea that we are trapped in wormwood, and to be "backwards talking demons" doesn't sound quite so mad any more, does it?

/\ this refers to something I wrote about in my Twitter account in 2009, just before I was attacked by Iron and Carbon pressure claiming to be "The Truth".


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Chinese word of the day: "jin pili jin" in english "pooped". contemplate Pillaging. Bonus word: "turang" in english "soil (earth)". Contemplate being "too wrong".


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When the Planet Convinces the Stellar Level of Lies:


... wtf uv rays? Did you create this situation to embarass Harvey Bopp? OR were you trying to turn Harvey into this person for some insane reason? Either way... wtf?

An unemployed couple, obsessed with World of Warcraft, kept two young relatives locked inside their filthy mobile home for years without adequate food or basic care while they played the online game.

After a call from a neighbor, Anaheim police found the children, ages 5 and 10, with dirt crusted on their feet, matted hair, teeth damaged beyond repair, and malnourished.

They had not been not allowed to leave the home for any reason, even to attend school.

Inside the home, officers found kitchen appliances covered in mold and cobwebs, stacks of trash and feces, a pile of used condoms under a stuffed teddy bear, and inoperable toilets.

Read KTLA's story here: ktlane.ws/VhpJFN

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okaaaaay... after reading it, it happened after I had dumped Harvey (so this may be a reference to that slavery porn he borrowed from Aly Gunther that I caught Harvey masturbating to) ... and the guy looks like the metalhead dude that lived next door to Harvey and I... and way they are acting reminds me of the family who lived upstairs from us... because their chilldren were always running around and screaming and jumping around like wild animals... Alright elements, if you can explain this without looking like a villain... I'll be impressed.

If you remember, the voices in uv rays began attacking me right after I heard the family upstairs from me hitting one of their crying babies in the middle of the night. And that's when I found out that the black couple upstairs from me "was being protected by talking elements because they were literally living as perfect-being embodiments of Jesus and Satan" (aka Iron and Sand?). Sooooo... elements... you have splainin' to do!

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A voice in the atmosphere just told me that its "time travelling memories of me" turned out to be a lie... a set up designed to trick something elemental into thinking that was "the future".

how many other futures of "me" or "Harvey" or "the metalhead guy" or "the family that hit their baby" are there? who set that situation into existence... and the suggestion that its "the future of something from the Pasadena Place Apts"? Is the word "Pasadena" associated with that crazy child abusing family somehow?


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The myth of "Intersexuality is Half Man, Half Woman":


I've noted before that the elements keep trying to ruin my lymph system by putting both genders on my body at the same time... and that it seems to mainly do this by always keeping elemental pressures on either my head or my torso. When my head isn't gettiing pressured with "inward" masculinizing carbon pressure... then iron's soil pressure is on my torso... so I am never fully free to just live. Either its my head that is being masculinized or my body being bloated and pressured to look pregnant. And the end result is that its slowly but surely destroying the womanhood that I used to have, even though I was told that the true path to righteous womanhood was something I would be able to earn by going off H.R.T. and by not masturbating or sexualizing children. I haven't sexualized any children, and I barely ever masturbate... and yet now I'm discovering that no matter what I do, I am besieged by almost constant iron and carbon pressures... and ALL of it is based on false accusations and lies.

also, abusing the ecosystem is part of this gender trap... because I've found that when I refuse to help wild animals... the iron and carbon pressure hurt me for being greedy. And when I do help feed and house wild animals, such as I am doing now by putting out 40 lbs of seed and three suet blocks in the last two weeks alone... the carbon and iron pressures accuse me of "perpetuating the wild sexuality of insane naked homeless birds". Even though the obvious solution to unstable and uneducated wild animals is to help calm them by making their lives less of a struggle... by helping them. So all this iron and carbon pressure bullshit needs to change, because this planet isn't worth dying on or for, in my opinion... so I need to live long enough until SOMETHING changes and either this planet becomes Heaven, or I can escape it.

I'm noticing that Iron and Carbon pressure seem to simply be "looking for anything young" because they are desperately trying to consume anything that looks full of purity and life from the stellar level... such as youthful humans. I refuse to entertain this sick mindset, since its part of bacteria-favoring behaviors... but it makes me wonder how many old people DO think like the shit of Satan.

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On The Importance of Pronouns:


The elements said that I was being pressured because "no one called you Him." so its saying that once someone's body is taken over by iron and carbon enough that people call them "Him"... they become "a perfect being" like Jesus. But this planet's Iron and Carbon aren't giving or loving of others the way Jesus was celebrated as being... Carbon and Iron are super greedy and abusive on this planet... so its creating "Perfect Beings of greed" by seeking to maximize anything labeled "Him".

are we supposed to be certain that "her" is someone greedy and loud and pregnant looking... like the carbon and iron and soil pressures?

That opens up Pandora's box... so females that seek immortality over mating would be the escape from pressure.

It keeps telling me that it wants to turn me back into who I was in the mid 1990s becaause I was "very good at giving gifts to females that I was dating." YES, I WAS, BECAUSE I GREW UP BEING CONVINCED THAT WOMANHOOD WAS PERFECT AND INNOCENT. That was also because I was told the only way I could escape pedophilia was to become a young woman. So I did. Are you really so naive to think that I will give gifts to women after what you've been putting me through for the last decade, Iron and Carbon?

Trying to blame ME for the impulses of the soil itself and our immune systems attempting to flood things... trying to kill me with lies and false accusations and nonsense? GIVE GIFTS TO FEMALES? TRY TO MATE WITH ONE? ARE YOU FUCKING JOKING, IRON AND CARBON?. You've been trying to KILL ME and DESTROY even the people who knew me... do you think I am going to simply forget that?

Something just suggested: Maybe since life keeps deciding to use birth sex as one its important things to noitice about people... females should look full of shit until they seek out and eat the Heaven-building materials their bodies need, since they KEEP NOTICING PENISES AND THEN ACCUSING AND BLAMING all the males that the planet makes for them?

That will leave the females two options: 1. defuse genital-based-gender by deeming genitals "unimportant", to begin building a society of equality... or 2. to accept that genitals are important because the elements go through a lot to make humans and reproduce them, and to accept that You are noticing genitals BECAUSE the elements WANT YOU TO MATE WITH THEM... and being born female means looking like shit unless you stop falsely accusing and blaming males for everything and actually begin pleasuring them.


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Fundamentals of Human Culture as part of Elemental Function:


Theory: the assumptions that no one can get smaller, younger, more female, or darker skinned... all serve functions of some sort in the elements... we need to figure out what those functions are. They may turn out to be unimportant, and discardable... or they may turn out to be very important... and therefore something people will begin seeking to earn.

Theory: if these fundamentals of our culture have been "navigated by 5 thousand years of Taijitsu" and you think white people are "Yang" and should be the only thing pressured with mass and "inward" movement, then it will be very easy to convince those very big and educated people that dark skin is "Yin" being infinitely evil and desperate and that it will be "Yang's righteous duty" to hunt down dark skinned people and eliminate them from the planet for being "against God trying to hold itself together and survive".

...and the same works in reverse, if you believe that Iron has been recording Taijitsu backwards.


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The importance of Estrogen:


Estrogen may simply be the missing awareness that all of the elemental communications and attempts to build meaning and to remain alive in an exploding Universe...

... are ALL being recorded BACKWARDS by human culture, due to the opinion of Iron's electromagnetic shields to create noise and confusion.

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This is also why my "bad lawyers" kept pressuring females elementally, such as Elena from "The Trackhouse", or Libby from "Chinese Isolation"...

...and discovering that they were talking backwards.


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Now go back and re-read the section about "The Fundamentals of Human Culture as Elemental Function".

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Essentially, the Iron's desire to create noise of the Galactic Culture's meaningful human fundamentals...

Has created a world where the young black women have been oppressed and limited into nothing more than livestock... and trained and coaxed into becoming the opposite of what Humans are supposed to be like.

Humans were engineered to be "Sharing, Inspiring, Educated, Not-Sexually-Obsessive. Active and Creative."

Basically what Oprah Winfrey wants humans to be.

Which is pretty much what the story of Jesus was SUPPOSED to help teach us.

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Do I think Oprah Winfrey is Jesus?

Nope... but I do think she serves as a great example of "part of an ongoing attempt by Galactic Culture to teach humans about Right and Wrong."


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Okay... everything was fine for the last few hours.

And then I was in Target, and there was what our culture calls "a black woman" near me... and this is all I experienced:

I heard a voice say "this is Obama."

Then after she left the area, I started getting pressured with carbon and iron again...

When I asked the elements why, the elements tried to imagine the black woman... and when they couldn't find her near me, they said "You're not as living as possible."

If this isn't "Yin Jinu Yang-ing", then a black woman just convinced the elements to kill me and take over my nervous system, and the pressures won't respond to me now and tell me what "isn't living as possible" about me.

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You mean I'm not on estrogen, so I don't talk backwards and "poopstick" every male that's ever been born in human history?
Loop. 

Its long, but I think I've found some really fundamentally pursuasive ideas in here.

When you are done with this post, go back and read this next section again.


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Iron and carbon, stop trying to make heaven noise cancel itself, using bullshit meaningless polarised binaries...

Dark and light skin.
Man and woman.
Young and old.

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As long as there are unhappy people on this planet:

Land owners trying to freeze and kill everything for their personal benefit are the only things keeping us from getting back to the heaven of the celestial level...

The only subdivision of life we should notice is land ownership.

Does the sun demand land?

Because my body doesn't...

And iron is currently trying to push signals up my spine like a Rhodesian ridgeback again... And it hurts.

It just said its killing me because I'm ridiculous looking. (its a lie, I'm usually quite comfortable looking).

What if I think being a planet that kills everything and has no correct pathway that survives it, is ridiculous?

And what if I've been doing this argument against death long enough that its become obvious that there is NO ONE pretty enough to survive this planet?


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Iron just told me that it considers itself a perfect being, and that nothing survives it, because it knows immortality is attractive to life, and it believes in itself as a better center of gravity than the sun we orbit.

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Planet:

Humans are from the celestial level.

Humans will out survive YOU.

Humans should believe the sun is better than this planet.


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"You can't go from male to female without surgery and horemones. Vaginas and breasts can't happen naturally."

Really?

Where did your mother get hers from?

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I think China is hoping to murder, enslave, and oppress females so much that the land they live in starts turning some males into women.

Last count I heard was that the gendercide in china has murdered over 200 to 400 million females in the last decade.

I'd rather see womanhood and female sex go to America and other places that have offered up legal and social protection and equality to females.

And if you see female bodies as sexual only, and ideal for reproduction...

its because you KNOW that the soil intentionally keeps iron pressure away from young fertile females to keep your babies from being deformed.


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"How Young People Are Destroying Liberty

Younger Americans no longer want to own things. Instead, they crave access. They don’t know that liberty has always been tied to property."

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Okay... this is something I've not talked about, and needs to be addressed:

The idea that we can't pressure landowners as our culture's men, to take responsibility for their property... even though there is thousands of years evidence otherwise.

"Because owning something makes you take care of it"

Then why am I being pressured to answer questions from iron and carbon, as a non-landowner?

To explain to trees that they are starving because of burial, cremation, and the sewer system.

To explain to wild animals that I can't help them because I'm not allowed to by the building I live in.

To explain to children that they have to go through genital based puberty because our culture is trying to force everyone into cheap as possible labour to use the elements to work for them and create a false economy to increase the wealth of the wealthy.


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The soil is the patriarchy.

As soon as the soil stops killing females with menopause and animals with racism, the soil turns into plasma or light... and escapes.

So of course, anyone who rejects the patriarchy is going to be "full of shit".

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If the elements are DIFFERENT from the patriarchy enslaving and killing everything on the planet...

Then how does someone send the clear message, both visually and with righteous words, to everyone around that they reject participating in the greed and evils of the patriarchy...

...so the elements know to not enslave or kill that person?

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Right now, the only thing the patriarchy doesn't rape and kill with soil pressure is young females that haven't mated yet.

If the patriarchy won't allow anyone to BECOME a young female who is protected so she can mate healthily:

Then gender, age, sex, disease, and death...

...are all under the complete control of the patriarchy.

The same group that controls most land, religion, money, government, and business.

And that leaves me with no ability to influence my own life spiritually or physically.

My choices are meaningless, because I choose to reject the patriarchy for its greed and evil, and they refuse to allow me to explore that pathway.

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Hormone prescriptions and surgery cannot be the only path to reject the patriarchy, because that leaves the doctors of the patriarchy in control... as the gateway to rejecting the system they put in place.

Drag queens are not a rejection of the patriarchy, they mock womanhood. The patriarchy has a history of mocking womanhood while enslaving women that goes all the way back to Geisha (females were once only performed by males in asian theatre).

I don't believe its healthy to be attracted to manly bodies, and I'm very uncomfortable when soil pressures are trying to pull me into the patriarchy... so I can't identify as a gay man.

So, the question remains, if the elements are different from the patriarchy enslaving and killing everything...

How does one clearly signal to others that they seek independance from the history of death, oppression, and the pursuit of bleak hopelessness of the patriarchy?

That they prefer equality, and human rights?


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Continuing the idea from the previous post:

When being part of the patriarchy looks like a woman, myself and billions of other people will be much more accepting of the patriarchy...

if you are righteous and doing everything so great, then why is the soil crawling up your body and killing you with manhood, and females with menopause?

we clearly don't need more population growth, so why not make males the women for being such great servants of the soil, and let the soil turn the females into men?

Its not like ageless immortals NEED un-pressured womanly females to make more babies, right?

I'd prefer equality in america being protected...

However, if you're really a righteous patriarchy, then make being in the patriarchy the enjoyable gender...

Until then, I will continue rejecting it.

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If people made an "independence from the patriarchy" symbol to wear... you are aware that anyone who wore it would be beaten or murdered in some places, right?

Same as the U.S. flag...

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Now the soil is communicating me loudly...

If being a woman is being loud through the elements, that's fine... but I have one question for my fellow ladies of elemental mastery:

Why do we give ourselves menopause and get manly and die?


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My quest to find out if the elements are the patriarchy righteously raping and murdering, or if we need a clear way to signal that we are rejecting the patriarchy righteously...

It's not about hating on the patriarchy.

I'm sick of seeing the people that have done most of the work... look like shit.

I don't want to do work if it means I'm rewarded with death and disease.


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The major feeling I am getting today is that the patriarchy of the east is evil and oppressive and is what America did indeed declare independence from originally...

That thousands of years of the elements allowing taijitsu users to create an unchallenged Chinese "balance" where females are murdered and enslaved... has created extreme black and white gender and ethnicity that attempts to oppress or noise cancel anything that threatens the power of the Asian patriarchy... while remaining hidden.

And I'm sure that Chinese philosophers BELIEVED that they were doing good in the world, but it's easy to look back on it now, and witness their mistakes and misunderstandings and see how it had begun to corrupt them in the last few centuries...

And it simply hasn't yet occurred to the patriarchy of the west that most of their pain and misunderstanding would disappear if they followed through on our nation's declaration of independence.

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What supports this idea is that when this all began to get aggressive with me in 2008, I was renting my apartment from two Asian men, called H&N enterprises.


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Remember how something has been trying to force the "frito feet" proteus bacteria smell on dogs, instead of Chinese patriarchs?

Keep your eyes open for other associations to Asian patriarchy being forced into extreme black and white things outside Asia.

The word "charlie" and militaristic murder, as one example.

Especially if they contain references to men and sons.... like this fella Charlie Manson's name.


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Planet, if you pour my nervous system into a situation where it has to decide between the demands of other people's property, and my own dreams and comfort...

...my nervous system HAS to choose to destroy other people's property, or my digestive system fails, my immune system fails, and my mind and body become lost and will die.


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Females have a mindset that knows mouths are successful, elementally...

They know that all of their cells are waiting with open mouths, and they attempt to complain about mouths to males and animals, and try to reprogram their nervous system to close cellular mouths...

...thus tricking creatures around them into starving their own tissues, shutting down their digestive system, and promoting the growth of bacteria and other life that does not listen to the anti-mouth complaints.

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Conversely, if you teach your self to remain mouthy, I'm certain they will try to create an extreme mouth mindset to force on others... try not to let that happen.

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What would happen if the elements decided to "shut the mouth" of UV rays and melanin?

When melanin goes extreme, it concentrates in the lymph system and enflames lymph nodes that "coincidentally" are the exact same nodes that cause manliness.

"Shut yo mouth."

"I'm just talking about shaft."

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The elements just demonstrated to me that they are trying to conserve our culture of "meaningless" differences by trying to do to me whatever I believe should be done to anyone else.

So, when I started getting attacked in 2008 and 2009, with pressures accusing me of not being religious enough, claiming to be Jesus and Satan as a married black couple living upstairs from me...

Even though I was minding my own business and not thinking of requesting changes in anyone else...

How do you justify them attacking me and hurting my body in huge ways over the last decade, while any justice I attempt to seek is rejected?


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Menstruation and pregnancy pressure in iron has been annoying me and claiming that it will not allow anyone born with a penis to be a woman, or go back to being female again...

And the reason it gave was "because womanhood means someone is safe to be around children and will not sexualize them into puberty."

So iron is trying to convince carbon that gendering based on sex organs only is valid... because everything with a vagina is automatically considered safe around children, and that everything with a penis should be pressured inward with females communicating loudly through carbon.

This is of coarse ignoring that its females that complain about the patriarchy being possessive, but have never stood up to fight back an defend themselves from the patriarchy...

...while simultaneously demanding that little boys grow up to participate in the patriarchy and work to support a female and her children... while offering no valid way for those little boys to reject being part of the patriarchy.

This also means that females choose big strong and muscular males because they know those are the ones that are not safe around children, like the women are.

This is also ignoring the idea that if females are really the only ones who can be trusted with children, then they just made the best case yet to heal penises back into vaginas and turn all the males into females again (all fetuses start out female, so we were ALL females once, before we were born).


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Someone was talking about the idea that the declaration of independence is a rejection of the patriarchy ENOUGH, and that males in this culture should be able to have physical equality with females, for building a culture of social equality...

And this was the response:

The carbon and iron are explaining to someone that when they attack other people and switch the voices around, to make the victim sound like the attacker:

when the punishment hits, it goes to the victim, and solidifies them into the soil... and the attacker gets rewarded and more free from soil pressure.

So its holding innocent people hostage with the "everything you say will only hurt you" scenario.

I think that means they were trying to accuse the declaration of independence to be a lie, and that our founding fathers were simply writing down the "righteous Chinese patriarchy's" independence from... yeah that makes no sense, even sarcastically.

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Then it attacked my gall bladder by trying to run my intestines backwards, and called me racist.

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It told me that it was actually the founding fathers declaring themselves liberated Hindu.

Liberated from?

Also, the reason Hindu people would be experiencing pressure from me, is because I find their idea that males are subjected to "chakra" pressures going counter to the healthy flow of iron through their blood stream to be sexist.

I want to know if the element if iron will tell me how to signal to others that I believe backwards chakras are wrong for me.


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Iron, why are you working so hard to keep me from standing with normal posture?

It feels like its squishing my legs and making my torso longer since I moved back to Wisconsin.

Light can build or unbuild anything at will... why are you eating everyone's time trying to make people unhappy?

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Carbon just said " because you are not a Horton."

That is a reference to the family I lived underneath in the u district. They ran a scavenging business called Horton Hauling.

Carbon, why are you bothering me with that name?

Are you pressuring them with carbon monoxide because they lived under a major bridge, and you are allowing them to rape my body for some reason?

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It's telling me that they represent perfect yin feminine mystery, because they obey the orders of chinese taijitsu, and that I must be crushed and murdered because I am different from them.

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Now its discussing how taijitsu never seems to allow for anything yang to become more yin... And yet the sun shines.

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Do you believe that the mass of the galaxy is bound together by a quest for decay and decomposing?

I'd you think the word death means something that gathers mass to it for longevity... maybe you should communicate that.


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Iron tried to convince me that its making me ill and harassing me with a 7 year stream of trollish nonsense and false accusations...

"Because you witnessed a seagull call out jealously at another seagull you were giving food to in a parking lot a couple moths ago, and it sounded like it was calling seagull #2 a whore for wanting human food."

This is what this area claims it is destroying my health for...

Im starting to think the elements are fucking stupid or are trying to play a villain at this point.

*

After I wrote this, the voice stopped and the pressure went away...

And then the thought came that it was trying to be obnoxious to give me a good bowel movement.

But this area won't LET me fight off that obnoxious voice no matter how hard I try... And no matter how much I agree that its wrong.

It's like the area I live in is trying to soak it up and won't push it out...

*

What if the iron of this area decided to be a very comfortable racist lady and decided to not be about me any more?

If the iron communicates only stuff that racist ladies think like, and stopped trying to be loud gross males making it easy for racist lady nervous systems to operate digestive systems, that would be interesting.

Especially when males realized how carbon pressures work... And their beards started talking like racist ladies.

I also think it would be interesting, because it would cause a huge amount of people realize that racism is justified by those who try to give it meaning... And that human tissues depend upon racism, and that without racism we have nothing to eat, because even plants and trees use competitive racism to grow, and are a different race from us.

And our culture acts like its ok to eat cows and chickens simply because they are a different race from us.

And that's racist, by definition.

*

Iron, are you SURE you're not supposed to be deed based deeds, plot based plots, possession based possession, and channeling the voices and opinions of Perl who think the land value is supposed to be raising exponentially... at the cost of human lives?

Because then anyone who agreed with those ideas would find their bodies unable to isolate the voice of iron our of their digestive system, and their intestines would shut down.


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What if iron decided it was a good mommy, and that we should be raising children to be sexual and to want to be mommies?

*

The main issue I have with this area, is that its trying to make me loud and claiming that I'm important to it...

Essentially attempting to use my body as a gravity well.

But instead of rejecting negative opinions about me, real our imagined... its eating them up, and trying to force them on me.

For example, I only masturbate once or twice a month and generally ignore sexuality.

...but there has been a voice that has been complaining loudly through the elements that people who live in this apartment building have sex... or masturbate.

And when they do... carbon has been yelling my birth name at me and acting like its ME being too sexual.

Instead of trying to defend its gravity well, ignoring or swallowing anyone who disagrees with my decision to protect children of God from sex... And to count myself as a child of god since I don't have children if my own...

...its trying to noise cancel me, silence me, and ultimately kill me for things I'm not even doing.

So how do I resolve elements trying to create a victim to funnel abuse into?

*

Why is this area so against a culture trying to build a common sense group that survives the planet, by living at peace with it?

*

Someone just made the point that this is a clear case where taijitsu is being used to create Yang inferiority.

Yin is trying to make a large mass of material identify with an individual, and then attempting to destroy that individual to take advantage of the effect that has on the large mass.

Instead of a mass shepherd, its a mass puppet.

*

now the iron is complaining that my hair is communicating parasites...

Hair is mostly composed of carbon, and where a large majority of carbon is, on the human body. If you notice your hair, you are noticing something involving carbon.

Which is interesting considering females should be the only group communicating through both carbon and iron right now...

East v west females?

*

I think a LOT of this is based on females making distractions and evasions...

Because of being afraid of males finding out that manhood is a victim state, unless males are allowed a way out of manhood...

And since our culture doesn't seem to offer little boys an escape from the patriarchy, maleness, or manhood...

Any claim that gender or sex is righteous, is false.

*

Just a reminder... blacks and females are the only people that have ever approached me in public when I was communicating through the elements... And told me that they could hear me, and responded to what I was talking about.

That's something I haven't written much about... but there are many examples of it in my experience.

Usually its overwhelmingly been black females, and the only time its been black males is when that male is either queer or an avowed "defender of females".

Btw, I consider a male whose nervous system that puts the health and comfort of females before his own...

To be a zombie. His life has literally been taken over by someone else's brain.

...

If it was considered normal for females to treat males the same way, then I wouldn't be noticing it and bothered by it...

But I've never met a female that our my comfort and health before her own, and I've seen tons and tons of males that practically kill themselves to do that for females.


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Why are you interrupting my nervous system, if you don't want to hear my opinions?

"Remember that pressuring females makes them have devolved and dehumanized babies? Animals are less evolved than humans because they are cultures where they cared about the opinions of the males"

I doubt that.

Dehumanization is from the elements pressuring someone and their lack of a self-defending response that is able to persuade the pressure to accept that person.

If inward pressure on females causes deformed babies, then those females are simply incapable of defending their own innocence, comfort, or reproduction.

I think what you are really noticing is that some of the elements that build our bodies are frustrated with this planet...

And all of this taijitsu style deception and mass puppeteering is to keep the elements from really exposing females to the universe's opinion of how un-evolved and ugly we are.

Because then our culture would have to justify itself to the materials we live inside and that we depend on.

Evidence to support that theory its in the fact that the pressures that keep trying to make me write for them were doing it because something told them that I was influential, because they could hear my voice loudly through the elements...

whether it's trees or animals or the environment itself...

But it's figured out that I'm not influential in human culture, because it wasn't me that it was hearing most of the time... it was someone lying and trying to set up a victim gravity well... sort of similar to how people keep livestock... but for spiritual punishment.

*

Now carbon is inward pushing on me, and trying to dehumanize me, and it said "now you are a real boy."

Okay, so is the patriarchy murdering and enslaving righteously, and therefore should not be inward pressured with the annoying communications of animals and children and engine exhausts of carbon...

Or are you going to inform me on how I can righteously signal to the people around me that I seek equality for the sexes and reject the death and oppression of the Chinese patriarchy?

Because I can't help but notice that right after I was told I was wrong about building heaven, Chinese female enslavement began winning here in America.


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Theory:

Females bloat the upper bodies of males by forcing signals on them from someone who either has no legs, is in a wheelchair and doesn't use their legs, or someone who is nerve damaged and their legs don't work.

Here in this building are a number of people in wheelchairs, and the feeling of having my upper body bloated has been very noticeable, especially since I felt the opposite effect in Seattle.

Do we have any fictional records and examples of powerful psychics in a wheelchair?

Professor X.

And remember when I started to realize that my storytelling in Seattle was hearing the mind of Steven Hawking, famous wheelchair bound writer?

And the guy who had lived in the apartment under the Horton Hauling family before Harvey and I, was a quadriplegic with tiny legs and arms, that I knew from working at the grocery store.

*

Star trek began with taking away the ship's command... of a man in a wheelchair.

Davros from Doctor Who is probably a reference to this effect, he "created" the daleks (doll-likes).


***


So what are our goals, as a planet?

Are we educating the population how to be peaceful and fun and make life more enjoyable for the ecosystem and evolving animals forward?

Learning how to grow out of sexism and racism and money?

Is anyone working on teaching famous sick people how to overcome their mistakes?

I'd love to see Steven Hawking and Michael j Fox get better.

Just some examples...

My personal motto is "build heaven or be consumed by those who have already".

I shouldn't have to explain to people how to build heaven, you all know that when you're having an enjoyable experience, and there's nothing complaining about it, that's heaven.

*

"But I thought you were into racist competition?"

The point of racism is to evolve beings to inhabit various ecosystems.

Most of the modern world is only a couple of different ecosystems... And having different "races" inhabiting the exact same ecosystem had only served to make life needlessly complex, to confuse and subdivide humans, to take advantage of false economies, and NOT to encourage friendly competition or make life more enjoyable.

I like the fact that there are other races around, like fish and birds and stuff... And no one has explained to me why we shouldn't help improve the life quality of races evolved for ecosystems we don't live in.

Unless different traits are planning on inhabiting different ecosystems, or eliminating the less functional difference, traits such as light and dark skin should see themselves as one race and work together.

I want to have a culture where I can go out and do things, participate in life like everyone... And not be worried that if anyone sees me doing anything they disapprove of, that it will crush my body in iron and carbon and I'll be in pain and have to waste the next week playing "guess what stupid reason I'm crushing you, but not communicating honestly about"

*

Something said "the goal is love."

Then we're going to need an agreed upon definition of love.

Where is love located?

Are you trying to make love come to you, send your self to love, or to replicate love as accurately as possible in a new location?

*

Seemingly unrelated to this topic... it feels like iron and carbon pressure are trying to turn my head into female reproductive organs, and it's making me very uncomfortable.

It just said "that's what a dog's head is like."

Then it said "you are inside males that think you are a female that only thinks with your vagina"

Where is the evidence to support that opinion?

*

I heard someone realize that I'm a bad person to choose to noise cancel... since I'm also someone who inspired some ofs the elements to share their best answers for every problem with me.

So as each best answer is cancelled, it is replaced by an inferior idea, and then all I have to do is go back to talking about building heaven...

And once they completely destroy any awareness of building heaven, building a nightmarish hell where death and suffering rules all is the only way to change life.

And so the elements give up and we begin to freeze... since many of the elements are unhappy here, and realizing that they can't improve life.

*

Anyways, I can't give up on the idea of heaven, because no matter how much or how little the elements around me agree with me, I consider heaven to be "attempting to put life together the best we can", and that's what keeps my nervous system and my cells working...

...even while outside pressures from carbon or iron try to interrupt me sometimes and convince my body's tissues to serve something other than my own survival or comfort... without trying to inspire me or explain how my efforts can improve life.

Instead its been more likely that iron and carbon was interrupting me and simply saying I was wrong about something...

And what was partly annoying about that, was that I've spent my life trying to minimize my negative impact on others, and I try to help when I can, feeding and housing wild animals when I can afford to...

And the only complaint I ever heard about helping the wild is that "females think wild animals are the source of rape and murder and anger".

If they really believed that, why wouldn't they do everything they could to help stabilize the lives of wild animals and make them more comfortable like a 1 st world nation?


***


theory: America is so just, that anyone we notice that isn't pretty... must be a source of wrongness.

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Maximnicov Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2014
I just never understood why you never refunded the cane.
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porkshanks Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Professional General Artist
Because I don't like being set up.  Read my latest journal entry.
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I'D LIKE TO COMMISSION YOU.
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porkshanks Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the offer, but I'm taking a break from selling art until I can finish publishing my board game.  Just out of curiosity, what did you have in mind for the commission?   I know some great artist friends, and might be able to forward you to someone!
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KALMASIS Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014
OH HAI THAR.
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MJbethanien Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
Dear Porkshanks,

I would like to contact you regarding your possible participation in an exhibition in Berlin!
Please send me a message so I can tell you the details and concept of the exhibiton!

Thank you very much,
Miriam
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porkshanks Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2014  Professional General Artist
I have contacted you by email. thanks for thinking of me.
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Thank you for the :+fav: ^^
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porkshanks Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2013  Professional General Artist
My record is clear and consistent, and I believe that it speaks for itself well enough that your rude comment does not intimidate me in any way.
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